Soozie

sorry Jenny, just tried it again ... it happens right at the end when I click add to calendar event

when I click add event

I've been trying everyday, and it's still say's I don't have permission ?

Morning Pippa, thankyou .... I feel so much better this morning, so relieved I didn't smoke last night, I would have been mortified if I'd woken up on this beautiful sunny morning in Perth as a smoker !

this was good for me to wake up this morning and read this ... thanks Markus

had a wobble yesterday, so relieved to wake up still a non smoker so it's 100% NOPE from me !

I could only manage 44 seconds ... will try again next month

really ... that's very impressive

ohhh you are so funny Bandito ..yes it would be easy to find me hahahaha ....

of course you're right Bandito, all I can say is thankyou ... I'm still a little bit wobbly but thankfully it's just about time for bed here in Oz ... omg hubby is home from work on Tuesday, he smokes for Australia, thinking I might be the first one to post a proper SOS .....I hope not

Hi evelyn, it's almost time for bed for me now, I am so glad this day is almost over ... I know you have been having a really hard time recently, but you have taken the time out to help me, thanking you ... x

ok I'm onto that ... will google them and see if they are worthy of a spot hahahaha ... still a little bit wobbly, I'll be glad when this day is over !

I've had a bad day today Jackie, so maybe I should try this !

at the moment Your The One That I Want is blasting out .... my daughter is singing her head off hahaha ... my birthday is going to be a great night ... now it's bee gees Jive Talking !!!!

all up to date with corrie ... Peter Barlow ????? what do you make of that ??? and the gorgeous Tina, what is she thinking ...Peter and Steve in that bed that was hilarious ... it's all good here, I'm laughing again ... a million thankyou's to you all

I think that's my problem, I have very few craves (this was my 2nd) so when I do get them they are so overwhelming and unexpected I just want to throw the towel in and smoke ... I think I would rather have lots of little one's than a couple of all dayers lol

it's only 6.30 !!! I'm feeling heaps better now, thanks to all of you ... I'm playing my 50th birthday party 70's disco playlist... adding some new one's and deleting the not so good one's, that will keep me busy until bedtime ... now I've settled down, I feel like a bit of a drama queen/plonka ... I can't thank you all enough .. just hope one day I can return the favour Sue x

the reason I didn't post there was because I was over the worst of it, and didn't want a false alarm, somebody else may have been in a worse state than I was and needed the help more than I did ... a bit like calling an ambulance when you think you're having a heart attack to find out it's only heartburn

I don't feel as if I did brilliantly ... feel like crap to be honest lol

Yes I know, Doreen, I'm not going to have one ...

thankyou Ross ... you're very kind (my eldest son is called Ross)

Yes I know that ... that's what stopped me from having one

Hi Lace still here :)

I haven't had the best day today. Pretty much all day I've had an urge to smoke. First time since last Sunday strangely enough. I went out to lunch with my daughter had a lovely time and didn't feel too bad. When we got home I had to fight the urge for about 2 hours or more. I very nearly picked up a smoke. My daughter smokes, plus I've still got some in the house for when hubby gets home on Tuesday. I even had a sniff of them in the packet. To be honest I felt thoroughly miserable. My junkie brain started playing games with me ... maybe I'm just one of lifes smokers ? I could have a few tonight ? I could quit on my 50th birthday ... may as well just light up now because clearly I'm not going to manage this for the rest of my life etc etc ... I knew what was going on, but it still had me torn, not quite sure which way to turn. I was thinking of all of you here, if I smoke I can't tell them, I will feel as if I'm letting them down, well OK I won't go back, after a few days they'll forget all about me. But in a few days I'll want to quit again and I'll have to tell them the truth like I did the last time. Or maybe I could have a couple wake up tomorrow a non-smoker and just not tell anyone !!!! How low can we stoop with this terrible addiction ? I wanted to get on the computer and start reading "fixating on a cigarette" I thought that would be a good place to start, also I wanted to get on here and ask for help, the reason I didn't was because I was supposed to be spending some quality mother/daughter time. Sometimes it's just not possible to jump online and get the help we need when we need it. I am feeling a bit better now, not 100% but much better than earlier. My emotions have gone a full circle and now I'm angry that my addiction spoilt what should have been a perfect afternoon. Sorry guys, I know I'm prattling on a bit here, but I've just had an awful day :( :( :( Sue x PS ... on a positive note I'm so glad I'm here on the Quit train, because if I was still across the border,I would have to endure some smart arse olde pharte making me feel even worse than I already do, which is what happened last Sunday !