Still winning

have a greatbirthday while you're away. x

Yes that's what I meant. Calorie control AND exercise, just wondered which was best fat burner in tandem with diet control.

Maybe this is normal, I honestly don't know. If I brought something to your quit buddy then that's all good and ya know, your welcome an all...but I'm a bit bemused lol. It all sticks another nail in the quit coffin though, just another thing I refuse to go through again and why this quit will stick. x

This one I related too, 44 is close to my age and I can't begin to imagine http://whyquit.com/whyquit/A_Kim.html I lay my determination for my quit at this lady's story though, wow. My actual age and she was gone, through smoking http://whyquit.com/whyquit/A_Deborah.html

My earlier responses have gone. I do think I take too many calories. However, since not smoking I get REALLY frikkin grumpy if I'm hungry! I don't think I ever ate healthy, I'm not even sure what that would look like - I guess probably what I feed the kids lol. I am still unsure what sort of exercise would produce the best results. I find I now prefer the more chilled out ones like pilates and some tone based yoga. I can do leaping around but I struggle for energy after a day with the kids and only have an hour in the daytime to myself 4 days a week during the day. Then one lunacy exercise, this week was combat cardio. I got sick for now, but will go back to it as soon as I feel well. Will look up that fitness app, thank you. Thanks to those who've confirmed they feel the same. There is strength in knowing I'm not alone in these thoughts. I'd already stacked on some pounds before I quit, I had about 4 left to lose, only to whack on another 11lbs! I literally don't fit into my clothes!! My fella said he'd take me out and buy me some new bits, but I'm not frikkin barbie, I want my clothes to fit! So the last two days I have shaved a quarter of a portion off each meal. Hoping this helps. Maybe I ought to consider that little and often eating rather than meals?

Laura, I'm really sorry for you. Sucks to relapse. The thing that stopped that cycle for me was education. Like you are doing I hit up the learning what smoking related illness looks like!! I do not want my children to have to see that for me, or look after me!! whyquit.com has some proper horror stories, early quit I read one a day, often breaking my heart crying as I did. I just believe I always had the will to quit, but not the knowledge to stay quit - you sound similar. I hope that helps you to know someone else has been where you are, close but not there - that's just my experience though, do what works for you. xx

nope. x

Thank you guys. Both for the answer but also the honesty, it's a personal thing emotions isn't it. I won't smoke again, no matter the wobble. In the end, I don't want to and I won't do this quit again, and it's always a choice for myself. That said, this emotional thing is a tough gig for me. My triggers are still spread across quite a wide net so this often feels a bit of a minefield still. Not at like it was early days, different kinda hard and strange at times. It takes me a while to meditate so I tried and failed to kinda replace smoking with that...no go. So in a nutshell, this emotion is here to stay and I need to find a better way to "be" with it.

congrats petra, really pleased to see this :) 10 months is amazing!! xx

Thank you. I literally feel overly sad (in my opinion) about any given thing. Like my mum will smoke, it's a trigger, I deal with that and then get left with the emotion of this will make her copd worse and then that takes me into what will become and how bad will it be and yada yada, rather then stopping at the initial stage and thinking - I own my stuff. My weight was high, I spent 2 days wondering how I will cope and upset. Only to bounce back out of it and think, well diet then. Literally I am not fixed on one thing. I just think where I would have walked away and had a cig to think on it...That's missing. Will it always be missing?

I'm not that funny, oops. However I have just lit a candle and sent my energy to your goodlady wife and asked for angel healing. xx

This is what I have just blogged: My emotions are still up and down like a yo yo. I have smoked since I was 13 years old. My first cigarette was age 9! I am now 38, never in all my adult years have I "coped" as a non smoker. I did quit for 364 days, but I was massively protected in that time and the first real drama, I smoked again. So I will forgive myself that sometimes I don't know how to/who to be? I feel like a child sometimes! I am now learning how to deal with my emotions. Ironically, I am teaching my 8 and 4 year old daughters how to do the same haha. I get really sad, really down but then I come bouncing back up. I will learn without smoking how to do this, how to be calm. What I need to check, is, Is this normal? Is it a phase or is this how things are henceforth? I will be ok with whatever the answers are but feel like I need to know. I have been using exercise to push these feelings down and create natural "feel good" feelings but today I can't. Pesky kidney infection ouch. So it's more noticeable and I think others thoughts and experiances would help here. Triggers still happen, it is still tricky but not hard like it was early days, I got that - emotions - wow they got me!!

