This post came at a very very apt time @Doreensfree, my heartfelt thanks for it.
I don't necessarily want to term my quit as anything, but that then makes it absolutely a good fit for "no man's land".
Considering the stress at work nowadays (and I know who doesn't have stress at work), but the stress of asking people to walk out after giving years of their life to a place, is quite disturbing. This makes you examine whether your brain and your heart even sync up anymore.
Anywho, so on the back of those 'existential' questions, the past couple of days I've had way too many urges to smoke one...and I've had multiple opportunities. I don't know why I haven't picked one up yet, myriad reasons, all of the amazing support on this forum being one of them, sometimes, the sheer "weakness" of my mind being one of them.
As I write this, it's 1.30 AM in Mumbai, and I can picture myself out on my balcony, in the olden days, having a smoke. Rushing in, brushing my teeth and spraying some air-freshener, in case my mum walks in (yes I do live with my mother, as is quite common in India).
Then I now open the window, step out on to the balcony and just stand there, smelling the fresh air and realize I can't solve that problem with a smoke.
These minute by minute reminders and reinforcements that smoking won't change a thing are what's getting me by, and now, this topic and post that you shared only adds to my fragile determination (paradoxical term, I know).
But thank you once again, and sorry for all the rambling.
Thanks to all of you for ensuring people like me don't give up.