AgaveGirl1

Congrats to you! Keep it up.

Hey... You know what? My hair didn't smell like smoke today. Wow. That's so cool!

Hey guys, Hugs to you all and hope you are all hanging in there! Be strong. Since it has been a beautiful day outside---sun shining and a bit breezy and warm, I made myself go outside and take the dog for a walk. Not sure about others but I'm finding just taking the time to enjoy the outside for a few minutes every day helps. Just to be in the sunshine, or take in some flowers or gaze at the sky for a few moments has been helping me. It has been giving me a sense of calmness and just a moment of peace where I can take a deep breath and inhale and say, "O.K. You got this. Just pull yourself together and make it through the next few minutes. You can do it. " If you haven't already then try spending some time outdoors. Go for a short walk. Sit out back on your patio/stoop or whatever and enjoy a cup of coffee or soda. Stargaze tonight.

A year? Wait a minute. Let me check my calendar.......... Yeah. I'm good. :D ​

Hey guys, Thanks for all the support. :wub:Yep, trying not to give voice to every little negative that rattles around because Easy Peasy is right. Quitting sucks but miserable is optionable. I do have to admit I am not feeling as bad as I was the last two days. Still a little rough but it is getting easier to distract myself and keep busy now. I'm also not going to kid myself and say the rest of the week will be a breeze either. Just going to keep saying NOPE, keep posting, reading, watching videos and sleeping. Glad you mentioned the sleep thing Reciprocity because I was getting worried it was just me. Thought something was wrong because the last two nights I've slept 11 hours or more. Guess some of us just do this in the beginning. Maybe it is just the body doing a little detox repair work and 'de-stressing'. ​ As for my tenure, technically I was still smoking on 4/26 because I had one cigarette. I'm counting my first day, 100% with NO cigarettes as day one and that would be 4/27. WOW, when I get through today that will be 3 full days. I mean it is hard but it has flown by so fast. Is that also a common experience? I'm also very happy to hear you enjoyed your visit to our state. A lot of people don't realize there are 3 climates out here. A far northern one where there are deciduous forests and four seasons, a high mountainous desert region and then where I'm at in the low Sonoran Desert (where summer is months of 110+ temps) . Speaking of summer temps, going to get busy outside with the cacti. Catch up with all of you a little later after lunch time. AG

NOPE...not today. B)

Hi, You guys are the best. Yes. This is tough, tough, tough but the more I listen, read and hang out the more I feel like I can do this. I can't thank you all enough for being here. It means so much. Slept another 11 hours last night. WOW! Who knew I'd be so tired. Oh well, I guess when you sleep you don't smoke. Today will be super challenging as I am home all day and don't have a lot of gardening activities. So....looks like I'll be hanging out riding the train a lot today. :wub: ​O.K. so you guys think I've done most of the hard part. That's good. I'll keep telling myself that. I'll have time for some videos from the library today which will be a treat. I've enjoyed the few I've seen. I'll also have some time to explore more of this website and make some friends. :DOh....can you smoke pizza? I had a dream last night I was smoking pizza. If I manage to get the pepperoni lit does that technically count as 'smoking'? ​

HI, Yeah. Feel like stir fried dog sh** but I have noticed I quit hacking and sounding like I'm going to barf up a lung any second. My legs don't ache so much any more. Think that's a circulatiion thing. They always felt so heavy and throbbed and ached no matter how little or much time I spent on them. They always hurt. They don't now. Interesting. Now that you mentioned it when you said stop focusing on what was making me feel so miserable and instead mention what is making me feel good I can mention this. Oh, I'm also not constantantly going "Caruhm". You know, that half cough throat clear thing to tamp down phlegm so I can speak without a rattle. So I guess no matter how miserable I am things are getting better physically. But I still feel like I want to die. Wah!!!!!! O.K. I still feel like I just want to shoot myself.

Very glad for you. Celebrate by getting some ice cream or drinking some wine or eating some hot fudge or ......whatever else may tickle your tongue. :D

Hi guys, OMG....I'm so freakin' miserable. Yesterday I actually sat down and wept. Yep. So sick and achy and miserable and tired and crabby I just sat down and wept. I literally slept 11 hours. This is not getting easier. I still feel like crap this morning. I feel worse then I did the day before. Kicking myself for not having got an e-cig. Every little thing is frustrating me. Every little thing is making me ready to cry. Every little thing is exhausting me and making me angry. I'm afraid I'm going to go off on the wrong person and get in trouble.

That was wonderful. Very moving and awesome of you to put out. Good job. Let's hope it moves a lot of people to join us and continues to help us stay strong. I know it was a help to me this a.m. "Whether you think you can, or you think you can't-------you're right". Henry Ford.

Garden! Grow something. Or at least pull some weeds. I'm not quite 24 hours in here and I am flipping out. So right now, I am on my way outside to play with my cacti. Cacti like to give kisses and yes love hurts---- but it does reward you with some truly awesome flowers in the desert. Great time of year right now so I'm going to go outside and groove on some plants and flowers rather than thinking about cigarettes. Plus it is kind of hard to think about cigarettes when you're looking for the tweezers and magnifying glass to get little needles out of your fingers. Let's see after an hour or two of yardwork I can do the dishes, the dog needs walked, the rugs need vacuumed, I can take a nap then I can do some real work for a few hours, then I can make dinner, then I can walk the dog again, then I can do 3 loads of laundry, then I can do some ironing and then I can.... Gee....what on Earth am I going to do tomorrow? So what's everyone else doing the next few hours?

