TravellingSunny

What a triumphant feeling that must be for you! Sorry that you got second-handed, but congratulations on your one-year anny last month and keeping the quit! Very inspirational!

Outer Banks is beautiful, and you should have decent weather for it! I only live a 30 minute drive from there, so it's a favorite day trip for me and mine.

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How long ago did your partner make this "announcement"? 18 years is a long time to just throw away.... anything that you can think of to have prompted it? I know if my husband (coincidentally of 18 years) made such an announcement, I would be a blubbering mess. So, I'll give you the advice that I would give myself. (I can't say I would follow my own advice, but I hope that I would.) Go take a walk. Just around the block. Sunshine is an excellent mood enhancer. Once you've taken that walk, open your blinds and curtains, open the windows if the weather is nice. Let mother nature soothe you a bit. Then, find a hobby. NOT TV. Puzzle, or knitting, or anything really. And if it's portable - BONUS! Take that hobby to your local park and sit in the sunshine while you play with your hobby. And, please try to have a nice long talk with your partner when you're able. Suggest counseling or working together in some other way to improve the relationship. It's never too late. Treat your partner the way you want to be treated - even if that's not how you're being treated right now. Keep making that person a priority. Hopefully, they will come around after a bit.

What are you doing right now, Pumpkin?

It's harder here at work than I thought it would be. At home, I can distract myself with music or television or books or crafts or housework or literally ANYTHING else. In this Accounting office, all is super-quiet while everyone is busy calculating numbers and trends, and I can't concentrate with music playing anyway --- but now I can't concentrate at all. GRRRR!!!!!

You poor dear! I am so sorry that you are struggling. First of all - YOU DID NOT FAIL! You may have stumbled, but look at you. In the midst of a very dark period, you knew you needed help and here you are. And guess what? Here we are! Ready to support you. You will not get any lectures on your health out of me. Here's a question for you, though. How'd the cigarettes make you feel? After going almost a year without smoking, I'm guessing you got a little light-headed, and you probably also were able to pause or dampen the depression a little while you focused on that weird stick in your hand. Maybe? Are your circumstances any better now that you've smoked? Oh, honey, if at all possible, stop smoking them now. We won't judge you if you don't, because we've all been there. You can totally talk through your circumstances either here or through private messages if you're more comfortable. Smoking won't help. Not a single bit. You are obviously a very strong woman as evidenced by the fact that you had almost hit your one-year milestone. Pull on those reserves. Get back on the quit train!

Moaning and Whining. It was only 12 minutes ago? Man, I just want to go home so I can go to sleep and be blissfully unaware of the constant smoking thoughts!

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I ate an entire one pound bag of strawberry Twizzlers on Saturday. I ate ANOTHER entire one pound bag of strawberry Twizzlers yesterday. Today, I brought a TWO pound canister of individually wrapped Twizzlers for my desk. Five hours later... it's half empty. If anyone's looking for a good stock investment... The Hershey Company in Pennsylvania. LOL!

Octain - 4 Me - 3 5 What even is happening??? HAHAHAHA!

G67 - 4 Me - 3

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Half-way through Day 3... STILL NOPE!

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WOW! Powerful stuff. I absolutely love this! But, wait, what? Changed my DNA? I've got some googling to do...

But, the important thing is that you didn't. And, even if you had a lighter available, I doubt you would have. Wanna know why I think that? 'Cause you COULD have asked the Fran Drescher lady for a match. You could've asked the check-out lady. Heck, you could have taken a few butts with you and asked motorcycle guy for a light. But, you didn't. This probably won't be your last foray into questioning how strong your quit is... but as long as you are questioning it - you're thinking straight and not smoking. GOOD ON YOU!!

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Ridiculous. I feel like crying. For no reason whatsoever, I feel the need to cry. Not gonna, but for heaven's sake WHAT IS THIS MADNESS? From Smokefree.org: Oh. Maybe that's why.