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Thank you Lilley I really understand Suzanna and where she is coming from. Yesterday was a weird day for me, these emotions just welled up inside me. Sometimes you believe you have dealt with and issue just to have it pop up and rear its ugly head again. I really appreciate the support from you all. As for Tough love we'll let that dead dog lay, Doreen, no need to discuss our opinions. from here forward.

You are correct Linda, Before I stand in front of saint Peter my heart must be free of hate and all that goes with it. I will forgive those I have refuse to, I will set my self free of the burden and cleanse my soul. I will look back after and think I should have done this years ago. Thank you Gus, Linda, and Jill

I guess that is why we have more than one rear view mirror, you pick from which direction you want to look thru.

I understand what you are saying Linda, But remember that the rear view mirror may be small but it has a vast view, it provides you advance warning of what is coming up behind you, it reminds you where you have been. In my rear view is a image of what I never want to be, and the memory of that reinforces my determination to not be that way. Yes I am moving forward but you bet my eye is always checking out the rear view !

WOW just read the above talking about a flip from happy to GRRRRR. for no reason. Back to the emotional dumping, , what 5 months and this can still happen? Linda I need some words of wisdom, I think I will go thoughts for today and look. Thank you Gus

the great news is that I go see the retinal specialist Thursday to measure my Lens for the new ones. My Doctor sent me a certificate of outstanding accomplishment for bringing my A1c from 11.6 to 6.7 in just 90 days. You believe that ? But I will be honest it is right up there next to me quitting as a great accomplishment. for me. My biggest issue is accepting that I must do something, never got along with words such as must, it is an order word, some Jack ass baking in my ear. my mind goes into auto FU mode. I guess that is why I think Tough love is crap I figure most are like myself and its is either going to knock them down or piss them off, I don't see that in any way it will encourage them or me. My Grand Father had the Patience of a saint and my Dad was a authoritarian, I remember my dad lining us up now I was 7 and my younger brother around5 and that man swatted us each with a belt over and over and over until we had burses. across out legs back and butts. Now it does take a brain surgeon to figure out a 7 and 5 year old could not climb up on the roof and shoot out the street lights on our street, or even how to load the rifle used., but he beat us just the same. Tough love ? I will hate him for that for the rest of time, he is dead and gone and I still hate him for that. yes tough love, corporal punishment, hazing, its all abuse in my book, Not sure where or why that all came out and I do apologies if any found this offensive. I guess that sniff of smok this morning thru my emotional trigger back on or I Guess I have Father issues.

It is a all natural, Non- decongestant , I believe it is mint ? I cannot take De contestants anymore because they increase th Heart rate and that increases the blood pressure and that puts stress on my arteries and that can cause me to have one of the widow maker heart attacks. I was joking about the addition part it just works really good at keeping my synouses clear to breath.

Man I have been without triggers and urges for maybe a couple weeks now and then this morning I com in to work and there are people smoking in the smoking area, I catch a whiff and GAME ON bid time. I still am trembling my lings still have that vacant need to fill them up with something feeling. Thank Goodness for that Inhaler Man I may becoming addicted to it to be gain with when ever I had a trigger or urge I would take a couple good strong snorts on the inhaler and I was back on my way worked every time A nd I tell you I needed it this morning. I know this is a pretty common thing but for how long Years ?

Two Statements pulled out of the posters context, both seemed ruff to the other poster ? Both just pointing out a truth that they felt needed to be aired in this public forum. Neither one was Nasty or demeaning, Neither one should be taken so seriously. It is a Fun and inspirational post, lets continue to have fun and be inspired by it and all the posts held there in. WHAT ABOUT SOME SLIGHTLY KNOWN FACTS ? DID YOU KNOW IT TAKES MORE MUSSLES TO FROWN THAT TO SMILE ? And what about this one: Those who can, "do" and those who can't, "preach" ??? or is it Teach? So I am going to relax my face Now

I didn't think Lille's had thorns, guess we all learn something new every day now don't we. Linda please you keep quoting those words of wisdom I I don't get out and about much and they were all new to me.

