Lilly
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Thankyou for all the encouragement and support ❤️❤️ I watched my Day 5 Joel Spitzer video today. Had a few smoking thoughts but got through. I am now in Day 6.
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Congratulations ?
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Congratulations ?
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Congratulations ?
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Welcome to the forum ?
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Linda I wish I had some amazing advice but all I can suggest is to just roll with it. You said "My emphasis was always on having that loving memory that was going to be left behind." Just remember that whatever the adults do you are still building those memories for your grandchildren. You got this ??
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Today I read my Day 4 material from Joel Spitzer as usual, but I also learnt something by myself. The last three days were tough in places and if there was a day to throw in the towel it would have been yesterday. I woke up this morning and I realised I felt great. If I had given up on this quit yesterday I wouldn't have experienced the great day I had today. I am now in Day 5.
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Today I read my Day 4 material from Joel Spitzer as usual, but I also learnt something by myself. The last three days were tough in places and if there was a day to throw in the towel it would have been yesterday. I woke up this morning and I realised I felt great. If I had given up on this quit yesterday I wouldn't have experienced the great day I had today. I am now in Day 5.
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Thankyou Cristobal ❤️❤️
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Day 3 was difficult as I have been extremely emotional. I am not sure if I can explain my feelings in words but will try. I was watching my Day 3 videos by Joel Spitzer and there was one that I had watched before. When I watched it the first time I felt sad but continued to smoke. When I watched it earlier it brought out feelings in me that I didn't even realise were there. After watching it today I sobbed for hours for my own mum. I watched my mum die due to smoking and then I smoked my way through her death, her funeral and then during a very long period of grief. Today I feel as though I am going through a second cycle of grief. My beautiful mum was taken from us because she was addicted to smoking. This thought has tortured me most of the day and my heart is breaking for her. I'm seeing this addiction for what it really is and I'm angry. I'm keeping that anger for another day though as today I need to cry only for my mum. I'm now in Day 4.
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Day 3 was difficult as I have been extremely emotional. I am not sure if I can explain my feelings in words but will try. I was watching my Day 3 videos by Joel Spitzer and there was one that I had watched before. When I watched it the first time I felt sad but continued to smoke. When I watched it earlier it brought out feelings in me that I didn't even realise were there. After watching it today I sobbed for hours for my own mum. I watched my mum die due to smoking and then I smoked my way through her death, her funeral and then during a very long period of grief. Today I feel as though I am going through a second cycle of grief. My beautiful mum was taken from us because she was addicted to smoking. This thought has tortured me most of the day and my heart is breaking for her. I'm seeing this addiction for what it really is and I'm angry. I'm keeping that anger for another day though as today I need to cry only for my mum. I'm now in Day 4.
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Thanks so much. I'm going to post the first three days just to keep the excitement ?
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Day 2 is done but today I felt a little less upbeat than yesterday. The ulcer in my mouth seems to have moved it's friends in. I can now feel a few ulcers which is making eating virtually impossible due to the pain. I'm drinking plenty but I think I really could do with a proper meal. I thought I would have some soup tonight but for some reason I didn't even enjoy it. I don't know if that's because of the ulcers, if my taste buds are changing or if it's the two tubes of Bonjela I have tucked in my cheeks. In a perverse way I'm actually enjoying what withdrawal is bringing. This is the worst quit physically I have ever had but I stuck it out and another day is done. I watched all the Joel Spitzer Day 2 videos today and gained more knowledge to keep me focused on the end goal. I'm now in Day 3.
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Day 2 is done but today I felt a little less upbeat than yesterday. The ulcer in my mouth seems to have moved it's friends in. I can now feel a few ulcers which is making eating virtually impossible due to the pain. I'm drinking plenty but I think I really could do with a proper meal. I thought I would have some soup tonight but for some reason I didn't even enjoy it. I don't know if that's because of the ulcers, if my taste buds are changing or if it's the two tubes of Bonjela I have tucked in my cheeks. In a perverse way I'm actually enjoying what withdrawal is bringing. This is the worst quit physically I have ever had but I stuck it out and another day is done. I watched all the Joel Spitzer Day 2 videos today and gained more knowledge to keep me focused on the end goal. I'm now in Day 3.
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I can't post the video from my phone but it is Fight Song by Rachel Platten ? This is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My power's turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care if nobody else believes Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me
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Thanks for your posts guys. It makes such a big difference to have the congratulations ??
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I will take fluffy, toughie and everything in-between. I have learnt in the last 24 hours it's hard to quit alone. Sometimes you don't appreciate your quit family until they're not there.
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The first day is done and I am giving myself a massive pat on the back and having my own little celebration. I'm really proud that I got through today. Mentally wasn't too bad and physically it was bearable. Only negative is I have a really big ulcer in my mouth which is so painful and no amount of Bonjela will help. Joel Spitzer has put together videos to watch during the first week which are on the link below. I watched all the Day 1 section today and learnt so much, plus it was a great way to keep busy. I'm now in Day 2. https://whyquit.com/joel/index-guide.html
