Still winning

ooohhh, ok, sorry wye, less interesting than expected :) Now the OH toothbrush is in my en suite and he has been pretty annoying of late.....

tried to write, fail. tried to be ok, fail. tried to read my kindle, fail. Read this, I have this, going to bed. Bump, because I needed these words and other words tonight and it's a little weird sometimes. x

what's a "redneck"? Terribly sorry, english, no idea of what one is referring too?!

Aha!!! Why doth the shark holdeth the toothbrush?? I have spent the last hour of my life wondering!

thank you, even I am confused, I don't believe in hell but I've just ****** em all to there lol. What an arsewipe of a couple of days. serious tho - why is the shark holding a toothbrush? Even went to social to check for a thread?

Us english chicks gotta stand up and be counted hey :) Checked the oxford english - closetly defo not a word :( Ho hum. Did you have a nice trip other then the never ending story driving in london bit?

aha, his rock and my rock are slightly different lol. Have a brill time!!

who? that man lost his shirt, you noticed that right? kid rock? I love rock, why do I not know this fella...off for a listen.

I love reading this Jackie! Wallpaper is the way forward :) What's living in scotland like - it looks pretty rainy on the weather reports? Which is your fave, out of where you lived?

Weirdly needed to read that right now?! Getting lost in London is not for the faint hearted, kudos my friend for making it out with car and you all intact!! Actually closetly (that's not a real word is, think I made that up) really pleased, I like you being here and you flunking out would have been really bad. Go Tracey!!

2 months, let's celebrate...or get annoyed?! I have just sworn an awful lot on a curse thread, I feel justified...I wonder whether I am. Simply put I think everyone is being an idiot right about now. I am assured by my sister, I am as bad...I can't see it. Which is nice actually, I like to be right and I really think it's all of them. Blinking emotions are being somewhat tricky again but it's probably ok, I can't decide whose lights I would punch out first anyway - and of course I realize this isn't what nice people do. I am emotional and annoyed. Arguments no longer trigger me though, that's positive. Emotions and reject imbeciles still trigger me!! But you just don't...i read that somewhere and it stuck with me :) I won't/can't/shouldn't/mustn't and yada yada, I'm a non smoker. I'm a very frikking annoyed non smoker, listening to a very annoying maternal type sparking up. Why can't I be one of those hippy spiritual types who go on retreats and wear flowing clothes?! Actually flowing clothes would be real useful haha. That's broken my mood...I shoulda been a hippy but instead I'm a fitted jeans kinda spiritual. Meh. Onwards and upwards depite the annoying ignoramus types around here! Donuts (abridged version). But Amy quit today and apparently so did Trish...that is all kinds of fabulous in my book. Today has some true highlights.

Thanks guys, really nice to read some positive vibes :) Now just to find out where that £650 I apparently saved has gone...... :bb:

oh but wye, why is the shark holding the toothbrush??

unfuckingbelievable, you shout and scream for no apparent ******* reason other than you're a self obsessed twat for months on end and then go whinging about what a bitch I am?! But I must be nice because apparently if you continue to make your illnesses worse and in general be a bat shit crazy poor excuse for a mother I am the one who should constantly rise above it. It's ok, because I have the love of my life apparently.... Who is on the bloody missing list cause mummy wrote him a list of jobs and went away overnight on a monday?! You won't know this but I have your number my little soul mate...I ditched your sorry ass twice in this lifetime for being an utter useless twunt and your days are numbered if you carry this heap of shit commitment levels up. "oh we are together" "i want you to talk to me" "I am here for whatever help you need". I am dying here you heap of shit!! I am sick, the kids are bloody sick, I am hanging a 4 year old upside down as she won't take the rank medicine and I have a sodding kidney infection. This stings like the worst kind of ******* buggery ever!! Ouch at my dumb ass kidney not getting the sodding wanky memo that I am needed by everyone and their bloody brother right now. **** you to the shittywankytwunty doctor for giving me the wrong meds for 5 ******* days and when I phone my surgery them saying, oh they won't work for what you have...just utterly **** you all to hell. Arrrggghhh and breath now.

Enjoy your no smoking life. Gutted, I find your comment funny but want for everyone to feel ready to move forward at the right time for them. x

got everything crossed for a good outcome! But superb avoidance of a trigger there Laura, really pleased you coped without smoking, it absolutely can be done and each time we do it, we become stronger I think. xx

Congrats on the job, poor you on the stinky/annoying ones and their triggers. Fingers crossed tomorrow is better for you. x

I missed the add ons. I think we all feel things differently. who knows why? No crutch, chemicals working their way out of our system etc, but it happens to us all. I'm not comfortable with it either, it feels a bit random, but I've learnt it is what it is and it seems to pass quicker if I just let myself cry it out for that moment ya know. I have no advice on relationships. I'm pretty pants at them tbh lol. So i think it's good you recognise things don't feel right and maybe you can set about filling in a bit more time in a reliable way (ya know regular plans) so there are things to focus on?? Like girls wine/tea night tuesdays, after work drink thursday...that sort of thing? Just an idea. xx

Really pleased Trish. I see you in the photo's and you're too pretty too ruin your face and body with smoking! Right with you!! So you know Amy has also quit today as well, in case you guys can support each other too. xx

nope. x

I love pie mash and liquor, I'm in on this party!! Congrats sharon and thanks for all you do and the support you offer. Brilliant work my friend. xx

Really pleased for you and your 7 months, massive congrats my friend!! x

10 months is fabulous work darling :) Massive congrats. xx

Has it gone for you now sweetie? I have no idea what you do tbh, I just kept posting on anything and everything when I felt like that. Blogs, posts, reading whyquit.com. I hated that the occasional ones lasted for ages and made me cry...but if you face these tough ones down it makes you trust that you will hold on every crave - that in itself starts to weaken their hold on you I think. It's ok to feel rubbish, it's not ok to smoke, it will pass I promise you and when it does you will be so relieved you held firm. x

Had to come backto this. I checked my diary, day 8 gave me the biggest craves I'd faced. I think you did AMAZING and I completely understand the boredom aspect but you could really use with having something to take up your time. So pleased for you, bet facing that crave makes you sooo much stronger. I think the bigger the craves you face down the more you trust that your determination will hold. xx