Still winning

I have to go shopping tomorrow as my man think's buying me a dress is a great thing. He's doing the whole "i am god" thing, I feel like frikkin barbie and I'm not even sure I'm a real woman as I hate shopping. I will be brave and smile, they will never know!

Finally feeling better so started Jillians shred!! Will give it a coupleof days before I add other stuff to it and see how I cope. Feeling agro that two weeks exercise meant no pain at all, was clearly fitter then I thought and worked out 4 times week 1, 5 times week 2 before illness. So keen to see what the hype is about as dvd arrived monday when I was sick! I'm as excited as a fat kid in a sweet shop!!!

When I exercise, after about 5 mins, every extend has the inside of my elbow clicking. Doesn't do it in normal tasks, doesn't do it straight away but after a while it does. No pain, aware of a minor pull and a click noise. For the duration of whatever I'm doing (combat/yoga/pilates/shred thing/toning/weights) it clicks and I have to modify everything. Have taken a week off exercise due to illness. Restarted today and the click started after 5 mins again, so a rest made no difference. Any ideas? I have carpal tunnel in the same arms hand, could it be linked? The tunnel is not too bad as I've not long had a steroid injection (bout 3 months ago I think).

It sometimes feel overwhelming (in the best way) that effective strangers are rooting for you - probably more so than normal folks. You're good people Jimmy, the folks here saw that. Dry the tears my lovely and get back to making the difference you do. xx

..and I finally beat her to posting a thread :ph34r: speedy! I know we've just done 4 weeks, but one month is a big deal!! To truck through all the life changes you have keeping your head and quit about you is amazing work. It's been a pleasure to watch and join your journey so thank you and Massive congrats to you!! :victory: :dance3: xx

Big congrats jackie, so pleased to say you did AMAZING on this 4 month celebration. Some people do it easy peasy, some of us just trundle through a little slower but for sure you are always there, helping, paying it forwards and we are right behind supporting you right back! Big up Jackie66 :) xx

wye, fab news honey and congrats on your 4 months!! Dentists everywhere are quaking at the lack of revenue :) xx

Wonderful news Melody, congrats on your 6 months and changing your lifestyle too!! xx

massive congrats on 6 months. x

nope for me too

So many things. The biggest is spending proper time with the children. I'd often leave them mid puzzle or mid game once I'd got them started, so I could go and smoke and come back (now I know smelling real bad) and carry on like that was ok!! I make a habit of spending a large portion of one on one time with each child without ever getting the craving. I like that. I wasn't the embarrassed smoker though, I was the god given right smoker!! Fresh air outside and you look at me, I'm bitching about it's outside. need to stop having fun (4 times my kids had to stop at a theme park so I could go to smokers corner) and that was ok to take some time for me. Duh!! So I do wonder at you guys when you say you felt bad for smoking...I simply never did. x

Hi again Gabby, so pleased you could introduce yourself, sounds like you've been busy of late. I think in previous quits I've missed the addiction connection, in honesty it didn't sit well considering I was an addict of anything and my ability to seperate possible effects of smoking, from me smoking a cig - were superb!! I am over those hangups now. I read here in the pinned section. I read absolute horror stories and recovery stories on whyquit.com (highly recommend). On the strength of these guys I also bought the allen carr give up smoking book, but my mind was already set from acknowledgement and acceptance that it was always going to be a problem to me and the only real answer was not again, then these guys said NOPE (not one puff ever). I could work with that! The one rule is don't put something in your mouth and set it on fire :) Those absolutely resonated with me, hope they help you. Reading and educating ourselves may have saved a ton of quits too. Learn how the sos board works and think about writing your own pre response when you are on a good day. That way instead of think whatever, and smoking, perhaps we can talk you down :) Sorry rambling again :) Will shut up for a while. xx

:( Gutted. I really wanted his fitness to pick up so he felt proud of himself. Maybe someday soon I hope. x

Hey Lucy, what's your quit date honey? So we can celebrate the milestones with you? x

Normally in my dream I say no to smoking. Last night I didn't see me smoke it but I put one smoked all the way through out in an ashtray for my sister to say at that point, hey I thought you gave up. I looked at her and looked at the fag butt and started crying as I hadn't meant to smoke.... woke myself up actually crying. Our brains are crazy things and I did calm when I realized it wasn't real. Intense way of reminding myself I do not want to be a smoker and relapse would devastate me. I wonder if this is why we have these dreams as our subconscious way of saying - hey, you don't want to do that. Food for thought.

haha, ross, go to the pub if that works better?

Then do what you can my sweet and why not do your exercise's sooner as a way of beating the craves. That said if it doesn't feel right then don't do that and do whatever the hell you want to make the crave pass, whatever works for you is right. xx

No burning up liz, I'm sure that should be treason ;) Chuffed for you action, I still can't keep hold of money but I blame the cute kids and treats in the shop. The money goes on pointless treats now and I love that I rarely have to say no - so same thing. I think you should go into town and blow the lot :)

Evelyn go for a walk, beat the crave help the weight - double win!! We are non smokers you know, so we can't smoke. It always passes and we are always delighted when it comes to end and we didn't smoke. Look forward to that feeling while you wade through. Sos is good! Smoking is bad! better to SOS!! Always!! xx

Wow!! Just proving that cats are superior of course but holy smokes I hope that dog owner got busted! Poor kiddo :(

Blimey,a pity party cuddle lol, you know better then that buddy;) I read all those, I prefer my over cautious panic induced worry...maybe one day I'll work past it, I do try! Mary Poppins I'm not (practically perfect in case some don't know). Yada yada it is what it is etc etc, it still burns like a mofo. More so because I tried so hard and tried to stay so focused and positive. It's my only "proper" failure to date, other than a marriage which I don't count as it was progress :) I used to be scared of spiders. Went for hypnotherepy to give up smoking and got over the fear of spiders instead?? That fear is literally the only one I have left now though and I think on balance that's pretty cool. I can look any situation in the face and know I have the omph to pull from somewhere to deal with it. It's a pretty useful fear to have when your aim is to quit smoking too :)

Pleased you made it through trish. The mood swings are vaguely like some crazy pmt hey, I think you're doing fab!! This is how my clearer, yet highly emotional mind sees no mans land now. I struggled to learn maths at school, it made no sense, I was massively frustrated, the numbers seemed to do their own thing and traumatise many double lessons a week, I saw no point to going through this and learning it. Years later I realized, trig was never needed but it was about learning patterns and rules and also I used numbers in a job for years lol.Turns out it was just a learning phase that made me into a more rounded person you see :) Phases of smoking feel the same, almost like rites of passage sometimes. One day at a time for now, if you look after today, tomorrow can be looked after when it is the right time. xx

Devastating. You always hope don't you.

nope.

What are you most afraid of? Failure! I hate to fail at anything and it's not in an ambition type way. It always seems people are relying on me so I can't fail at anything or I will let everyone down. My pub went bust and I went bankrupt. I'd seen it coming but it took a medical thing to make me re-evaluate and call it a day, I found it hard to accept. I thought if I just worked harder it would work, I was looking ill (people thought I was bulimic or something) but really it was stress and overwork. Even now I know it was economy and ridiculous price rises designed to get pubs back by the big companies who own the freeholds but I still hold it and it grates my nerves. I had to go bankrupt. I came out of that court and sobbed like a child. The whole failure thing does not work for me at all and I will fight having to feel like that.