Kdad

Thanks for support! I am still smoke free.

Well I smoked a few times this morning and then I destroyed the pack. I definitely want to quit for myself. It is just embarrassing that I have so many set backs. I've been watching the videos and that helps.

My wife does not want me to smoke so I was hiding smoking from her. This unfortunately caused me huge guilt about smoking. I would get caught eventually and have a lot of guilt and shame. I feel like this scenario makes quitting more complex. I know I want to quit for myself but the act of sneaking somehow makes it more dire. It seams like guilt and shame are part of smoking but they make you want to smoke. There is a "damn the world'' thought that takes over and you have a smoke. Guilt and shame may help you to quit but there is another side to them. They can breed deviance and covert behavior. I just want to be understood and seen as someone who is suffering immensely. I'm in pain even when others won't see it.

Man I wan't a smoke. I slept until 2:30 today. I couldn't get out of bed without a cigarette waiting for me. Anyone else have sleep problems in the first couple days?

I quit this morning and it is sooo hard. Mental demons. Need all the support I can get.

No smoking since this am. Feeling good!

How do I update my ticker? It keeps defaulting to the old one.

Pack destroyed! I am on the train.

I have almost a full pack. Thinking about destroying it.

8 months, 2 years before that

new ticker

Well. I am home alone on disability. I think I started out of boredom but I am hooked again. I need to connect again to this forum...

Help!!! I started smoking again. Ugh... I can't seem to quit. Any advice? KDAD

Haven't managed to quit this time. Any advice?

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I can't seem to shake it this time... HELP!!!

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Ha!! FLUSHED THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN DO THIS!

Ugh! Still can't quit. I feel like I am close... Bought a new pack though.

Sorry to say I am still smoking. The nico-demon is strong with this one. How do I change my ticker?

Thanks all. I am motivated. Had my last cig at 8am_ish. Resisted the temptation to buy another pack so I clear now. Born to run!

I feel weak and overpowered...

I think about missing future Grandkids, hopefully. And what it does too my family...

So glad I have you guys! For sure it was stress. Need other coping mechanisms.