Opah

Here I am in all my glory

My heart goes out to you, I know the Pain and the loss you speak of. It is a beautiful thing you have done here, I hope all that read this truly understand.

Setting at my new desk at my new job, Being Happy ! Eating a spicy Italian subway sandwich listening to the 60 music JUST BEING HAPPY

Start of a new day, hectic to begin with, already ate my lunch? Now hopefully some calm will set in, HAHA now I am wanting calm what a cluster of emotions, On, Off, High, low, Just can't seem to find that middle ground. But I did get My new work phone to play my oldies well as close as I can get. Seems the oldies are that crap from the 90 and 00, had to settle for the 60s and 70s. Still good Music.

Here is a classic for you guys, Now I ask you do you remember "Large Marge"

Howdy do an hour and 45 to go and its been good, did not allow myself to get bored, Keep busy chatted with a old friend about Wild Boars, Owls, Rabbits and Nature. You know as the mind clears and the thought process really get back to processing the things you day dream about get more exciting, the memories so clear you can smell the smells from back when, the music and sounds. You know the commercial " I can taste your Beer", well this evening I could Taste my coffee and it was really dam good. . In fact so good I am going to break out my french press and make some outstanding coffee in the morning. This time around it seems like I'm going to a favorite vacation spot after a long time, It is a place in time that you dream about getting back to, a free breezing, sun shining, puffy clouds, puppies pouncing all over you day that goes on and on. I am going to get there, Its mine, I deserve it and this time I'm going to see the grass is greener on the no-smoking side of the road

Much better today, got some extra sleep before work, ate well and packed a good lunch. Have some to dos to do if slow times present them self's. got my sights set.

All better for now, had an oiler shoot its wad, no that's not it, dumped its load? no that's not it either, drained its tank all over the mezzanine floor and is now dripping down on the heads of some of our clerks. A little excitement ! That's no Hair gel you got there !

This nights that should be welcomed, for me are a really tough thing. I'm not chasing fires to put out I'm not chasing some circuit that is not functioning I not hammering or pounding or even watching one of my guys hammering or pounding I am sucking on my hard candy, getting paperwork done early or going for a walk about in any direction away from the smoking area. Headaches have started, tension in the neck and some trembling. I turn off the lights in my office and lean back way BACK close my eyes and day dream about my Grandson and I out shooting up something Or my wife and I ????? ok my Grandson and I wrenching on something that needs fixing. OK just kidding about the wife, we spend some super nice days at the beach, the water has gotten so clear you can see the baby sharks swimming around your feet. But then I have to open my eyes turn on the lights and start all over again. Going to start bringing some Alieve to work with me for the headaches. And awe yes I will be writing your eyes off. DEEP BREATH OK I good now

Hey guys do you all remember these floating kitties, watch as they rise !

A long long time ago, I can still remember how that smoking really ruined my smile And I knew if I had my chance I could get my white teeth back And maybe I would be happy for a while. But February made me shiver Cancer on the rise with our youngsters Bad news on the doorstep I couldn't smoke one more cig I can't remember if I cried When I read about his widowed bride Something touched me deep inside The day my smoking died. So Bye, bye to my Camel brand, it really came time I took my stand But them good ole boys were smoking Winchesters and tye Singin' this'll be the day that I die, This'll be the day that I die

Well Hello mrsguest, Very happy to have you here, It is nice to have someone in the time frame of quit. I am planing on putting my best lung forward this time, I really must get my breath back. had to take most of this year off of Hunting. I don't want to have my Grandson afraid he is going to have to tell Grammy that Opah bit the big one. Last time out I was doing so good, could climb up the trails and not loose my breath, But now Not so much. Enough rambling here, great to have you here Jillybean

Are there two Jilly beans ? = Jillar jilly bean ice creeam wasn't it ? or Not mrsguest Jilly bean I been away to long I think

The Yellow ones are my favorites ! Yummmmm

AWWWWWWE dam look out man though are really healthy snakes, going to have to take them back for the healthy snacks i wanted

Start of Day at work, morning was good and work keeps me busy so its just the travel home at night that could be an issue. Not so so far, I had my mind set and prepared for this. waiting for the fighting back urges, I have my suger free hard candy's and health snakes at hand. You know what I could use ? Jilly beans !

Ya I knew I was making a mistake, and I told my self a couple of times, but I made the choice any how. It was a kinda matter a fact decision, I am looking to get my mental conditioning this time around. Feels like I've been a fair weather non-smoker, no that's not it, I got complacent and did not guard my commitment, got bored ! I used the nicotine to fuel me getting out and doing something and calming my nerves after a interview. A beer and a smoke got to be the habit. Time for One more Habit, going Home. now that's a habit Ill Keep !! Keep loading them up and knocking them down ! Tomorrow my friends

Yes this should be the final quit, I really like it when I am not smoking, in fact this time around I really didn't enjoy smoking. I smoked for the Nicotine mental fix, and now that I am good again I can let go of it. Thank you Linda & Jill

Deep Breaths, several sighs of relief, Friends of old and new, the warm and soft glow of this forum screen Yes it is home to a weary off on off on smoker, especially no that it is off again. How you all been doing ? I was so happy to see you all were still here. I am Cherry again ! Got a new job Supervisor of Maintenance with Burlington coat factor will it s just "Burlington" now I walked into a super crew and Manager, making good money, i thought it was time to stop punishing my self and get off of the smoking wagon again. Talk to me I missed you all so much/

Setting at my new desk at my new job, Being Happy !

Jill My Girly girl ! moderator ! Fantastic Well here I am back 5 days quit again and back to it. really don't want to make any excuses or sob songs on why I started just being stupid. I know you will do great as moderator, Dam proud of you !

In here tomorrow morning for a couple hours and it is done, I and my crew will only be an echo in time for this building. I grabbed some desk time today so I could say thank you to all, for the kind works and insperation. The new job will keep me hoping for some time and I know my desk time will be very limited, most likely not on a private computer, but I will sneak a peek and a HOW DO YOU DO every now and again. Love you all and as Whispers said Tell next we meet, So long

Well it looks like we will be evicted here Thursday or Friday, if so it will be a while before we converse again. Just want to say, love to you all and thank you so very much for loving me back. I am hoping that down the line here aways, i will find time and a way to come back, but for the now GOOD BYE

This is looking like Brighter days ahead, for sure, Going to miss this place but all was done that could be done. It is time for a new adventure ! New challange !