JB 883

My first full year of quit was Oct 6th but my first calendar year will be of course Dec 31st. One thing i have done for years is keep track of my spending. Two categories used to be "cancer" and also "dumb shit" (relatively needless purchases like entertainment stuff) Of course for 2018 there was no "cancer". I noticed though at the end of this year, my "dumb shit" spending wasn't really much higher on average than previous years if i were to add my "cancer" and "dumb shit" together. I kind of have a habit of using the excuse "At least it isn't cigarettes" when buying silly little things. I am not like some hoarder but there are a couple things I enjoy. Nothing that will ruin my health at least. When you quit, how did your spending change? Did quitting end up being an excuse for other frivolous purchases or..?

One thing that motivated me to quit - I started imagining what it would be like to be in my late 50's or early 60's, being in a doctor office and being told I have some stupid-ass lung disease related to smoking. Would i think, "Damn, I wish I had quit all those years ago when i knew i needed to." We all quit smoking eventually. Would you rather quit on YOUR terms or someone/something else's? You know like say laying in a hospital bed with oxygen tubes in your nose and no way to get outdoors to smoke. THAT would be a fun way to quit! OR... OR... You can get the easier suffering over NOW and quit peacefully on your own.

I do not remember how it came up at work but I asked this younger co-worker if he smoked. He said, "smoke what?" I said tobacco. He said he didn't and asked if i did. I said i did for 15 years but gave it up over a year ago. He asked what it is like smoking cigarettes. I said it was basically like being in a watered-down state of being stoned, like being in a slight daze constantly. I then said, "Of course if you go too long without a cigarette, your nerves go ape shit". He said something about hearing that this was the reason it is so hard to quit. I was like, "Oh yes, quitting is a bitch. But you know, I just got sick of feeling like i had to have it, I was coughing all the time, clothes be stankin'. After a while i was like "F*** smoking, I am tired of dealing with the hassle. I don't recommend that shit to anyone, it ain't worth it." I wonder if I gave him the idea that smoking sucks? Oh and then tonight i went to pick up my room mate from work. I was parked in a spot across from some rusty ol pickup. Some grown man with his pants down and his ass in plain site was digging around in his truck. And then the smell of a 1,000 cigarettes hit me. Tonight it was cold and damp and s us smokers know, that kind of weather REALLY amplifies the stench of cigarette smoke. One benefit of quitting smoking is we get to complain now about smokers and how gross it is.

ask a mod to edit the title. You put 1 months.

What if cats think of us as "bowlshitters"

Boo is right. All that really matters is if you actually lit up or not. Some people have this weird philosophy like just thinking of doing something is the same as doing it (like you have already sinned in your heart). Well if THAT is the case then here is my confession - I have been smoking five packs a day since Oct 6 2017. No, I didn't smoke smoke but I did so in my heart. Not like through a vulva or vestibule in my throat but just imagining smoking. What is that hole in the throat called that some smokers get so they can smoke two cigarettes at once? But if "just thinking of doing something" is the same as doing it, I have also been going to the gym, cleaning up my diet, working overtime, volunteering at the soup kitchen...

It kind of bites but when we decide to quit, we don't get off easy. We have to suffer and pay some dues to prove to ourselves we are serious about not wanting to die a nicotine/tobacco infested death. Alright look, we all started somewhere. Now look at the celebrations. Some have been quit over a year now. We went through the same thing in the beginning. Being pissed off, tired, cravings, and other BS. But we get through it. I think minor cravings are something that could last years but the really big ones do die down after a couple weeks, if that.

Quite awesome. Congrats on keeping the quit. I mean a year is something huge. Ain't it nice to be at the start of counting YEARS since smoking? We start with hours, then days, weeks, months, but now it is years. Think of all the profits you have deprived the bastard , I mean, big tobacco companies.

It is hard to say. A few have come along that are all gung ho and last a few weeks at least then just relapse. Sometimes you can tell though because they keep talking about quitting but never make it happen. Myself - *I* didn't think I would last but by the time I got to this forum I had already been quit for a few weeks. On different subject - did you know that you can tell by a trailer park king's mulletude just how much he shops at Walmart? He is a REAL man who smokes Marlboro reds. AND he has the complete Lynard Skynard collection. On 8-tracks.

Oh yeah it was romantic how we would be blowing smoke in each others' faces and thinking nothing of it.

I hate to admit this but sometimes i would smoke WHILE having sex or "alone". Kind of a brave thing when smoking RYO because if you ever tried one, you know the cherry isn't always real stable. But yeah I once had this partner and we would adjust our positions so we could safely smoke while in "action". Maybe have to stop oral action to take a puff off the nicotine stick, but never during orgasm. To this day I have NO clue how i gave up smoking and stayed quit. Crapola hell I was hooked.

Probably Bakon, Mr titwank, or Reci. I wasn't here yet so i know it wasn't mine. Ok so I do not think I had much of a "quit tool box". For the first time in my life i was pumped about quitting. I mean I REALLY wanted it. I guess if I had a tool box of sorts - I was planning on smashing my cigarette machine with a hammer one month into my quit. Yeah one month just in case I decided to relapse. To be God-honest, I did not think I would last as a non smoker. Somehow I did though. But yeah i ended up giving the machine to my sister who was gonna give it to our nephew. I didn't really explain how to use it but figured he would probably learn. After all, he was 8 years old, he could read the instructions well enough. Ok kidding aside, he was over 30. So I ditched everything smoking related. That was a physical tool. My motivation to stay quit was the biggest thing. ONE tool though, and I hope no one else suffers this - close to Thanksgiving in 2017, I ended up with cellulitis (it is NOT smoking related). It was the WORST ailment I have ever had. All I wanted to do was lay around and suffer. during those couple weeks, i wasn't gonna do jack crap to make myself feel worse. Long story short, life SUCKED during that time. Short of cash, thanksgiving ruined, it was cold, work sucked, etc. The point is, you know Mr Titwank would probably enjoy it.

pliers, hammers, screwdrivers, wrenches, socket sets, torx sockets, pry bars, basic stuff.

