Still winning

Alrighty then..... Having a little sing song there chaps?! :)

Duck is bumble, his avatar is a duck Dog is Chrispy, his avatar is his beautiful dog Bat is batman - well he's not but ya know Burrito is El Bandito and actually, I think it's cause he once found a place called that and got photographed with it. :) x

Bakon, Scousers is a term for Liverpudlians, one posse of the northern crew who live in Liverpool :) It is a pretty city but they argue over football a lot! x

I remember slovenka. She smoked around the same and kept falling off with her "just 1" and "my only vice" and such. Thing is, just 1 starts the next one and the next one and where does it stop..... At some stages one was enough, later a thousand was never enough. So now I think is it becomes irrelevant how many you smoked. It was not easier or harder for me to quit 40 per day, then someone who smoked 20 or 5... it is simply smoking or not smoking. Not meant as a harsh thing, just that is what it is because we are all smoking something that could cause us harm, that could harm those we love around us. I don't mean to deliver the tough love, I honestly don't work that way but I started by smoking one a day - 1! Was never planning to go past that and I laugh now thinking I ever had any control. It's like a demon that just kept growing, out of control, making me sickly and unwell and then the denial kicked in, and still it grew bigger and better. Ultimately, how many other times would I quite literally burn money and do something that may cause me physical harm?! None my friend, none at all and that's when I understood that the numbers were irrelevant and I needed to buck up and reclaim my freedom. x

wronguns ...live in England and celebrate autumn ( we don't "do" fall sweetie :) ) halloween is a win tho :) x

fungus? - that ain't right! NOPE!

Sharon's in Tenerife right now with another week still to go lucky begger! You besmirching my good name young fella me lad?! I am no law breaker on holidays! I'm a "nice gel"

Lol. It is however one of the most beautiful cities with nice people...but shhh...don't tell the other southerners I said so :ph34r:

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I was moody, mardy, annoying as hell and over reacted. It did calm, so will you I promise. x

1 hour zumba 1/2 hour cx worx (core) workout Some handweight stuff.

Also passed out last night after just two glasses of wine, shattered from staying up later every night doing the case studies so I can apply for the reiki teacher status. Also the kids turned into little terrorists on Friday so 3 gym sessions to get rid of my bad mood, fixed now and will enjoy saturday :) Have fun all you people! x

Oh I'm so sorry Bakon and Mrs B too. Wish I lived closer to come and give you guys a big hug but please know I am sending one. Much love my friend. x

I never got that, I got sever anxious feelings in my stomach and they took a while to die down and it sounds similar. I think the trick is to acknowledge it and know it will pass. One of the mantra's that help actually was this too will pass. It sounds like you're doing fantastically well though. It can be a overwhelming if you let it I think but try and deal with each small part on it's own if that makes sense, rather than one big feeling. xx

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In which case my friend combined names and made whole new ones from friends and family they liked, I thought that was a pretty great and original idea. They have daughters named Coren and Caris but maybe you could pick out some of your influencial people and muck around with some letters from their names?? or Marti is nice ;)

Love this update!!! I always like the crystal type names, Sapphire/Amber/Jade etc. Ended up traditional though. You will hear a name and it will speak to you. Or you will meet him/her and just know. Tasha looks amazing, it's tough work growing a baby :) Making me well up! Love babies and love happy endings...this is just a win all round. x

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Hired a beach buggy on holiday, straight up...nuff duct tape holding that shizzle together! Chris announces this is perfectly acceptable practise for fixing cars (and yes I meant practise with an "s" because practice with a c is different - I do accept nuff and shizzle are made up in England so it can highlight them, sorry, grammar rant). Flip flops because they are cheaper then sandals.

Cold turkey 6 Chantix 1

Money for another family day out. x

-Education, without a doubt. Even when I was triggered the knowledge made me remember I didn't want to smoke anymore. -Nope shuffle - quick and effective. Looked like a nutter but whatever works right :) -A mantra - For Milly and I (Milly is my eldest daughter who had asked me to quit, yes I did it for me but when I would have struggled to hold on for me, I could always hold on for her. I had failed too many quits and had promised to make myself accountable in the end, glad it worked!) -Crystals, I had a palm stone and necklace of dalmation jasper, I wore the necklace and carried the palm stone everywhere with me and if I needed help, I touched them for support. -Quit date, I set my quit date with my champix and a support forum in line with a full moon - because it signifies endings to me and I wanted out so badly. Might sound odd to some but I believed in it and what you believe carries strength :) -SOS - I did swear I would use it and when crunch time came, use it I did! -Smoking buddy, pick another crazy ex smoker to offer mutual support. -Smoking is not on the table - I could do literally anything else, which was quite a lot. -Non smokers suffer stress and don't need to smoke - that was quite a revelation, and yet so obvious. -New habits release old habits - triggered in the car, set up a new habit of a cough sweet every time I got in, smoking trigger gone pretty quickly. -Endorphins - understanding smoking released them but in a unhealthy way, so did exercise which was much healthier as a choice. Understanding was crucial. -Hearing others say it would pass and that it was a phase - such a relief! (and so so true! it ended up being a quit on blind faith and trust at times) -Emotional release. I thank the gods that people here told me crying was ok. I cried/ran/walked by water or in the woods/meditated...all just to get out of the funk I could put myself in. -Blog, writing it down, often just to get it out of my head and release it but also to track my journey and provide more accountability. I used loads of techniques. I think I tried everything that everyone suggested. That nope shuffle tho, it saved my early quit a billion times so sending a thanks into the ether to Bassman. x