Opah

You know the word Heart attack is one of those words that read much bigger, I really appreciate all the concern but it was for me a real none event. it was caught at the very first sign. I was awake when they put the stint in, they used a vein in my wrist instead of my inner leg, I was released the same day and back to work 4 days later. Been remolding my Game room, new ceiling and hard wood floor, some electrical, Been losing weight and controlling my Blood sugar. I kinda look at it this way, God reached down and Taped my on the shoulder to say Hey Bud your headed for trouble if you don't listen. My sight has taken the brunt of it, went for 20/10 to barely abile to read what I am posting, Hoping know that my blood sugar is back to normal I can get a good prescription for glasses and my eyes will start to improve. But it was the glue I needed !

Hey Guys Opah here still not smoking, but have an added assertive to continue not to. Had a heart attack on Christmas eve, not a chest clutching OH My God thing just a uneasy feeling. drove to the Hospital stood in line for an hour, got in and they hooked me up and said you are having a heart attack ! I said OK what do we do ? Well at 12:15 Christmas Morning I had my stint in one of my arteries, seem I have excessive platelets and with my blood sugar being high they started to buld scabs in m,y arteries. But all is well, Blood sugar is good now, lost 15 pounds since and like I said a real good incentive to continue to not smoke, Now Time for me to preach just a little Bit, smoking had a major part in my heart attack. I got lucky I was on and off with my smoking, I knew I was playing with fire, I was aware I could get burned, it was I feel great, I hike , i hunt, i climb mountains and carry heavy weight on my back. I was and am active so I looked at all the exceptions and fooled myself I was one of them. Well I was wrong and God let me know, so Is you are trying continue to, if have have stopped, you have done the best thing you could ever do for your self, if you are considering quitting do it, you will be saving your life. Jill, Babs, Doreen, all of you I want to say thank you, you have been caring, understanding and I hold you all as friends and I will leave you with these words of wisdom one of my hunting buds told me. You should feel good about what happened, you proved them all wrong, you do have a heart !

I just took this really deep breath, full on thru the nostrils, cool air ramped thru filling my lungs, Man that felt good. Its calm for me to day soft and warm, my body and mind seem to have taken a little time to just chill out. You know what I am going to day tomorrow ? I think I am going to take a walk in the rain

Well its Friday again, get my one day off and it is hopefully going to rain, I really like the cooler weather, fog rain, snow. Can Play all day, or cuddle on the couch in front of the fire place or just sleep all day.. That 24 hour crave has passed I haven't watched the news for a day or so, all ready know what is going to happen, its not going to be pretty but it is what it is and it is o surprise to any of us. well got to get my guys working Maybe later

Got to love it Doreen

Long day, stressful day,, ended out on the patio, the wicked smoking patio. But once again I bought my way out, a cucumber green tea and a strawberry tea. 180 calories of soothing sweetness. and now I am good came to grips on the election with the serenity prayer, All I can do is done, what happens from here is out of my hands and no matter which way this may go I will have to live with it. So now y game plan has altered just a little bit, when I can eat right I will, when I can avoid a beer or two I will, when I can get an extra bit of sleep I will and when I cant I cant. So I have softened the expectations I placed on my self, for the now. It is hard enough controlling suractic necatine fueled emotional outburst under the best of conditions, so it only makes sense to provide myself the bestest conditions i can. I have had Hairier days !

Man that was a horrendous night, driving home I had to have a pepperoni stick and once home I ate my way to bed and in the Morning I still had to demand myself to stop and we=hen I got to work seems we had a idgit crawl into a piece of equipment and dam near got himself squashed. Now that the craziness is over first thing that came to mind is hey this is bad stuff happen go grab a smoke, The negative factor, the lie that a smoke will make things better. C9jane29 thank you for your words of wisdom, I was caught off guard with al this stuff happening together and mr feeling that I need a smoke. I am breathing thru it and most of t=it has calmed down, Thank you guys

Been tracking the election and not really liking what I am seeing, and then a cigar pops into my thoughts and in my mind says well we are all fonked now might as well. This one caught me off guard and made my breathing a little heavier. good for me None of my crew smokes and two of them have about 6 months smoke free, so we do support each other. Todd was my strength to night, he just sat there and listened to me rant and ramble and when I was done got up and said you got and left. Deep Deep breathes and some ricola lemon drops are calming me down, wish this crap was all over one way or the other.

Out of all that rolls out of my mouth here Jswiss this will be the one most important thing I say Confidence has two edges and the nicotine edge can lure you into a I have control, I am confident I can smoke just one. Yes sir I have been there and I have lost my quit because of this very thing Confidence, overconfidence, even arrogance, I was better, i knew more, I listened to all the warnings and shrugged them off. So please if I can offer just one piece of advise it would be never believe you can smoke just one, it is a lie a trap a road back to your addiction. Sorry about signing the blues here, you are doing great, you should be proud and confidence is a good thing just beware of the second edge.

See that is what happens when you jump to soon ! Now I must make an exception a Tuesday exception well to make it clear a TACO TUESDAY exception ! Yea cant pass on TACO Tuesday, Small taco shop 99 cent tacos, the guys and I tear them up, super great tacos.