Yeah right, he is probably a virgin when it comes to masturbation. Kind of similar weather situation in Indiana. I do not mind the grey though. It sounds weird but anymore I really do not like sunshine or a lot of light in general.

Well, last time i enjoyed my own company (so to speak), things got a little out of hand and i had to call the police on myself for domestic violence. There was a restraining order for a while. But nowadays instead if "netflix and chill" I watch those Navage commercials when I need to get in the mood.

I have been quit for 14'ish months. I smoked for 15 years. It is still several times a week I get a brief crave for a smoke. For your own situation - It looks like you are on your third week. Just use that as encouragement when needed and think, "I survived three weeks without a smoke, no need to ruin it now". You have made it through the wort days which is the first week. Battles will come and go but you already proved you can do it. Some people here need this forum to maintain their quit in the beginning. Yeah there is a lot of fun stuff, joking around, whatever. The sad parts though is hearing about omeone's death from smoking. I doubt anyone picked up their first cigarette and thought, "This could eventually kill me, this will cost me, it will make me stink, make me a slave, etc". Cigarettes are evil little bastards. What made me finally want to quit more than i wanted to smoke - I finally realized what assholes cigarettes are. I came to hate them. What helps me keep my quit NOW is this - I do not want to go back to the slavery of being a smoker. I prefer to live on MY terms. Even if parts of my lifestyle pisses off the Trump supporters. Wait, wrong forum... But to be honest, yes there are times I really want one. Cannot do it though. So then, what is YOUR reason to never go back to smoking?

Which one is Stewie's date? More important though - why are that doll's lips opened like that? Is it just to eat popcorn? OH I KNOW! She is in great shock from a scene in the movie! Boy is I smart or is I smart? I wonder if that guy would be welcome in a gay bar?

I am trying to decide if i want to have some self-love tonight. I have to get up before the crack of 4:00PM tomorrow so not really sure.

Thankful the house next to me is so over-priced so it will stay empty for a while. Thankful that the house across the street is empty. There used to be a bunch of criminals living there. Thankful I do not have a spouse to put up with. Thankful that our old supervisor got fired. The new one is a reasonable guy. Thankful I do not have to deal with step family. Yeah for me, I am more thankful for certain things I DON'T have than what I do.

I wonder if any of Taylor Dayne's songs will hit the top 100 or whatever? Since Taylor Swift SEEMS to be backing off FINALLY, there needs to be another Taylor to stink up the air waves. Oh Gyod. She is basically another Barbara Streisand, Mandrell, Anne Murray, Percy Faith... She sucks. The song stinkfist - is it because he broke his hand and it has been wrapped in a solid cast for a couple weeks? Why else would it stink? The other day at work someone was on a forklift and of course that annoying beeping sound. I told someone, "It sounds like the radio edit of every Alanis Morrisette song out there". Sadly though, Most Canadian musicians just are not real exciting at best and really bad at worst. I mean, Nickleback came from Canada. NICKELBACK! Although if not for Canadian bands, what other music would they play in doctor's offices?

I feel the same way about marriage and relationships in general. They are alike in a way - one destroys mental health, the other physical. Both of them become slavery. I am free from both. Not One Spouse Ever.

I am usually up most of the night and sleep away the day til i got to work. I kind of have mixed feelings about living in an old house. One concern is if thing would crumble and of course some of the wiring is old, the cloth wound as you said. Some wire is updated. I will save you my recent life story but living here the "rent" is super cheap and a much better deal than paying $600 USD a month to live in a tiny cramped apartment around a bunch of criminals which usually inhabit rental properties.

My OWN wake-up and feeding times are not consistent. BUT usually within two hours of whatever time. Wait, did that make sense? I would love to do that with my dog but I live in an almost 100 year old house so it is not sealed off to perfection, so the stupid mice sometimes get in looking for food. As there is no food they can actually get to, they usually leave.

I am almost impressed that someone got put on moderation. I thought *I* was bad with some of my posts. What could one possibly do to get put on moderation? Well not my business. So Redemption3, I was wondering then what your other account names were? But something more important - regardless of this or that account on here, you have GOT to hang onto your smoking quit! It is hard at first but before you know it, weeks and then months have passed. Oh there is temptation and craves now and then but you cannot give in.

My quit has been 100% solid since Oct 6 2017 at like 5:30 AM. There have been plenty of moments though when i think "just one" or "why bother keeping the quit". Even as late as this week. But I have not caved in. My co-workers are still mostly a bunch of needle dicks who are trying to get me to smoke again. Not by offering me tobacco but just by existing. Numbskull idiots. We do have two new supervisors so it will be fun to see how long THEY last. thanksgiving is this Thursday and MY plan is to eat Chinese. My brother and sister might have different plans but I have my heart set. Doreen, about the time I came upon this little gem, the song "The perfect kiss" by New Order was playing. There is a part in that song with frogs croaking. If i saw this thing in real life, i would probably have to kill it before it laid an egg or whatever ugly green things to do reproduce. I am sure her personality is great but damn is that horrific and creepy.