Still winning

Sometimes, when you least expect it, this quitting malarky ramps itself up a gear. I was soo upset and angry earlier in the week. I knew I wouldn't smoke, I did think about it read my own answer to an sos (which it wasn't but precautionary). It suddenly felt like an answer from another lifetime. I have cigs in the house, have the whole quit though so not new or a plan, and I thought "I wish it would help, I know it won't, sigh". And just carried on being upset. Like a non smoker!! Having a tough week, the natives are restless and ill and very annoying, each in their own right. Zero desire to smoke! I wonder if it's because my house is safely smoke free now (last quitter has 3 weeks but did smoke here) or whether it's a new faze of this quit. Comrade wasn't much further then me when he posted he hadn't thought about smoking for a whole day!! I want that!! I won't smoke of course and of that I am positive, no more, never again yada yada. I do think though, oh I would smoke here but I don't smoke so that's not gonna happen... without breath, like it reads lol. I even sniff fresh smoke and think ahhhhh and then "oh 40 of those a day, no thanks" and force myself to crack on. Please let it be a new faze!!

I really am wondering what other people did?? There are still cigarettes here. Lesser readers who are not as nosy as I, skip the whole middle section and answer the last line only - Bakon - saved ya! lol I hid them after my Mums health scare where she announced smoking was done, absolute kudos - 50 odd years later she still has a 3 weeks quit! Yeah she's pretty cranky lol, but not smoking. Now.... She put a packet in her handbag and they are all still there. Yes we have the mother/daughter dynamic SOOOO confused and I keep checking, I know, I'm a bad person!! I also removed one sealed one open packet that she had and forgot about in a raid of drawers and cupboards before I went and broke her out of hospital to look after at home, I hid them in the cupboard...in case the quit didn't stick (yes I'm a cost conscious chav!). They are still there too. I don't know whether to get rid or keep them. My whole quit I have had access to cigs via smokers living in the same house!! I actually kinda like this, I always could have and chose not too kind of mentality. Apart from one dire SOS where I still don't know for sure I wouldn't have smoked - as luck would have it the cigs had gone to bed with the owner as I was in my holier than thou quitting faze and poor Mama was concerned her cigs would take the hit haha. So what did you do with yours?!

brilliant, congrats on 4!! Shout us on how all is going chick. x

Welcome!! See you've got 4 months in the bag, fab news! It's nice round here, we like it, homely and friendly. Shhh - I think the sarge is mellowing!! He's not nearly as cranky here ;) Do post and share, it's nice to have other peoples thoughts. x

After two solid days of running around like r2d2 and sicknotes dropping like flies around me - what I really want to walk into at 5pm friday is my ex husband and ex in laws sitting chilling in my ******* kitchen?! Apparently down for a visit and haven't seen me for a while... Fooking marvellous. Wine o clock. Family party tomoz too, it's been a while since I was in the presence of both parents trying to smiling assasin style insult each other without being noticed... Double bloody win. I now officially hate these fuc*king cats, not slept well in over two days. My 4 year old has a high temp and having nightmares, my 8 year old having some sort of 3 year old tantrum at 4am when her cup wouldn't close. Cats running round like fooking looneys. Fu*k my life, whhhhyyyyyyyyyy!!!

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thanks guys, will have a lookinto some ideas along those lines. x

So soups, what flavours does everyone have, what's really tasty? We grew up being a veg or tomato soup family lol. I just tried french onion (I love onion) and wow, it's naf! I also tried the curry soup one (muligatawny sp?) and that's too potent. So interested what types everyone else eats. I do make chicken noodle for when people are sick but that's just stock, noodles and some chicken so easy peasy to make. Ideas?!

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I'm there with you, NOPE here :)

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oooo, too weird :( Personally I'd try and talk him round though, (cocky Bi*ch that I am lol) and if that didn't work ditch him. But I'd want to make sure if he ticked all the other boxes for me. That aside, you'd be amazed the amount of people who think e cigs and vaping equals quit - seems quite common sadly. xx

None for me, nothing, de nada, NOPE :)

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5am - walk around my house hunting for a cat that's meowing, take cat back to bed in effort to shut him up. x2 repeats 5.45am - Arm extension in my sleep no less, (my exercising really is coming on!) to remove cat fur from mouth. 6.30 - Walk around kitchen looking for where stupid boyfriend put cat food. x10 repeats, plus some vocal exercise 6.30 - 7.30 - Walk backwards and forward between paddling pool (cats there) and kitchen and lounge (kids there getting ready for school, or not!) where stupid cats are trying to get in the pool, kids are forgetting to get ready. approx x 30 repeats before enganging x3 tricep curls with the hose at the cats! Engage vocal exercise simultaneously. 9.30 x15 minute actual arms excercises x15 minute actual butt exercise. 10am now - 11 hours till sleep approx :lazy:

Some of us needed a few practice quits and to find a safe place to support us before we're off. Like Tracey says it speaks volumes that you are searching for the right support for you, that's a good thing. You say romancing? What particularly triggers you? Are you ready with these excuses at the start do you think or do they sneak up on you? Could you get a list of things to do if the same triggers happen. I say the above as without intending too, I set myself up for failure for months, it was so hard and I couldn't understand why I kept falling off. When I worked out it was self sabotage it was a great moment because it allowed me to be really honest with myself and try something new. Just my experience and hopefully something will resonate. Welcome and congrats on your quit from the 30th!! xx

I just soaked two of Chris's cats with the hose, sneaky buggers keep trying to get into the kids paddling pool...so I figured you want water....now I feel a bit bad. I also accidently shoved one off the bed this morning when it scared the crap out me whilst sleeping. I'm actually a cat person normally too, just these cats are sneaky feckers!

x2 25 minute walks pushing a buggy :) Power walked 1 of those bone shaking the poor child as I went haha

oh funny stuff, made me chuckle tonight. Jimmy, really?? Didn't see that coming (bet the zebra said the same). x

Massive congrats to Mason who has a solid two week quit :) Absolutely delighted for you! xx

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