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Thanks for the update Linda, you have a lot of positive thoughts and prayers going your way! Glad you're heeding your own advice during this difficult time because you're right, you give REALLY good advice Glad hubby is helping out tonight so you can enjoy a night with the girls, I'll have a beer for you too xoxo

Congratulations Judy!

You are in my thoughts

GREAT post MLMR, and you can bet it still will get better and better with time

@Linda Thomas, I'm sorry about your dad. I'm thinking positive thoughts for you that he's as strong as my mom ended up being when we almost lost her last year and he pulls through. Xoxo

I'm glad you got past that craving Kate, each time you do that the crave gets weaker. You're winning girlfriend! Have a good night's sleep xoxo

How thoughtful of you

Slow time for crime fighting? Or is the bat mobile in the shop? ?

Fixin to feed my girls so I can watch part 2 of 90 Day Fiance tell all. AND HAVING A BEER ? ?

You're doing great tocevod, I'm super happy for you ?

I'll guess 3?

I would be willing to die to stop a suicide bomber from reaching his target. I would be willing to die to save anyone from a burning building. I would be willing to die to save anyone from being hit by an out of control car. I would be willing to die to save anyone from being held hostage. I would be willing to die to save any family members life. I would be willing to die to save anyone from drowning in freezing waters. I would be willing to die to save any child from dying from anything. I would be willing to die to save someone from being mugged or beaten. I would be willing to die to save a damsel in distress. I would be willing to die for my country. I would be willing to die to save my friends life. I would be willing to die to save a strangers life. I would be willing to die so someone else could live BUT I am not willing to die for a cigarette!

I get sad whenever I read about someone that relapses after rocking an awesome quit for weeks or months. I quit smoking 290 days ago and I'm extremely confident I'll never smoke again. Things were a little different on day 142 though. That's the day I almost smoked a cigarette..... Quote Day 142. I have been romanticizing the cigarette for about a week now. I've been daydreaming about the simple joy of holding a cigarette between my fingers, the wonderful tobacco smell of a freshly opened pack, and the feeling of euphoria when taking that first drag. Mmmm....just thinking about it makes my pulse quicken in glorious anticipation. W. T. F. This is day 142! I'm "this close" to 5 months. 6 months (HALF A YEAR!) is within spitting distance. How the hell could I let myself get so damn complacent that I'm having thoughts like this? For the most part, my quit has been on auto-pilot for the last couple of months. I stopped actively "quitting" a long time ago. I didn't feel the need, or desire, to spend hours a day reading/posting about nicotine addiction like I did the first several weeks of my quit. I've lost my motivation and I'm tired of fighting. THAT right there scares the crap out of me. I do NOT want to be a smoker again. I will NOT be a smoker again. I REFUSE to be a smoker again. It is time to fix this thing and get my head back in this quit. During the early days of a new quit everything is so exciting. You are doing a Good Thing and it's AWESOME! YOU are AWESOME! Loved ones shower you with praise! Strangers on the internet tell you how wonderful you are! You can suddenly smell and taste All The Things! People at work give you high fives and fist bumps! There are parades in your honor! The mayor gives you the key to the city! TMZ hounds you for an interview! Life is FREAKING AMAZING!!! And then, a few weeks or months later…..things change. Family and friends begin treating you the way they did before you quit. No more high fives. No more fist bumps. No one asks about your quit anymore. Even the paparazzi stop following you around. This “thing” (your quit) isn't fun anymore. Yeah, it’s gotten a lot easier to not smoke but you still sometimes get cravings from hell and you are SO TIRED of fighting. So tired. You feel lonely. You start to hear whispers in your head. It's a voice you thought you silenced a while ago. “Why don’t you just smoke one? It will taste and feel so good. You know you can quit anytime you want.” (My Inner Junkie has a seductive bedroom voice like Barry White and looks like a more sinister version of Wile E. Coyote. Stop judging me!) Relapse was a very real option for me on day 142 (I'm on day 290 now). I am VERY thankful that I turned things around before it was too late. Some folks don’t. They smoke a cigarette and then a beautiful quit is lost…up in smoke. I am only posting this to remind everyone, myself included, that we can never let our guards down. I KNOW why I got close to relapse. The reasons are as plain as day to me now: 1. I stopped educating myself about my addiction. 2. I greatly decreased the time I spent on this site because I didn't think I needed a support group any longer. 3. I let a small seed of negative thought (daydreaming of smoking a cigarette) grow until it became a Really Bad Thing. 4. I fooled myself into thinking I wasn't an addict any more. What did I do to get my quit back on track? 1. I re-read all the newbie info here and at whyquit.com 2. I read Allen Carr’s book. (I read a little bit each day over the course of a couple of months. It was a good daily dose of inspiration.) 3. I recommitted to spending time on this site reading and helping out where I could. 4. I admitted to myself that I was always going to be an addict. I can NEVER become complacent again. 5. I stopped random smoking thoughts IMMEDIATELY whenever I realized what I was thinking about. Have you come close to relapsing? What did you do to avoid it? Have you relapsed after a weeks or months long quit? If so, why did it happen and what are you doing now to make sure it doesn't happen again?

I've hit a brick wall

In the back of my mind

You were paying attention because 3 is the lie. I saw him in concert there but didn't meet him. You're up @notsmokinjo

Ill get back to you on that

Have a great weekend opah

I knew you would keep that great quit you have Positive thoughts that everything at work ends up well

back in the day.....

A step back in time

You rub my back and I'll rub yours

My back's against the corner

My back's to the wall