Edy

sugar is an addiction .. yesterday i ate 300 gr. of chocolate .. i basically eat any amount i have at home .. therefore how unnerving it is that if you want to buy just a little piece of your favourite stuff, you cant because they are selling only big boxes .. sigh... keep up good work Kel !

Hey Yoda I think there is something in your hypothesis regarding connection between for example sugar addition and nicotine .. i have experienced more cravings for smoking when I was eating gluten .. sugar doesn't seem to effect me so much in that sense, but bread pasta etc... yes - how strange - probably similar mechanism to drinking alcohol and increased craving to smoke. Congrats on your quit! I am on my 10th day of quit .. can't sleep and so feeling like a zombie ..

ok.. today is my third day quit .. with a little bit of help from nicotine replacement tablets .. first day wasn't too bad .. but yesterday i was feeling nostalgic, sad, like a depression creeping in... as if i had lost some a dear friend .. (terrible feeling) and so deceitful! .. Actually, today is my brother's birthday - but he died - lost to another addiction ..

... yes..

Thanks you are right ... indeed there are things that are laying around and could do with my attention... qi gong sounds good too ... oh dancing! Yeah I love that ...

Ok .. step one - i will take a shower .. i still dont know if today is going to be the day ... of quitting .. but does it make sense to start in the midday..?? then i need to confirm exactly what time i have a my dentist app... today ... i sometimes forget things .. i mix them up .. but than in the eve I probably meet a friend in a park - this is something to look forward to .. ! if that happens .. because she works a lot and hopefully she will still have the energy.. life is not fair (who said it was supposed to be, right?! ) some have too much work .. some none!

thank you all for your support! I am here .. today 8 am ... and thinking of all the reasons not to quit.. that is my brain telling me, it is a internal fight .. when shall i start : now?? there still 3 left in the pack but how will i mange ... here is what reasons I have.. ( i really hope my identity is not recognised .. ) Please do rationalyse it - please do tell me it is wrong .. -my brain is mess - apparently i have cPTSD - dysregulation .. etc .. - i probably can not manage myself - and my therapist .. yeah .. the therapists hiere (I live in Switzerland _ i hope that is OK that join this forum - it is not country restricted?) they do not support quitting smoking !! i was told that before .. because they believe it is too much to handle for a patient .. so not much support there ... - I have nothing to do - no day structure - out of work - no family - how do i keep myself busy - it already drives me mad!! I already struggle to go out of the flat even for a walk .. how will i keep myself busy .. although i suspect my current heavy smoking is actually a result of frustration of this situation and avoiding something ... avoidance of what .. ? will i find out when i quit ? and probably will have to face it...??! OMG... that is terrifying.. ... and on the other hand .. i feel my "lungs are talking to me" .. they struggle .. and are begging me please stop that .. and that horrible taste in my mouth ..

... and last time when I was quitting with support of this forum - it was sooo easy .. suspiciously easy.. and when got back to smoking it hit me like never before, from having one cigarette i bought a pack straight away and was smoking more than ever per day ..

.. how did it happen again .. why am i in the starting point again .. i dont know - i can not figure it out, and i was postponing the quiting till i know what happened, till i am "smart enough" .. but i dont think i will ever know it .. and I can not smoke anymore - i feel like it is killing me - not even my body - but my mind!! does it make sense??

Good morning/evening to all, it is a day 4! .. and I am actually doing good ...i am not struggling as much i did in the past.. which is strange.. it makes me feel: - embarrassed: why was i postponing it for so long .. and was panicking about the quit exactly!! - embarrassed also because.. i am wondering why am i so privileged to have it easier than others .. feeling sorry for others .. - anxious that the addiction is not manifesting right now as expected and normal.. but it will hit me later when i am less cautious.. - as it is being a relatively easy quit .. i may just think .. oh.. i have no problem .. i can do it any time .. .. and will relapse again .. today was actually somehow the hardest day so far .. more cravings and i felt like crying ... not sure if it is due to quitting or life itself ..

Thank you , thank you all! .. the day one has began for me .. I am just trying to make myself busy... and concrete on something different that’s why I didn’t respond so far .. I will try to survive till the evening and then I will reflect... that’s the plan...

tomorrow ... thank you both.. i am already totally stressed and irritated .. and feel that cribbeling .. therefor i think it is regardless smoking .. and smoking may make it actually worse ..

Hello all, Please I need your help, support. I want to quit again ... I’m struggling with making this decision, scared of making decision ... shall i do it now or tomorrow..? I’ve done it several times before: each time was different. Sometimes it was a huge struggle sometimes easier .. Once i even thought: OK i am quitting the last time: if it works great, if it doesn’t ... let it be.. I was so tired of going through it, that I was ready to accept it if I had failed .. but here I am and I don’t want to accept it ... it is so self- destructive .. so against the human nature .. I feel horrible.. i feel guilty, frustrated, and angry at myself .. Just a thought of quitting makes me panic and make grab another one . ... just as if I wanted to store as much as possible in me .. haha ... how absurd.. I had some good excuses why I started again .. but I know I didn’t have to - it was self pity or self distraction.. Please help me with starting ... and I will keep going ... the words: "you can do it" can do miracles.. all the best to all of you - keep on ..