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Beautiful lake tonight. I think it was that way just for me. Sat and calmed down and ate every one of my whoppers. This beautiful view (Lake Erie) is a few blocks from my street. I don't know why I don't go down and enjoy it more. Thanks guys for jumping in and bringing me to my senses. Two more days and it will be 3 mos. I would have kicked myself if I threw that away!!!!!!!

This will be what it looks like after the whoppers.

@Sazerac he is going to have a cold butt for a while. Mad at him too. Gave him my honey do list with a big ultimatum.

Okay just got the prescription, walked past the smokes, but could not resist the malted whoppers. Still have to drop pills off at parents. Maybe I won't go home but go sit by the lake, breath and eat my whoppers!

I know that. That is why I posted. You guys can talk me out of anything and make me smile. I really think it is going to take a lot to get me out of this foul, smoky thinking mood.

I have been doing hospice taking care of my friend and it has not been easy. Her niece is a smoker and she kept sneaking outside for a smoke. She kept hugging me last night and for the first time since my quit I was starting to crave Not that I mind being there. I love this lady very much but it is emotional. Then good old mom and dad are feeling neglected, maybe jealous I am not giving them attention. My mom called and told me I needed to take dad to the dentist and two Dr. Appt. this week. So took him to the dentist, which took 3 hrs. this morning. He did not want to wait for prescription so I took him home and went back. Now 3 hrs later, the dentist called and and said I needed to come in and pick up a script for pain for my dad. They can not call it in because it is an opioid. So here I sit at the pharmacy 10th person in line and then probably a half hour wait and I am boiling on the inside. Mad at the world. I so feel like giving in to that darn smoke. I feel like I could jump out of my skin. Oh my goodness did you ever feel l8ke running away. That is me!

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Jo, your story breaks my heart. Your suffering has been insurmountable. I so admire your courage and strength. The fact that you did not cave during these difficult times shows how much determination you have. You are an inspirational to us all. I wish I could be there to just hold and comfort you.

Rhino, I was tired most of the time but had a very difficult time with depression. If you can't seem to get out of the fog, you might discuss it with you physician. That first month is a tough one but you can do it. We are so glad you are reaching out to us.

That is so awesome T. Once I got through the first month, I have had no urges to look back on that part of my life. So have confidence in you quit. You will continue to get stronger and feel so much better about yourself!

I found the crew.

I can't believe you haven't seen the whole Wizard of Oz. It was always a big tv moment when I was a child. I do not like roller coasters and flying really scares me but for some reason I wish I had the ***** to zip line.

In this day and age, that is something to be very proud of. I knew you were special the first day I met you. It doesn't , by chance, have anything to do with that frying pan lol?

Me neither. I told you my only vice was smoking and now that darn stick of the day. I do have facebook but only because it has kept me connected to my grandchildren and many of the children that rode my schoolbus. I have so enjoyed watching them grow up and successfully grow into life.

Carder28 - Sweetie you can do it for yourself and that wonderful bundle growing on this inside. You are in the right place for all the support and help you need. It is just a matter of getting through the first couple of days and then outsmarting the crave. When you feel the urge, close your eyes and envision that beautiful, healthy child you are going to be holding and loving. Stay close and shout out if you need us. We are here for you!

Welcome Rhino. You have definitely found the right place to help you through your quit. There is so much information here. Lots of support too. You have a good start going, so just keep pushing through. You will be amazed at how much better you feel about yourself as you get past this addiction. We are here for you. Just shout out anytime!

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Nope because I am never giving up.

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My husband has one and he is no where near a rich wanker. I married him for his looks!

Nope not today.

Me too! My husband used to point them out all the time and I always thought he was just a crabby old man. Then, all of a sudden they started jumping out at me! Well ten hour shift is enough to put you over the edge. How do you do it! The first part of my quit, I wanted to strangle everyone. Fortunately everyone survived! Hang in, you are doing great.