NML feels sucky but is a really crucial part of the quit. It actually feels like month 3 was probably the "cement it in"month, all those rinse and repeat thoughts are your junkie DYING off, although I appreciate it feel different. It's not though and take it from one who trudged wearily too, it is your junkie brain in a go big or go home call back...do not listen!! Message people, post tripe, hit up the swear thread, stay in touch here and we can keep your sparkle alive.
I always tried to remember two things. 1. After a hard day, an easy, or even a few easy days would come. 2.That a lot of people struggled in this time frame, but had later happy quits so it has to end right!
I promise you it's worth it. And keep reality about you, it's just thoughts, nothing like the early days, just lots of thoughts. How many dumb things have we done by thinking about them...probably loads :) Don't let the thoughts take hold is all.
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