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Watching the Boondock Saints (found on Amazon Prime at the moment. Opening scene, the recounting of Kitty Genovese and how she was not rescued. The twins made their respects to the Virgin Mary, and exited the church to light up cigarettes. I ached for a cigarette. Ach. Ach. I go for days without thinking of a cigarette. When I watched this scene, I ached for a cigarette. It's been more than a year since I smoked, and I have the visceral knowing that I'll never smoke again. There is no upside to smoking for me. Only for the tobacco moguls. Yet, I ached for a cigarette in that moment. Was this addiction? Or something else in the psyche? Thinking about it.

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NOPE Ach, cigarettes are no longer a problem. Beer is a bit of a problem. But not for long. If you can quit smoking, you can quit anything. The important is to quit the cigarettes. Those are those ones that will kill you. Invest in stocks invest instead. I quit 85% in 6 month. You can never get back what you spend on cigarettes.

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Wow! I made it! It's finally an entire year! Thank for you for the congratulatory posts, one and all. I appreciate having someone to share this with. Doreen, I like your choice of ship's captain. I'm on that cruise with you.

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I love that movie. I may even *have that movie! NOPE

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So funny! :0 I've had a lurking fear that I'd succumb to some crazy self-sabotaging urge to smoke in my last month--it's a backlash thought to being near to success at something. I've experienced it in the past in other areas of my life. Just as I've neared being successful, hitting a new level, I've withdrawn into my shell in fear. "Urge" isn't really the word here. I'm through with smoking in the shared reality. At 70 years old, I'm too close to the end of my vibrant years and don't want to squander a day. Also, I love to invest in speculative stocks, small companies. (My favorites are Bigg Digital and Planet 13). A pack of cigarettes would buy shares of stock. Not a chance I'll self sabotage with this one. Really looking forward with glee to my year anniversary.

Argh! They're doing it again, only this time while eating greasy, delicious, unhealthy french fries. Watching "The Intouchables" on Netflix. Sigh. Still romancing the cigarette. Not about to smoke one. Just haven't purged my emotional memory of camaraderie and relaxation that I had associated with it. Relaxation. Yes, if I continued to smoke, I'd have a lot of relaxation in the grave, which I would meet a lot sooner than I hopefully will as a nonsmoker. It's worth it, folks. Don't smoke. Instead of a stop at a convenience store, get fast food, if that's what it takes to satisfy some craving for comfort. Just don't put a nicotine delivery system in your mouth. That's what the corrupt, dissolute, cold-hearted tobacco moguls call cigarettes. "Delivery systems." How do they sleep at night, knowing their sole business mission is to addict as many people as possible, all across the world, to nicotine? At least I'm no longer funding their private mansions, swimming pools, yachts, vacations. I have moments of anger when I think of their callousness. In Asia, they target children. What kind of human being does that? No smoking. I'm on my way to the lido deck in less than a month.

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Wow! You can't know -- well, unless you've been at 11 months yourself-- how exciting this is! Eleven months! I can't believe i!. I still have the occasional dream where I'm smoking and realize it's just a dream. I still notice smoking in movies and remember how I felt in stressed circumstances how it felt a relief to smoke. Being a nonsmoker is the best. I'm 70 years old. It's not smart to trash your body at my age, at any age. I'm so excited for the lido deck!

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NOPE. Doesn't mean I don't miss it once in a great while. Just means, Not One Puff, Ever. Ya just gotta be smarter than the tobacco executives.