We may not be where we would like to be at this time in our life's But we should be thankful for the blessings we have received It could be so much worse It is easy to get wrapped up in our daily little bubble we forget that there are far less fortunate bubbles out there.

and what about the Temptations ? How could you not get moving to this ?

Ok Linda you have the heart and mind of a 60s song writer, Your though for the Day could be lyrics for the Mommas and Pappas, Simon and Garfunkel, singing of Peace , Love and Hope. Damn Girl you got me ready to watch Hair a couple of times. If anyone say to you a penny for your thoughts refer them to Quit Train or Tell them it 10 bucks not a penny now. Impressive Girl I am thoroughly Impressed by you AGAIN

love this kid

Added cinnamon and chromium to my supplements and man they did make a difference. my thoughts are getting sharper and my energy levels are going up. I take the cinnamon in caplets and in my Tea and coffee and the chromium by a caplet, the results are better absorption of blood sugar into the cells. My Doctor says he has had patients that were able to stop all diabetes meds and maintained healthy sugar levels just using the Cinnamon and Chromium, My diet is simple lean meats cheese and veggies, still have toast in the mornings sour dough, seven seed bread Buck wheat bread The biggest change was Pasta, Pasta had to go, and I love Pasta. There are options but I need it to be simple and not feel like I am being denied anything, otherwise I wont stick to it. Doctor was very impressed that I was able to drop my A1C 5 points in 90 days and we know the incentive for that was getting my eyes fixed. so Hopeful late May early Juke I will have my new lens installed ! Some things that most would conceder hirable events or xatastrfies could work out for some as a awakening such as my Brother was just saying the other day the time he spent in prison was the pivot point in his life, for me it was my heart attack or incident. Both could have been our demise but we were able to seek and pull the good out of these events and draw on positive aspects. We both improved our self's and our situations. What's that ? God works in mysterious ways ? Naa we just had a messed up mind set and it took a real good kick in the Arse to get us to see it and change. Anyone else have that Life changing moment ? I think those stories would be very interesting

Love that song Ace ! Thank you

Well from what I have watched and read Cataract surgery is like cooking Abalone it take hours to prepare to cook and only a couple minutes to cook. So it looks like 15 / 20 minutes an eye, less than an hour to have my sight back. Maintain my current eating habits and Ill be Non diabetic and 200 lbs or less by the end of the year. WATCH ME SHINE !

Yes Yes my finds and acquaintances to get my eyes fixed I was told I must get My blood sugar back on track and yes I did from an 11.7 A1C to a 6.& A1C. Man I am so ready to get this fixed, feels like the Guy on twilight zone that finally gets all the time in the world to read and then breaks his glasses. quit smoking getting healthy, can breath again, can climb and jump but cant see well enough to hunt. Now a question yjey plan on doing born eyes at the same time, remove my cataracts anyone ever gone thru this.

No ? wel then IT

No Ace ? OK I got it got you this has to be it

Here you go Ace this my fit better

Feeling close to God this Day, not sure why, nut got thiking of thid poem and thought you my like it also Remember the nights this was the last thing you would see and hear on TV ? The innocence back then, when you knew the whole neighborhood not just the next door Neighbor. Block Parties on the 4th of July and all the kids on the block playing hide and seek. till the street lights came on. you could hug a friend and whisper secrets in their ear and Masks were for Halloween. Those were the Fays

One of my favorites is: You are not fit to love until you love yourself.

Linda did you finally get over the Hill ? Seems you have Gotten you strength, power and self back. All I can say is You Go Girl ! run with it and go as far as you can, And to answer your question ? Yes you have helped us, the new, the still working on it and the pretty well set. You fought your way thru the storms of the first couple months and came out as a beautiful bright sun shining day, Blue skies , white puffy clouds jus clear as can be. Yes you are an example to all of us !