Still winning

A little hungover and drinking tea. Excited that my washing machine pipes have finally defrosted (it's in the garage) and I can do 4 days of washing. Deep joy!

a fukcing ha

Crikey, this scene is indeed far more interesting in America!! Or I am actually meeting the tame fuckwits? Sadly I can't avoid forever, batteries are expensive here... more's the fukcing pity....

It's been a while, but never fear - my life has continued along the what an utter shitstorm that was theme and I am good to go on the swear thread. The ex husband continues to be a shitstain on the face of humanity. Twisting and creating drama even when you try and talk politely. He has now decided to marry the, frankly, biggest piece of narc bullshit mother of his next child. One can only hope they make each other exceptionally fcuking miserable together as I would feel better about the bullshit my kids have gone through with them. No excuses...utter cockwombles I had a boyfriend. Fairly flaky but ya know, no real pressure so happy days. Ex boyfriend needs to move in (we're friends), new boyfriend combusts and is now also an ex boyfriend. Decides to put a shitcunt message on my facebook in the dead of night. The hit list grows! Cue new opportunities for potential fcuking beaus! Bit of chemistry with a chef I once worked with and well, he's a chef! Marvellous. Awesome, hi fives all round about my gifted abilities at choosing....but no. Sends me porn after date one?! You couldn't make this shit up! What in the fuc king great world of fukcs make you text what were you thinking and then send a clip of someone else fukcing. Scary Mr grey type. That girl was very strong though and I'd like to commend her somewhat strategic handstand! Good fukcing effort slutty girl, claps all round, probably quite literally if I sleep with that guy! My life continues to astound and impress my circle with what the actual fu ckness that really, is pretty impressive. Onwards and upwards to dating then. Tally ho and all that....wonder how many other shitstormwankstains I can identify!

Periodically kicking around

Massive congrats for your 1 year celebration. Welcome to the deck. xx

My lovely quit smoking buddy has 4 fantastic smoke free years under his belt today!! Not that we ever doubted him but he has made the ride a hella lot more fun Happy anniversary buddy. Love you to the moon and back.

I'm excited for you because those benefits and health wins only improve over time! You just wait until your self esteem and self worth start kicking in too, those are epic wins when you only expected health and finances. You're doing amazingly. x

Great job, I really enjoy watching your amazing journey.

**** that's freezing! I was bitchin about -9 the other day but **** your life! I love Christmas but I hate the ******* work and drink up "do's". Had some pissed up old bint shout at luchtime and then said she didn't want to make a scene?!? I just muttered well I think that ship has sailed...don't go out drinking if you can't handle your booze. And go **** yourself to all who are inappropriately rude to people working as waitress earning minimum wage anyway. Just bloody rude.

Late but yay for Joe. Much love. x

Crikey I can be a little guilty of that addiction. I am on facebook most days. I do draw the line at not using it out in company though. Hmmm got me thinking now....

Congrats on 4 years free and a whole new life to boot. xx

Massive congratulations to reaching the deck!! I hope you are treating yourself for reaching such an amazing milestone. XX

Fashionably late but here.

I had loads! The Snot and Nope obviously The one I used most was Do not put something in your mouth and set fire to it, you can do anything else. When I phrased it that way it seemed a pretty silly plan anyway. "For Milly and I" was my go to in the early days, I would say it over and over until the thought lost it's hold. I quit when my daughter (Milly obviously) was 8 and I'd had my first puff of a cig at age 9. The thought of enabling her to be like me turned my stomach and I would highly suggest a personal mantra to everyone.

I think your post is asking about what makes one person quit easier then another? You suggest there might be "reasons" that make it more bearable in some way but that's not my understanding on it. I should go back for a moment. I was not in the easy quitting crew - I was more then hanging on by a thread, blood sweat and tears kind of quit. The variable (if you call it that) between my quit buddy and I was MINDSET. Our brain is our most powerful piece of kit and it's the one thing that seems to go on sabbatical when we quit. It boils down to the Henry Ford quote which is along the lines of whether you think you can or think you can't - you're right! Some days suck and some days don't - whether the cause on that day was not smoking, ratty kids, moody family - whatever. So on the days that sucked more I simply got busier. I still have bad days as a human (shock horror) except now the reasons don't include smoking, but when we are quitting we put that thought in everywhere!! Having a shit day is normal and I no longer blame quitting but look for the actual cause of the trouble - whereas once I would thought associate every bad mood, bad day with craves/triggers/ etc, basically I blamed quitting smoking for everything, for months!! I eventually understood it was a thought and the thought had no power unless I acted on it... then the craves got better or at least shorter. You ask about NOPE and I can see how it's not for everyone. For me it was a huge part of my quit for two reasons. It was my promise to myselfthat today at least, I would fight, no excuses. It was my promise to those who were quitting with me that we had that solidarity and camraderie, I had their back and they mine and that meant no one falling off. I don't know if you've seen a quitting buddy fall off the wagon. (apologies, I'm not around much). But it shakes you on multiple levels. You question whether it can even be done, can anyone really quit forever. You create loopholes where you can just quit again together later. More then that if they fall off and you hold on having tied your quit in with theirs, it feels brutal. So I took my nope very seriously, it was my promise to myself but also my friends that we would stay quit together.

I love this and think it's perfect timing!

Where did you buy them from?

Sorry for Doreen's struggle and Runfree's friend, may she rip.x

I'm going to do my whole let's keep this real thing. It's always gonna suck to release addiction. ALWAYS! The simple facts it's about how we choose to face down the journey. I think we can all empathise with the up and down scenarios of a quit as we are finding new ways of coping with normal life without the crutch that we have always used for everything. The addiction is insidious and we wove it through the entire tapestry of our life. Need a break, smoke. Feeling stressed, smoke. Out socially, smoke. Having a beer, smoke etc etc. WE wove it in and it's up to us to face down those thoughts and triggers to get it out. So if that was a bad day then that sucks. But it's not a bad quit, that's your brain trying to take you back to what it knows! You can do this, it can be euphoric in parts and dark in others. Just keep plodding, one foot in front of the other and get through the bad times whilst looking forward to the good behind it. xx

Fcuking hell, how is a diagnoses of COPD not enough to quit. I will literally never understand this bullshit. So now it's the crazy mother and the new "not quite been promoted to boyfriend". Fcuk my fcuking life!

Hey Jess!! Hang on in there. Non smokers/never smokers have bad days too remember. Just a bad day, not a bad life is what I used. Pleased to see you back in the game :) xx