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Good morning! Nope!

Finally caught up. Sceevy. Worms, sucking things, brains, Nazis, bat ears

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I used to have a boyfriend long ago who worked construction. I liked when he came hone after a long day with his tool belt and his T-shirt and his tan smelling like the sun. ;) Much better than a cig and a Big Mac any day. Meow

Yey Jackie! Doing wonderful!

In a Salad. Also, mashed up in tuna salad.

Something that Holly said on another thread made me think about a thought that still comes up and troubles me from time to time. This is that smoking is part of being youthful and free. When I was younger I partied allot. I drank and danced in clubs until the wee hours; spent days sizzling at the beach; went to house parties that lasted for days; went out all night and went to work right after. I ate like an animal or not at all. I looked and felt great and had allot of fun. And of course I smoked a pack a day or more for years. As I grew older and my work became more important, i stopped going to parties. My body started to rebel and i stopped the binge drinking and other party favors and began to eat healthy and to run. Friends married, kids came, houses were purchased. Etc. My life changed. But still I smoked for many many years, after everyone I knew had quit, after my father, a smoker, died, after my mother got lung cancer. And now that I am quit there is still part of me that thinks of smoking as freedom, as fun, and at times I think about having a binge of food and drinks and smokes with some of my friends who still at this later age do this. Why can't I be like them? Why do I care?, Why must I live this straight and narrow life? Why can't I be free? But then I know this: Ingesting harmful substances is not freedom. It is not youthful. It is addiction. Self harm. It is time to learn other types of fun. To get pleasure from other types of activities.

Here. Errands today

I have been slacking in favor of work hours and worrying in my free time! Today I rode my bike about 14 miles

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I want to quit but I will gain weight. Well, here I am :0 So what Ps my skin and eyes and hair look great. ;)

In your heart there is hope. Quit. Act as is until it is true.

I am not sure how long you have quit before? Maybe you never get to the good part, the free part, and so being quit is not truly appealing?

I thought it meant one was well read

Ps we love you.

It is all mental after the beginning week I think.

Take my hand and come back out into the light. Also, Susana have you taken Chantix before? Maybe it would help. Or Zyban?

Hi Julie! :)

Both good guys. I hope they are well and that they come by

:) Congratulations! :)