So I still have the occasional cravings, and they've become a bit frequent due to a lot of stress at work.
I know I'm supposed to be used to it, this roller coaster I'm on has been running for a while. However that nagging little voice keeps telling me quite a few times throughout the day - just one, what difference does it make? Just take a break ok, you can go back to being quit.
And this is what I tell that stupid voice...if it won't make a difference, why should I have even one? Will my work become less stressful with a puff? I force myself to focus on how hard I've fought for my quit this time, and the lovely milestones each one of you on here celebrate each day. I'm in elite company, and I'd be a fool to give that up and give up on myself.
So when the urge comes knocking, I remember NOPE and keep telling myself "You're better than this, you're stronger than this and you won't be defeated by an imaginary voice in your head!" I'm prepared for the fight ahead, because there's no way I'm letting my guard down.
I've seen the benefits of quitting: not needing to hide that butt around kids, not worrying about slinking out to have a fag, not smelling like a burnt tobacco farm, not having to have way too many visits to the dentist and not having to spend money for this disgusting habit. Not having to hide the lighters, lest someone at home finds them (yes they didn't know I smoke, and they don't know I have quit), worrying I'll run out of air fresheners the odd time I used to smoke at home...oh god, the list is endless.
I fight for my quit everyday, because my quit is fighting for me!!!