Hey Jswiss pick up some sugar free hard candies, butterscotch and Ricola lemon mint throat drops worked great for me get a craving and suck a drop or butterscotch it really helps me

I am in a good place in my life right now, I have a lot of positive reasons to stay quit this time, I have good support here and in the family, I have some quality reachable goals I am shooting for, they are long term that will have gradual progressive results. Same O Same O health ( weight, and condition ) I really need to be stretching more , getting limber and flexible just to darn stiff right now, I think I will stretch when I get home from work before I go to Bed, i am in progress of attempting not to Eat when I get Home at 11:30pm, but I am usually too wound up to sleep right away. My mom and I get to talking and next thing you Know I am making a couple grilled cheese sandwiches or something of the sort, So instead of cooking I could be stretching slow and easy, should help me sleep and not have the lower leg cramps. when I stretch in my sleep. Well it is a good start for me, this is not a one quit fits all synario and definitely not my first rodeo, been bucked off more than once.

Yea it was a pretty putzy thing to do and I knew Better, but I wasn't going to let go along to far.. I was surprised this morning how the election could be a trigger for me, it was a hard trigger and it did take some serious mental discussion with myself and the drive to work is still there, not so bad except the truck still smells like the cigars. i need to clean it out and get some good deodorizer in it. It hasn't been a year more like 3 months of daily smoking, when it got to be more than a couple cigars a day I start prepping myself to quit again, started focusing on the negatives of smoking,

First full day of work done, had some triggers but sadly I ate my way thru them, knew that could happen so I did bring some comfort food in my lunch. need to beef up my vitamins, I could very easily sleep the first couple weeks away and I just might do just that if my energy drags down to badly..

Hey guys, screwed my head back on again and got it right, yes it has been back and forth, smoking for a weekend and then not for a month or two. But as we all know it came more and more often until there I was a cigar in hand most the time this time it has been a couple of months smoking pretty consistently. It started to not taste good, I started not feeling good after and finally I was throwing away 2 dollars of a 4 dollar cigar. so the Honeymoon and charm were gone. well today makes it day 4, and I have a full head of steam propelling me forward, I have my sugar free hard candies at hand for the triggers and a great mind set. So if you all still have a little room for Me I could use you help and encouragement, I really enjoyed my truck not smelling, being able to drive with the AC on and the windows up and the way I felt, I wasn't huffing and puffing when out chasing the Game around, my grandson and I are spending a bunch more time together and I really didn't like smoking around him. especially while we were having such great times, you see I didn't want him to associate these good / great times with smoking or the smell of my cigars, most people liked the aroma of them, kinda like a pipe. so I really wanted to impress on him that they were not good for me, him anyone and to do that I had to prove it to him. Now understand I am doing this for myself and I want to be the example, I want to spend many years with my family and grand children. Guess that is enough for the now, looking forward to hearing from you all.

Hey Guys just letting you know I am not a hit and run, Thought I was ready to take a seat ut wavered. Just need to get my head straight with stopping again. It will be soon, I have promised myself.

Hey you all, been on and off the wagon latey, mostly on, but need to get back on track. no excuses to present, no Tragic stories to tell, This conversation came to me via my Email and it was like the sun breaking thru Cloudy skies. Thank you

Thank you, I'll keep moving forward, each day a success, one day at a time.

Back in the Day the chimney was an everyday necessity, bellowing smoke it warmed, cooked the dinners and provided romantic ambiance. Yes it was what we used. After years of being excepted without question, things started to change, slowly at first. Stoves and heaters were developed, that did not bellow smoke, Oil replaced wood, Gas replace oil and now electricity is replacing gas. With technology our awareness grew, we found more healthy and more environmentally friendly ways Without the smoke we live healthier lives, our skies are clearer, and our air is fresher and all with opened arms most ran to except this new knowledge. If we can except technology to stop smoking chimneys , I ask why is it so hard to stop being a smoke bellowing chimney, polluting our air and lungs, ruining our health and life’s of all around us ?

Man how time flys, this man was one year older than me, and by age 10 had already made his mark on the world. Remember when he was just a very talented kid ?

Thank you Jordan: Yes you are correct, This is a good fit for me, very comfortable.

I made the interview, I called before the time I was to be there and they move my appointment back one hour. They were OK with my explanation I believe. Just wish this was done, A nerves Belly and this waiting are really wreaking havoc on my digestive system. The tension has been minimized by me mentally saying the serenity prayer in my head every time I start getting wound up about it. This to shall pass

I got on the wrong freeway and was an hour late for the last interview, I am never late, well I was never late. Surprised they still interviewed Me, but the interview went exceedingly well. I just hate this waiting I was eating chill pills for the last 2 days and when I looked at them Close I found out they were M&Ms

It is looking just like that more and more Jill

Thank you Jordan: This may be like a pot of water on the stove, It wont boil till I stop watching it ! But the signs are there ! Every where I look, there they are SIGNS ! SIGNS !