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Yeah we do get it...the I don't wanna smoke but I could smoke cause I'm really stressed.... This too will pass. That is the truest point ever given to me - feel shitty, it'll pass....feel fabulous....it'll pass! We are only ever supposed to experience the moment and move forward with new knowledge. That aside, I'll be thinking of you at that appointment. Do me a favour if you can and message me after to let me know how you're doing. Sending strength and healing for whatever sent you to the docs. xx

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Really excited, my puppy arrives tomorrow and he already has his own toy box, full and a cupboard of food and treats. He's a 6 month old collie cross that we have been part of rescuing from Bosnia where he was unwanted. I wanted to call him Thor but the kids have decided on Batman Dog, (the dog bit via Bella, so he doesn't confuse himself with the real Batman?!). I know the board already has a batman in the form of a horse, and a bat in the form of a train driver so I hope there's still room for another :) Roll on tomorra!! Been ages since I chased a toddler round :) x

I once lost a 364 day quit for "just one"... 14 years later I quit again and I am not giving it up for anyone or anything!! Of course our minds have that little temptress moment...same one who assures me I can totally wear a minidress at my age...all laughable lies :) There is no such thing as one..I am watching two quitters around me not quit through justifying...it's terrible to watch...just don't smoke and it seems easier!!

Being more emotional isn't a bad thing! Good, I for one think the world needs more emotional and awake people who aren't constantly hiding under something. This is a good thing, you will find a new normal, no one said it would only be 11 months? Give the freedom some tie to get comfy. Smoking doesn't change a damn thing...we grow at the rate we are supposed to at the exact time we are meant to. Much love, cause some days really suck, but smoking isn't the answer chick. It never was. xx

You wouldn't be human if in a moment of intensity your thoughts didn't waver a little to f it, I could smoke. Your quit will face down many "old habits" before it closes down, but there is nothing that can hurt you in a thought. I'm pleased you closed it down. For the man and daughter stuff, sending strength to you. Also a troublesome journey and one which your strength will guide you through. I wish you good and healthy gut instincts to help your inner strength. x

The support is offered freely and because we know and have travelled the journey, I say don't resist posting here. You never know who else would benefit from reading your words either. It helps to keep it real and get someone to virtually wrap an arm round your shoulders and say hey, you got this, you're doing great! Which you are :) Also don't ever be fooled, self love or not, that's addiction thoughts you're facing down. No need to fear them, just understand that, face them and tell them nope, or no more...whatever your thing is and calmly move forward. xx

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Hope all is well Michelle x

The doc said shortness of breath is not a quit symptom. Go slap him for me when you see an actual doctor and get your mind set to rest! What a muppet! There are so many lung changes as they clear, no one could possibly say for sure it wasn't connected. idiots! So anyway, yes be responsible and get it checked and I hope you feel better soon. x

Ah the one year trigger...rowly, I did that. Once upon a time I caved...felt better when I rode it out and went past it let me tell you. Bandit and I agree this point. Just ride it out Rowly, just dumb thoughts! We all have so many dumb thoughts and we don't act on them. It's our inner addict spying an opportunity! Close that addict down...cut off that dude and just keep moving. This foot, that foot. it'll pass! That's the thing of triggers, they always pass even if you just wait them out. You got this man! x

Kids :) They are the easy part!

Hiya, welcome home. Relapse sure does suck but quitting doesn't so well done on your return. x

Put on about 9lbs when I quit, it was back off within the year even with my increased love of food. I eat a lot more than when I smoked now generally but I just exercise more regularly to manage it. Start your own exercise regime, easy enough to start small and build up? x

Good, that's settled then! As you're a non smoker, you're gonna need to get a game plan together of distractions cause 3 hours means you started to obsess/romance. All things, good or bad, this too shall pass...it always passes. Pleased it's passed for you sweetie. Remember that next time, you are building a battle plan... so far you have 100% success rate in this quit!

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Welcome back and congrats on 3 days. x

For me, I would prefer my sisters to vet rather then anyone else, including my partner and defo my children. I too agree you have to check first. I think anything suspect should be deleted and she put you in charge for a reason hun, she could have named her fiance, that said, I feel 5 years is a long time and not everyone wants to marry, he deserves some nice memories. So I don't think you need to delete anything not incriminating tbh. My heart goes out to you that there's still more work to do but we older sisters were born with a very big job and I know you will have the strength to do this. Sending healing and reiki to you my lovely. xx

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Do you know what, life is there to be lived, not tolerated or dodged. Go be the best you and Alexa you can be, you derserve that. x

Well you all are nicer then I am! I slapped him for lieing to me and then in a fit of temper launched my own working candle at the wall so hard, it dented the wall and left candle wax. I commend the bodycombat and boxing circuit but now have to do some decorating and better self management work :unsure:. He stank and I have no idea of the morning. Once I'd traumatised the neighbours and local dogs with an epic rant I went to sleep and he didn't dare to come near me for a day... savvy as I was proper mad as ya like. We are together but I feel really peed off and being treated like a mug as I'd asked before and doubted my instincts with him saying it was where he'd been around smokers. Screw this addiction and I really don't want to be the dramatic one but I don't think I can or want to date a smoker, even ad hoc or when I don't catch him or whatever. Thinking....

I feel very silly right about now...

You know when you kiss a smoker... I kissed a smoker few times...and he led me to believe it was because others smelled of smoke....but the truth is he social smokes... I feel damaged that I believed the lie and that I am involved with someone who justifies smoking. Meh..suggestions?!

You guys have planned some lovely holidays! Patiently waiting for the american contingent to visit the shires of England! By the time you lot get your act together I won't have a spare room lol. Jokes aside, Joe, how amazing :)

Spurs!! oooh, my bad :) Talking of football. I actually remember taking a book out of the school library and telling my Dad I wanted to support Everton cause their blue kit colour was lovely. My Mum was Arsenal and my Dad Tottenham...he threatened me (didn't even bribe lol) and I'm Spurs :) It'll be a grudge match and as a female I'm rooting for you lol. x