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Sound like a plan to me Lin, thinking about a stinky old cigarette butt nasty smell that I can carry with me. Get a crave pop the top sniff and Gag, I agree with you I want the mere thought of smoking to make me gag ! Well how about this i'll get a sealable container something I can carry in my shirt pocket take some cotton balls and let them set in Joe's ash track over the weekend we are at the refuge and then put them into the container and anytime I start to romance the smoke I'll take a whiff and GAG. sounds good. Huston we have a Plan !

Thank you guys The Brave Heart Freedom isn't working for me now, because I am slowly acknowledging that there is no freedom from this, at least that I can associate with. A bluesy thing, but I know I failed due to been over confident after all those months, it s was the I.m free , I,m free, praise the Lord I'm free that I allowed my self to slip back into bondage. I most be smarter this time, I most be stronger this time, and I must maintain my commitment to NOPE, I must ! I Love you Lin not slapping down a Brave Heart, we all must have one to succeed here

KINDA been putting this off fo a little bit, but went to visit with one of my best buds and hunting partner Joe, Now Joe and his wife are smokers and have no plans on not being smokers, ( its their Life's) But both are very good friends. Was worried about being in that much of a smoking environment, now back in my last quit when I lost it Joe was one of the ones I was with so here is where my conviction comes in. and I did just fantastic, he asked I said no thank you he said great and the day went on just as it did before I lost my quit. I know it is poison, I know it if allowed will kill me, I know I Know I Know, why is my mind putting it in front of me as such a nice, soft, pleasant thing ? Surely my mind knows it is poison and refusing to portray it as such, so I still have much work to done on my mental aspect of smoking, AH yes you all have mentioned this before Romancing smoking I believe it was. so here comes some more work ! Reconditioning my thoughts and mind to see smoking as a very bad thing, not this morning with a cup of coffee great thing. I have jumped these hurtles before but now that I think of it I never got over how atracrive my mind portrayed and displayed smoking and that is where I failed. I claimed success far to early let my guards down and lost the war. Now it has been over a year and I have just come to understand this ? I guess the only good thing there is about this is I have shown it to my self, I cant blow it off as some over zealous non smoking advocates pushing their agendas on me. Have to do some work I'll be back

OK my friends time for me to go, you be happy to know you will have Opah Silence until Monday Morning at 6:30 am when I return to Partake of all of your wisdoms and knowledge. Later gators

Yep that picture was taken his first Day in Prison, My My what a difference a Day makes !

OK my Buddies and friends ! I was up and in the shower at 3am this morning, left the house at 4am and drove to the lab to get Blood drawn. I really like this lab jus for this reason it opens at 5am but lets you in to get the paper started at 4:45. So I was in at 445 and on my way to work by 5:10, on the clock at 520, Man I love not wasting any time. so in a couple of days we will see if the meds made a difference, and if I am going to continue them. smoking has taken a back seat to most of my life at the moment, not having serious craves or triggers, the worst is still driving but even it has diminished significantly. I think being preoccupied with me feeling better and more energetic I haven't left much time for the wants or craves. Yes I hear you ! "Don't get cocky locky" there will be days you are not busy and have excess time on your hands ! By the way who says Cocky Locky anyways ? I have heard it believe me it is not from me. oh well back to the thought Boredom, Boring are not in my vocabulary ! If my Father heard anyone of us say I bored there's nothing to do ! That was he's call to arms, there is always something to do he would say and sure enough we would be cleaning the garage or pick up dog poop or one of several unpleasant choirs. So I will find something to do, lately sleep has been the favorite, even My dynamo wife has been content laying with me earlier than normal. This weekend will be full of fun stuff, my little goat needs another thermostat, the one I just put in has failed? (Piss me off) Come Hell or High water I am getting that fill plug out of my Yukons transfer case. after that I am free to play.

Ren you can take control of your dream, you know this dream now very well and when it comes again remind yourself in the dream you don't smoke. When you go to bed close your eye and remember the smoking dream only this time when the cigarette comes in you mentally say Nope I don't smoke, try to relive the dream as many times before you fall asleep. you will be able to say NOPE I your Dream.

