Kdad

Ok. Destroyed the pack. Here we go!

Thanks for the kind words. I still have half a pack that I can't seem to destroy. I can just get a new pack so what is the point.

I can't remain quit! I watched all the videos and read the posts and I still cant quit. I am desperate. I feel like I am letting everyone here down.

Link to other perspective.

Can we post links to youtube videos?

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This forum is saturated with reasons not to smoke. I thought it was useful to list the supposed reasons why we smoke, even though they are debunked or out right false. 1- It calms down nerves 2- The morning buzz from the first cig. 3- It is refreshing after a meal. 4- It affords me a break 5- Reason for a trip outside 6- It makes me cooler 7- It is soothing because of the addiction 8- The impulse is strong 9- Oral fixation 10- Affirms independence That is all I could think of. Pretty lame. I think it is better to stay quit.

Major urge right now. Thinking about just going to the gas station down the street and buy a pack. It would be so easy to start again. I am worried about Monday when I will be all alone in the house. I am on disability but my wife works and daughter is at school.

Great to hear. So far I'm letting the urges come and just try to observe them. It seems to work. I try to remain as an observer, curious and detached. It is helping so far.

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That's a great post! Thank you.

Never mind, got it.

How do you edit your profile?

I keep updating it but it defaults back.

Thanks for support! I am still smoke free.

Well I smoked a few times this morning and then I destroyed the pack. I definitely want to quit for myself. It is just embarrassing that I have so many set backs. I've been watching the videos and that helps.

My wife does not want me to smoke so I was hiding smoking from her. This unfortunately caused me huge guilt about smoking. I would get caught eventually and have a lot of guilt and shame. I feel like this scenario makes quitting more complex. I know I want to quit for myself but the act of sneaking somehow makes it more dire. It seams like guilt and shame are part of smoking but they make you want to smoke. There is a "damn the world'' thought that takes over and you have a smoke. Guilt and shame may help you to quit but there is another side to them. They can breed deviance and covert behavior. I just want to be understood and seen as someone who is suffering immensely. I'm in pain even when others won't see it.

Man I wan't a smoke. I slept until 2:30 today. I couldn't get out of bed without a cigarette waiting for me. Anyone else have sleep problems in the first couple days?

I quit this morning and it is sooo hard. Mental demons. Need all the support I can get.

No smoking since this am. Feeling good!

How do I update my ticker? It keeps defaulting to the old one.

Pack destroyed! I am on the train.

I have almost a full pack. Thinking about destroying it.

8 months, 2 years before that