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This morning I feel a bit flat mentally. And thinking it may be because I am not getting dopamine because nicotine still has the receptors hijacked, but no nicotine. Bye bye nicotine. and this - quiiting cold turkey - isn't nearly as bad as I feared. So many lies i lived and believed.

Time to do...nothing sometimes Not thinking about how I am going to get in my next cig Learning and seeing truths I was "unaware" My daughter ... she is so patient and supportive. She makes me smile and laugh at myself. Being free from having to have one, being free from nicotine commands, feeling very good about saying nope My body and mind recovering Being on this journey to find myself again

Here's my 420

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I didnt go to work today...stayed home so I could take care of myself.:) So i decided i would do some cleaning. And I am amazed at how much cleaning can get done so quicky without having to take a cig break after every task. I turned the music on and cleaned AND...had fun doing it!!! Another lie. NOPE AND BYE BYE NICOTINE!

So true Doreen. I so understand not seeing those things. I didnt nned tape though. Just didnt look. Been there done that. Yes, addiction sucks.

Yes ela...yes. I was thinking of the movie matrix and once the old fake reality began unraveling, it was the beginning. Our mind us something else.

I love it. This morning I was also singing a song to nicotine: your not welcome anymore, you tried to make me cry but did I crumble, did i lay down and die. No not I. Yep...bye bye nicotine. I remember a breakup with a couple loves of life. At first, I thought about them all the time and cried. Now, I can't even remember ones name. Never give them a thought.

Hugs Jenny.

Thanks for sharing your journey. It is interesting and you have been helpful to me on my quit. WTG on your smoke free life!

Good morning Nope!

Unbelievable! I DON'T smoke! I DON'T want to smoke! OMG! I am rejoicing; every moment and every breath. I thought this was just a cliche saying at first Saz. But then I googled and now I understand. I am drinking LOTS of water and eating regularly. I did used to go without breakfast until 11:00 am, then would have brunch. But now, I NEED to eat more regularly - I will eat smaller meals/snacks, but need to keep my blood sugar up. So far so good. I don't understand why I was so afraid. I am feeling very good and very excitited about this all. If I get a crave, I know what it is; most of the times I can get rid of it with a chuckle at what I am trying to say to myself (have just one), a couple times I had to get up and take a nice walk, others it is medidation. One not feeding my body nicotine!!! 11 days not smoking.

Congrats!

Congrats!

Congrats Rose!

Hi johnny5, I love your picture of the toddler. That look on his/her face is how I feel right now. When I see that pictures, it really reminds me...I CAN do this. I AM doing this. So cute

And all is good this morning It feels soooo good not to be putting nicotine in my body. It feels good to be able to breathe a little better each day.

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Thank you all for your support and for being there!!! Strange how you all, who I never met never knew existed until a week ago are so darn important to me. I think it is only people like you who have gone through this can understand and not judge my craziness a what I am going through. WE ARE strong. Thank you for letting me borrow and share you strength and helping me find mine. I went for a nice walk and swim. I will take a patch to work with me tomorrow, just in case.

I am beginning to believe that I AM stronger than my craves. What a great place to be. And SAZ, your question regarding why I am on the patch has made me dig deep - for me, It is/was FEAR that I wasnt strong enough. I QUIT smoking; I am so done with it, and now do embrace the withdrawal. But I was still putting nicotine into my body. I want it gone. There is not one good thing that smoking/nicotine gives me or does for me. It is a lie that I enjoyed smoking, that it made me happy, or that it calmed me Down. It was the addiction. I am an ADDICT. So while there is not one good thing it did for me, there are many bad things shielded in the lies/denial i lived in.that is worse fog then I will experience in days/weeks to come. No more smoking. No more nicotine. I am giving up my self induced slavery and reclaiming freedom. I am giving up lies and seeing and accepting truth. I am giving up fear and trading it in for strength. If I do experience 5 days of fog as I initially feared, there will be times during those 5 days that I am seeing through the fog as a smoke and nicotine free person on my way to FREEDOM.

Hi Saz, I am so thankful that you suggested I create a pre-response to myself for an SOS situation that might arise in the future. I just went through a particular bad crave/feeling and was going to post an SOS, but I had followed your advice and went and created a pre-response the other day. So before posting an SOS, I read my pre-response and followed it. It took about 1/2 hour of following the advice, but the situation passed and I feel so much better! Thank you, your advice is very much appreciated.

Well Suz, it is all relative. 56 is young to me. I am 65 (in 2 months) and I am not too old. WTG on your quit. So many negative voices in our heads...good job not listening to them.

Yes, me too. I am very thankful that the negative doesn't overshadow the positive. I keep a diary and while the negatives demand the most attention, there are more positives that would happily be quiet if I didn't take the time to appreciate them. Kind of reminds me of "bad" and "good" behaviour from my daughter. The first and only time she threw a fit, she was about 3. She got down on the ground and began kicking her fit and screaming because she wanted something right now and for some reason I didn't jump as fast as she wanted me to. I didn't know what the heck to do...what was my little angel doing? So I walked in the other room and laughed...I didn't want to laugh at her, but I thought what the heck? She stopped immediately when she realized she wasn't going to have an audience...lol. So when a crave/urge/messed up way of thinking comes my way, I breathe and meditate...go someplace in my mind where these things do not follow or exist. FREEDOM!!!! So many valuable lessons to learn

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