First day of saying, "NOPE"! :sun_bespectacled:

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I want to killlllllllllll someone. :hunter: Gee....I don't think any of you ever heard that before now have you? ( UH...that's figurative not literal so nobody get panicked...o.k. ) So, let's see here. I've been doing o.k. Threw out cigs. Threw out ash trays. Very smart on my part as I 'know me' and how I work. Body aches, mind spinning, and discomfort comes and goes. Sat out back and made a list of a whole bunch of reasons for and why I'm doing this and that helped. Did some deep breathing. That helped. But I'm miserable and I'm just feeling like.....I dunno. Not sure how to put it into words but feeling like I know why I'm doing this and why I need to do this and what I'll get from this but just irritated beyond belief like I want to jump out of my skin. Am I supposed to be this God awful physically miserable? Is this some kind of twisted punishment for 'abusing' my body all these years? And this is just the first few hours of stopping smoking??? OMG. YES. I know it will be worth it. I keep telling myself and reminding myself of that but is what I'm going through normal? I mean we're talking withdrawal nic-fitting extraordinaire to the nth degree of miserable human being sitting here. Any one else go through this? Is this normal? Now, I'm not worried about relapsing. I can't. I have no smokes. I have no butts because I have no ash tray. Very proud of myself for taking that pre-emptive strike. I know me. None of the neighbors that I know smoke so I can't bum one. Not driving presently as my Epilepsy isn't cooperating so it isn't safe for me to do so and it is too hot for me to walk to the store. So I'm good in this regards. Just flipping out. AGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGARRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!! I need time to really sit and read. I want to go through the "10 Ways To Effectively Use This Forum To Help Yourself..." and all of Joe's videos, and read Mr. Carr's "Take Your Freedom Back" and get a pic up (btw...how do you do that please?). You know how it goes. So much information. So tomorrow I'll try to post a picture and a ticker and read the NOPE pledge and a few other things as I'm off and free tomorrow. You can all laugh at my rant here. I'm sure this lunatic babble sounds familiar. :rolleyes:

Good Morning all, Have one cigarette left. Went to bed about 9:30 last night as I was super tired. Had a busy morning so didn't smoke much. Only had 2 out of the 3 I had left in my pack. Now I have one left. That's it. Just the one and then no more. Had no clue what I was saving it for so I just chucked it along with the ash trays. :D Now I can hit the Ticker! Uh-oh....really did it didn't I? Right this moment got to get ready to go but did watch the video above. Thanks for that. Very cool and very useful! And yes, will check out all the videos. I'll be back a little later in the afternoon. I just want to say you are all so great and wonderful and I thank you for being here and for helping me. Looking forward to getting to know all of you a little better and sharing a little more. Oh...and getting ready to share the first flip out as I'm sure it will come soon. :rolleyes: ​Have a great day. AG

Hey guys, Good to hear from some of you. Thank you. Yes, feeling apprehensive, anxious, spastic, and a whole lot of other things negative. But also feeling good, happy, and in some weird way calmer then I ought to or should right now. :huh: Calm before the flip out storm maybe? Maybe I'm still feeling this way because I still have cigarettes left in my pack? We'll see tomorrow. Any way, gonna get through my evening and tomorrow I'm going to watch some of the videos, put up a picture, do some profile things, and really explore the site. And yes....most likely lean on all of you real heavy in earnest. Thanks for making me feel welcome. It is appreciated. :) Also thanks for the advice on the e.cigs. I didn't know. I've heard a lot of mixed things about them, so I figured I would ask before I started this endeavor. Everyone have a nice night and I'll get with you all tomorrow. I'm nibbling my nails now that I looked. I have 11 left in my pack. AG

Hi, As if soon to be summer in the AZ desert isn't hot enough, I'm going to turn up the heat on myself and quit smoking. I call myself Agave Girl because I have lived in the desert now for 10 years and am an avid gardener of SW plants, cacti, aloes and yes...you guessed it, agaves. I share my home with two wonderful souls. One is my wonderful fur child named Zoe. She's a 12 year old retired racing Greyhound and the other is my supportive and loving husband and best friend of 13 years. I'm also nearing my 49th birthday. I decided to give myself the best present ever and one I've been wanting for a long time now. I'm going to quit smoking. I'm on my last pack of smokes. I put tomorrow as my official quit date as I expect to be out of smokes either tonight or early tomorrow a.m. I'm just sick of smoking. I'm sick of how it makes me feel and I've been doing it for so long it isn't even enjoyable anymore. I'll be 49 in a few weeks and I've realized I've smoked off an on since i was 13. YIKES. That's a lot of years. I quite for 3 years then started again. I quit for 6 and took up running and then started again. I quit for 3 and then started. I'm tired of stopping and starting. I'd like to just stop. Period. End of sentence. So here I am and I'm halfway through my last pack of smokes and I don't feel panicked about it----yet! LOL. We'll see what happens when I put the last one out, throw out the ash tray and a few hours go by. BTW....what's the verdict here on daily e.-cigs (NJOY) for help as nicotine replacement therapy? Good, bad, or ugly? I don't want to replace one bad habit with another but then again I'd like to be able to take the edge off the first two or three weeks too. Opinions and help please. Looking forward to meeting, talking, and working with everyone real soon. AG