My emotions are still up and down like a yo yo. I have smoked since I was 13 years old. My first cigarette was age 9! I am now 38, never in all my adult years have I "coped" as a non smoker. I did quit for 364 days, but I was massively protected in that time and the first real drama, I smoked again. So I will forgive myself that sometimes I don't know how to/who to be? I feel like a child sometimes! I am now learning how to deal with my emotions. Ironically, I am teaching my 8 and 4 year old daughters how to do the same haha. I get really sad, really down but then I come bouncing back up. I will learn without smoking how to do this, how to be calm. So the triggers are now easier but there. Only being around smokers is harder, but still, I can manage that in a dismissive way by putting my thought process together and remember one cigarette goes with 30 a day and that is DONE! However, I would be a liar if I said it didn't still exist, but it's ok and easier week by week I honestly think. The emotions -truly a work of art/work in progress?!

How lovely is Tiff!! Jimmy, will keep you in our thoughts. xx

Congrats to you both. Hope the anniversary went well too. x

nope for me.

Not in my particular gang lol, but can't see a thread! SOOO massive congrats on 3 months!! Thanks for all you do, I like reading your kind and gentle ways and I'm super happy you are quit ahead of me to follow. :yahoo: xx

I can't believe the medical profession blame smoking for everything, what non smokers don't get cancer...this was my war cry. I would get angry if docs blamed something I had on smoking, like they weren't trying to work it out. Now I daily listen to "but I'm barely smoking at all" from a failed quitter! It's a failure to smoke when you meant to give up, argh! So many years being a big old dopey twonk to be honest. Lesson finally learnt.

At the risk of tmi, I am doing the more sex, every night, poor blokes knackered!! I also worked out, I'm still lardee. Just ordered that Jillian 30 day shred thing...poor Chris needs a break ;) I can't believe I did that much (all inclusive) and lost 1 pesky lb (that pesky is abridged). Meh!

I need help in a big way. I am very unhappy carrying extra weight, I get it's bad to admit but I am massively vain! So I don't care what it take anymore, I need your best tips to shift a few pounds. Exercise/diet ideas. x

I spent the weekend walking and pub crawling. Kept meeting up with smoking friends and would think awww for a second, then remember everything that comes with it and I was ok again. Strange sensations. Done a lot more exercise then I've done in years over the week, didn't ache so don't think I'm doing enough but pleased my fitness level is still ok to not ache and ready to ramp it up this week. So that's all good. Fella had that whole body crave thing on Sat night, wow that's horrendous to watch and pants to be on the recieivng end of the temper, but great, it's done and we are ok. BUT, about weight! Yes I know there are bigger problems in the world but really, I'm over a stone heavier. I know it's vain and I should be all "oh I quit smoking yay" but that's not me. I don't make a big deal of it but I overly care what I look like. I am the one with the boob job and capped teeth across the front of my mouth cause I wasn't happy. I have managed my weight since my first child, refusing to be that mum who didn't lose it. I don't know what to do and am covering up the fact this is awful for me, looking in the mirror right now is awful and I do care. I won't smoke but jeez. Over a month of my skin itching like it's on fire and my skin is awful and now I'm a fat lardee bloater too. Am going to try and up the intensity of the workouts and cut out more foods. I have a wedding to attend at the end of the month and I will look dreadful :( Just needed to write it down somewhere I think that I'm not ok with that one bit, the rest rocks! Still would choose lardy over smoker, just sucks, that's all.

Massive congrats on your 8 months Beacon. Really enjoy reading about your changing lifestyle. x

Excellent work on your 2 months Donna, made it, phew :) Congrats to you. x

Happy triple digits plus one day! Brilliant and I too like milestones. Sympathy on the pants size lol.

10 mins mopping, 20 mins ab workout, 10 min bike riding. Someone else must now own my legs cause I can't feel them lol.