Still winning

Relapse was a 14 year long crime for me, from not even wanting to smoke! Long story short, got dumped, 6 months before wedding, he hated smoking I was gonna light a pack one by one in front of his wardrobe so all his clothes smelt bad haha. I know it's nasty right but I was mad. Anyway, picked the first one up smoked it, BAM home! Not like some people I see fighting here to go again - just done, home - for 14 more years!! Hats off to those who relapse and jump back on, really, I have no judgement in me but wow, failure is not an option for me. Don't let it be one for you either just in case that happens to you!

I think I have ocd, but sadly (for my house), it only extends to washing. Even once worn, it gets washed. I am behind schedule on bed changing but it keeps raining. I could dry it inside, but it's not as fresh, so I've been patiently waiting...and it's still raining. What's your 1st world problem today?

hahaha, whilst Chris would thank you, possibly going as far as the gifting option by way of thank you...I'd rather use the day times and he's at work. Back to the drawing board :)

So that's nice, what's everyone making for tea tonight lol.

What the best bang for my buck so to speak on the exercise front please oh healthier ones?? How often should I be doing this whatever it is and for how long too? So I'm gonna admit it, I'd rather be doing pretty much anything but exercise, I've felt like that since I had my first child almost 9 years ago. Before that I was super active, danced, gym, classes - I am even a qualified circuit trainer and aerobic instructor, in honesty mostly because I wanted to do evening classes and it sounded more interesting then the other course, but still.... Now, meh, I'd rather sit and have a glass of vino of an evening and watch the TV that is finally not on frikkin c beebies or some tripe like that. But I'm a bit tubby now lol. So I need to shift about a stone in weight and I don't need to do it fast, not going anywhere, just consistant. All help greatfully received!! PS, I am not a runner, or a walker, it's very built up in my town but regardless I am budget conscious and the gear costs a fortune, I want a Florida holiday more than a beach body lol.

Cool, not quite at bothering the docs yet, like I say, annoying and I just wondered if it was related to the quit.

Has anyone had this, I'm around 7 weeks quit, just over a month anyway. I have to keep clearing my throat, or do a pathetic little cough thing, it just won't clear and I'm not sure if it smoking related, a cold or maybe some hayfever thing? If it is a quit smoking thing, could you clear it or how long did it take? Not bad just really annoying me after 4/5 days now.

You feel scared because your inner junkie is fighting to control you. That simple hun. So face that fear, you say it yourself, you enjoyed life more not smoking. Specific events were more enjoyable as is day to day I imagine with breath, finances etc etc. So that's great to go with Amy. You need to stop scaring yourself though, maybe take seriously the one day at a time option this time? x

I read that man's diary, I'm not sure there's tarot help, or any help lol

Well Julie, once upon a time you saved my ass and in an "unporn" way! So Bakon, don't make me read your tarot cards and tell you were your (ehem, unclean!) life is takin you ;) So yeah something you wouldn't know is I'm working on being able to read tarot cards for people remotely...wow Bakon, there may be trouble ahead (singing) lol

I was gonna say my special skills, but now I don't feel special "unporn", off to my own corner of the tinternet....

you beauty, 2 months is fab! xx

Amy, Just a day that you do not smoke. Just the one mind! Tomorrow, you won't smoke, and we will have your back. Post, chew gum, I will hold you up, these guys will hold you up. Just one day. x

Rach, I've heard all these words a few times chick. Don't scare me, lets talk. Did they say Cin (may sound like sin) and spout a number after it. Can you check your mail, do you feel up to it. Shit I wish we were same continent and I could give you my number! Don't be scared by a biopsy chick, that normally means they don't know what they are dealing with. What do you remember. Let me help here. xx

You got some good friends Sarah :) Gentle hugs, some days hey! Be gentle with yourself if needs be, I mean sometimes ice cream is the only answer right. Or wine, that works for some too. xx

I felt pretty lost. those posts, that person - that's not me. I am just so gushily (I just made that word up didn't I lol) happy that people had my back and I believed in them. I think a newbie and a 1st quarter guy just saved my ass again!! My larger but now exercised ass lol.

Sarah, how you feeling now you're home from work (unless it was a real bad monday)?? You're in my thought's. x

Bakon, short and sweet dude! Amy has this. Amy always had this but got scared, it happens. Give your best quit tips guys, that will help the journey. x

I am a quit buddy whore, I have two cause I'm greedy like that. Just my new one talking about getting back on the train has reminded me I always wanted this. My older and yet strangely skirted (for a fella) and experienced one has reminded me all the way through that I have had this since day 1. I don't know as if I forgot that per se, I think I was safe...but I forgot the severity with which I wanted this freedom. Talking someone else through it and actually my beloved cousin asking me about it for him has reminded me I LOVE this quit. Amy and Stu, your refreshing ways remind me I love this quit, I love this support and this board. I was always ok, it was just life stuff and never to do with not smoking, which still remains the 3rd best thing I've ever done with my little life. I would do a hallelujah if I was that way inclined but I no longer am lol, so I will raise my energy and share the thanks with the next person I see who could use the support, cause THAT is what I do and THAT is who I am. I heal, I lead, I save - I do not wallow and whinge and whine. I will ALWAYS beat the craves because I don't want to smoke. There is no need to be afraid they will come again because if they do, I will smash them back again..and yeah, I may do that with a snot fest but hey, I never said I was a classy bird :) Ya know, I know it's coming again. I know from little things this board has said and reading what people have felt. It's ok, battle I can do, like I said in my first week I want and deserve this quit and I will do whatever it takes. I am and always was ok and that is in no small part from this support network. Powerful stuff! xx

Trish, you brought my words to me in a moment of weakness. I told you I had your back now. But your back is not here Mrs. We have a problem now - I don't break my word!! I know i know, you were trying to help me and now you have a pet stalker an all...ya know, life is weird that way. So What's the plan then, what we doing?? ((trish)) xx

Aww, emotional highs and lows, check, it is absolutely normal. Ride them out sweetie, they are perfectly normal in most quits and if it's how you feel now have a hug ((sarah)). xx

slinks off denying all knowledge of daughter being called Bella after Robs post.... oopsy lol. Sounds like a fab time Julie, girls day :)

Sounds very wise to me!! Exactly how I do it, use the force (ok board but I just watched star wars ep 1 last night) ;) xx

lol at Action. Increased energy levels maybe Sarah?