Lilly

Day 6 is done. As always I watched the Joel Spitzer videos for today and then was out for the rest of the day. I am amazed by my stats. Look at all those cigarettes not smoked in 6 days ?? I worked it out and I won't be setting alight £389.00 a month. The benefits just keep coming ?

I'm so thankful for your encouragement everyone I am out today but will update you all tonight ?

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I watched my Day 5 Joel Spitzer video today. Had a few smoking thoughts but got through. I am now in Day 6.

Thankyou for all the encouragement and support I watched my Day 5 Joel Spitzer video today. Had a few smoking thoughts but got through. I am now in Day 6.

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Congratulations on your 4 years

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Linda I wish I had some amazing advice but all I can suggest is to just roll with it. You said "My emphasis was always on having that loving memory that was going to be left behind." Just remember that whatever the adults do you are still building those memories for your grandchildren. You got this ?? 

Today I read my Day 4 material from Joel Spitzer as usual, but I also learnt something by myself. The last three days were tough in places and if there was a day to throw in the towel it would have been yesterday. I woke up this morning and I realised I felt great. If I had given up on this quit yesterday I wouldn't have experienced the great day I had today. I am now in Day 5.

Today I read my Day 4 material from Joel Spitzer as usual, but I also learnt something by myself. The last three days were tough in places and if there was a day to throw in the towel it would have been yesterday. I woke up this morning and I realised I felt great. If I had given up on this quit yesterday I wouldn't have experienced the great day I had today. I am now in Day 5.

Thankyou Cristobal

Thankyou everyone

Thank you everyone

Thankyou everyone

Day 3 was difficult as I have been extremely emotional. I am not sure if I can explain my feelings in words but will try.  I was watching my Day 3 videos by Joel Spitzer and there was one that I had watched before. When I watched it the first time I felt sad but continued to smoke. When I watched it earlier it brought out feelings in me that I didn't even realise were there.  After watching it today I sobbed for hours for my own mum. I watched my mum die due to smoking and then I smoked my way through her death, her funeral and then during a very long period of grief. Today I feel as though I am going through a second cycle of grief. My beautiful mum was taken from us because she was addicted to smoking. This thought has tortured me most of the day and my heart is breaking for her.  I'm seeing this addiction for what it really is and I'm angry. I'm keeping that anger for another day though as today I need to cry only for my mum.  I'm now in Day 4.