Good by me, next weekend I'll be at the Refuge, recycling 12 foot Diameter Aluminum Radar dishes and the weekend after that back to the Ranch for mostly Hunting. I would be nice to be able to head to the top meadows to hunt instead of the lower ones. Got my blood work started this morning in at 4:45am and out by 5am. love it when you don't stand in lines ! IN OUT and ON to the next topic. for arising at 3am I do feel pretty good, but one can not under estimate the adrenaline that a big ass needle being shoved into your arm can generate. Get some coffee and eats to keep motivated all should be well. Thank you Jet

Damn right back into sloth mode ? 1/2 an hour and I am out of here, get paid a hour to shop pick up parts and drive home. guess that is it for the day, No smoke alerts, no major craves, just call me MOLASSES

Well today is starting a little slower than yesterday, not bad getting stuff done welding our OP back together. Got up on time and had a little bit of Breakfast, Just not able to Eat much lately except crap and I am avoiding that, Trying anyways. Functioning at a higher level than before, mind is a bit clearer, got back on some of my vitamins but really need to get back on track. Hey Jet the New meds are the standard trio, Blood pressure, Cholesterol and sugar A1C, they usually stop the cholesterol after the first blood test. These 3 things I will pay attention to, too much can get all screwed up by any one of them. so may as well include them in my Body getting its self together and balanced process. I do want to say and I think we all have at one point in time how much you all are appreciated, the strength, the reassurance, the motivation you guys supply and priceless and a Blessing Thank you

Love it Thank you NOPE

So much fun, I can React to myself

Yea Jet gets it ! Have a conversation, OOOOPS I think I just had a reaction ? Nope Just GAS Sorry just missing the fun and comratory we had.

Man its so close to the end of another day for me, have some energy helped keep me busy and not on the forum all day. Hoping this is a start to a way of being for me, not just a passing phase. Guess we will see tomorrow pep and vinegar or mopey and needy. I really should have a some where in the middle of this but it just doesn't seem to work that way with me. well to all a good night and the best that life has to offer, you know you deserve it !

Thank you just a moment of time that I reacted by writing my reaction

Is reacted the New liked or can someone dislike on the Quit Train ? Getting to dislike reacted ! Don't react Comment keep the conversation going Yes I think I know reacted is a quick like which is Positive, I do love a good conversation or discussion with one to several individuals. To be able to Take a topic and turn it upside down and look at it from every angle, tom open it up and see what is really in side. OK I am Better

Sure the Hell beats the whizzing, coughing, stinking and paying thru the ass for cigarettes. Yes it is great !

Been fighting with this Fatigue and weakness, last couple days its been to home from work in the shower and in to bed. woke up very groggy this morning but once I got warmed up and to work this V8 was purring like a kitten, up and running even had some pep to my step. So as much as it hurts me I have taken a weekend off. no Ranch, no Refuge, no, no, no just the couple things I have at home to do and loving on the wife. Going to sleep in, roll over and sleep a little more. But I am still getting the blood work done and some more after I see my MD, too many things going on right now, new meds, out of Vitamins, vehicles Jacking up and not slowing down even thought I should or need to. The Positive is I'm not thinking about smoking, in fact that side of my mind has pretty much been very quiet, that long ass drive I was so worried about came in to be not a huge trial. Once when the roads were closed and I had to take it to the Back country dirt roads and over the hills but that died so very easily with a NOPE a smoke would not make a difference to myself. Just need to get back to being OPAH loving life and the Family

Well my friends another smoke free day is on its ends, I am feeling so damn tired today, my legs have been weak for a month or so. the wife says I am running to hard and not letting my self recover ? you know use to be my hunting trips the winding down was losing the stress not resting. shit 59 and I am taking naps. have no energy, and parts are not always ready at the call as they use to. Time to put in the work get the blood work done ! tomorrow my friends

Lin so sorry I wasn't there to welcome you, But I did have a cold one just for you, you just keep going girl

well well well seem such a simple question got overly complicated ! Jet if it can save you money why not, you are quit and been so way longer than a test can record nicotine. I say get some reward for your Quit ! And if you think it is a scam, tell them to blow it out the bark side and not contact you again. The past is the past, it can not be changed, lets leave it be, we are on a new day with new horizons Bless tomorrow it only a day away

to start to Grow again, physically and mentally To be mobile go places I once couldn't To be able to keep up and play with the grand kids and hopefully the great grand kids To lay back one day and vaguely remember that you were once a smokers so long ago. To wake up knowing it a better day as a non smoker To know you have friends that care for you and you care sight unseen

The wife and I visited Bill Last night he is in good spirits, today is his 70th birthday, he has decided to give the chemo a try, but really just wants to be home. Hopefully by Thursday or Friday. You know my Mother was diagnosed with Breast, thyroid and colon cancers all at the same time, she had a breast , thyroid and a good chuck of colon removed all at one surgery. That was 14 plus years ago and she is still with us. I have no dought that Bill will do the work necessary and be around a long time to come. But makes you think went it is so close to home, he said he had a feeling a while back something was wrong and avoided getting checked out ? so more blood work for me and I guess I'll check out if a low dose CT scan is cover under my insurance.

GOOD MORNING and here is to an NOPE day my friends