mrsguest

Thank you, as always! I hope I am helping others as I go! That would be wonderful I am guarding my quit with my life, - I cannot give up! I didn't suffer for nuttin' ... no way!

It's close enough to midnight here in Michigan for me to say NOPE! for Friday I don't smoke anymore

Thank you, Linda I think I am addicted to the forum, lol I want to post a LOT but I restrain myself.

I am working on a diamond painting! so much fun, keeps my fingers & mind super busy and hey, this is right where you'll catch me on Friday night too I'm wild

OK sooooooo - my husband still smokes. In the house! Which is strange because he is not a heavy smoker. He's what I call an "eh" smoker ... one of those people who can kinda take it or leave it. I'm a bit pissed he ain't 'leaving' it more often now that I have gone cold turkey. Truth be told, cigarettes smell real good to me still. I am suffering a bit, and trying not to be a bitch by telling him to take it outside, or whatever. But on the other hand I am pissy because why should I have to freaking ask? Ugh! Thanks, as always, for listening to me vent! I'm still holding strong, my quit is not in danger.

Courtesy of my grandma, God rest her angelic soul - here is the # 1 reason I gave not to quit smoking. I am dead serious. This story is all her. /////SCARY STORY #1: Every major holiday (Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc.) my grandparents would host dinner in their home; a huge feast ... I mean HUGE. And every year, and when I say every year, I mean every single year, every single holiday dinner, my grandmother (nani) - a nonsmoker of 30+ years would finish her meal, lean back in her chair, and say: "Boy, I sure could go for a cigarette right about now!" I would ask her, "Nani, are you for real craving a smoke?" and she would tell me YES! ///// Now, my rationale is this: if you can quit smoking for 30+ years and STILL crave a smoke after a meal then WTF is the point? Who wants to live like that? Certainly not me! I would rather go ahead and have the damn smoke! /////SCARY STORY #2: My mom smoked for about 30 years. Then when she turned 47, she needed heart bypass surgery. That's right, open heart surgery at the age of 47! The doctors told her if she didn't bother to quit smoking after the surgery, they might as well not bother even doing the surgery. So she quit cold turkey in the hospital/home. Today, my mom is 65. That's 18 years quit. Now she tells me at least once every six months that she wants to start smoking again. Arghh! I know she'll never smoke again ... but still, it upsets me when she says that to me! ///// I could never understand why anyone would want to give up their smokes for so long and still want one so many years later! I mean really, really, crave one! Obviously my thinking is a little different now, thanks very largely in part to the members of this board and Joel's videos. As you can see in the picture, my nani was a hot mama in 1947 (I think that's the date) I hope y'all like that I post pictures and it doesn't annoy you instead! Please let me know if it is annoying, I cross my heart & hope to die promise that I won't be upset if it is! Someone can just shoot me a message to my inbox, and that way I will know.

Thanks you all!! I think you all are amazing Hell week? Really?!?! I am excited to know this! Last time I quit for about 3.5 weeks and I have a fuzzy memory of the last part. I am glad I have made it thru!

Congrats!

NOPE!

Wow, it is day 7 already - time has went by fast, kinda . . .take a look at this mish mash I made up - in no particular order, just a jumbled mess! I have some thoughts to share: First - Everyone is so super helpful here and I am more appreciative than I could ever express. I'd like to mail you all $20 bills & (((hugs))), lol - really. Second - I am sick and tired of suckers. I am open to suggestions that don't involve candy. My mouth is literally sore and there are sores on the roof of my mouth and my tongue from the suckers/candy. Plus it can't be good for my teeth either. Obviously. Third - I am still reeling over the fact that I am nicotine-free! I am so proud I must be beaming! Doing this without NRT's has been a very, very wise choice IMO. Fourth - I still want to smoke But I remain determined NOT TO! NOT ONE MORE PUFF! Other things worth mentioning today I suppose: - I wake up a lot during the night, I never used to do that. A train could roll thru my room & I wouldn't budge. But now I am up every couple hours. - I smell things I never smelled before. My under-eye make-up actually has a scent! I never knew that. So crazy! - Speaking of the nose, mine runs constantly now. It ran a LOT before, but now it's constant, which is making my throat hurt as well. - I can't pretend like I am all happy & nice right now, because I am the opposite. I am quite miserable to be around right now. I snap at people for little reason, etc. I am a very huge bitch (excuse my French, but that's the only way I know how to put it!) - I got a new diamond painting I have been working on, (Jack & Sally) - I will post a pic when I am done. It definitely keeps my mind off smokes! Sorry for the silly pic ... I am a picture person! I think it is important to take lots of pictures for memories and I am a silly girl lol Sorry for the rambling as well! I at least tried to keep it orderly. I just wanted to document this nonsense somewhere.

that is a very beautiful thing to say and I really appreciate it. I really have taken this to heart.

Thank you! I need this today

Absolutely! It's not as fun as it might look. It's very thankless. I'm struggling to find stuff to do at break now that I'm not hurrying to smoke the whole time. It's actually a nice time!!

NOPE!!!!

that's impressive!

They all look so pretty & happy!

Not sure what my ticker says until I post lol - gosh I am nerdy! Sorry Mightyboosh! But whatever that count is, I am very proud of it you should be too!

NOPE!

I got to come home early today, as there was a ton of people there today! Plus there's a bit of a long story behind it - I have a worker's comp case open, I will explain it one day! Here's my pic:

well, duh, it had to of rolled off today. lol

Ugh! I quit while I was off work (I work M-Th, 10+ hours per day) so I haven't been at work while I quit yet. Next week we are going back to a 5x8 (M-F) schedule. I will deeply miss my Fridays off! Deeply! Working on the assembly line is different from 'other' work. We have time to 'think' a lot, if you will. Our jobs are mindless, boring, repetitive, monotonous, you name it. I just hope I don't think about smoking! Last time I was ok, but last time I had the patch. This time I am going solo! Then again, I have to wait until each break to walk 80 miles to get to a door to the outside to go smoke ... I am actually looking forward to spending my breaks the way I want to, instead of the way I had to, smoking a damned cigarette! Plus I cannot write on the board here because it's an assembly line & I cannot assemble and write at the same time! That line gets to moving pretty quickly sometimes! I don't want anyone to think that I bailed. I will try to get on here if I can, but it might be hard with just my cell phone. Anyway, here is a picture of what I assemble all day. I think this one just rolled off today or yesterday.

Awwww You are right at home here, Twice I am a super bitch today, excuse my French! And time seems to go on and on and on .....

I totally understand, thank you Lilly! I have an extra in my purse in case I start freaking out.

ugh, I am at 155 - need to be at 135 at the very least. I gained all that weight quitting last time! it's true! going to walk this evening for a few .. hopefully it doesn't rain on me.

I feel very strange. I do not feel any different from when I had the patch on. I suspect the patch was not working properly and I have been 'cold turkey' this entire time. No wonder I have been so utterly miserable this time! It would explain the mood swings and awful cravings I would get.