I'm sorry to hear that you have relapsed again Linda. Please don't be mad at my comments. I'm a very analytical person and just trying to help you...OK? Based on the things you say, I don't really think you do understand the addiction.
You say: "Feeling pretty weak."
You are not weak. You are an addict like the rest of us. Every addict desires their substance of abuse while they are putting the addiction to sleep. It's a waiting game. Eventually you will no longer desire nicotine but you have to wait for your brain to get used to not having it. Using the patch, you have been weaning yourself from nicotine. After you are done using the patches, your brain will get used to no nicotine.
You say: "I can not make it to a month."
This is not true. You have to want to quit and you need to commit to your quit. Every quitter wants to smoke sometimes. This is totally normal and I don't believe that there is any way around it. You have to work through this. After enough time passes, you will rarely even think about smoking anymore.
Now here is what I think is the most important thing to learn about smoking. It does absolutely nothing for you! It does not relax you; it does not help you cope with life; it does not keep you entertained; cigarettes are not your friend. If after almost a month of not smoking, you go back to it, you must think that it does something for you. You're romancing the cigarette. You need to learn that smoking does nothing for you, you are simply an addict.
