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    Not an SOS, just saying

    in Quit Smoking Discussions

    Posted · Edited by Kate18

    I am deeply depressed and craving a cigarette. My sweet little dog, Sofia, was asleep, but has jumped off of the bed and followed me into the living room as though she knows that something isn't right. She was asleep on the bed, next to me. It is night here.

     

    I want a cigarette. I want a cigarette so badly. Alcohol does not numb the pain of depression. Alprazolam does not numb me enough to let me sleep through the bad thoughts. 

    I just want a cigarette to comfort me. When I smoked, I felt as though I was at peace. 

     

    If you are on the fence about smoking, if you feel blue and think a cigarette will help you...no, it will not. Quit smoking. If you are blue, you'll still feel blue. At least, you will not be setting yourself up for dreadful diseases caused by smoking. Don't smoke. In my worst hours, I will not smoke. I will not go out and buy cigarettes. I have committed to Not One Puff Ever. 

    If you are on the fence, and using depression as an excuse to smoke, don't.  But I am not smoking. Quit. You couldn't be feeling as depressed as I am at this moment and still be breathing.  Don't let that be an excuse. I am not smoking. You should stop smoking and, "Not One Puff, Ever." Quit. No excuses. Quit.

    Reset my quit day

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    Hi @Tara smith,

    It's great that you keep coming back and keep up the struggle. 

    I was a serial quitter for years, and haunted the forum. I knew that I had to find a reason that was stronger than addiction.

     

    In January and early February last year, I watched as the virus spread across the map in Asia. I used to work in an infectious disease clinic and I attended conferences. (I coordinated them.)

    In one conference about "the big one," that physicians and scientists knew was coming, the speaker showed a map of what the infectious disease medical community believed would happen when a pandemic first broke out and the pattern of spread. It looked to me as though Covid was the one they had expected, and the spread was just as they said.

     

    I knew it was only a matter of a short time before it hit the USA. What was killing people was the terrible lung inflammation and congestion. Clearly, as a smoker, and almost 70 at the time, I'd die. My kids would be devastated. 

     

    That was my "why" bigger than addiction. I quit cold turkey. There were some times of craving, but I kept thinking of Covid, my lungs, and my kids. I also came here and posted an SOS a few times. The friends you make here can help save your life.

     

    A week after I quit, the first official case showed up in the US, about 30 minutes drive north of me. 

     

    Find your "why" and you'll find your strength to quit and stay quit.

     

    Good luck!!!  :) 

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