Still winning

Sometimes it's all just harsh, it sounds kinda like that for you. You are not chatting to yourself, we're reading. Pleased your on the mend, did you feel well enough to get the run on? Sorry it's all a bit tough with sick child, you and stuff. Pleased to hear you're hanging tough now. x

Have you got sky? On there is a chick who does some stretch yoga thing, will hunt out her name if you're interested and no offence if you don't. I recorded that and was really liking it. Not too Yoga fied (think, hang upside down with legs round neck, sooo not my thing) and it was actually reshaping me slowly over 3 weeks I'm sure.Never hurt myself, didn't sweat and combined with a nice diet was losing 1lb per week and doing it 4 times. I liked I could do it at home and it being free :) I also think walking in the woods is better :) Just an optional thought. x

Left bed, hoorah!! :), me too!! it is a beautiful day for a walk if it holds. Enjoy.

I know it's not possible of course but it all feels a bit samey at the moment, it feels like time isn't really passing. I just put in June celebrations to the calender, or started too. Put in it will be 3 months for me next month and thought "Jeez, is that all"! I guess this can be taken in a good way. I look at the progress I've made, the limited triggers I now get and that's at 2 months and some but it feels weird and out of whack, like it should be longer, not sure why. I also look how I define trigger now, once it was attached to a gut wrench feeling, now a crave is all mental and frankly, annoying. I simply say nope and move on most of the time. The harder times are when a smoker wants to smoke and talk to me, I have to watch them smoke and it still makes me think "ahhh, but not for me". When my daughters are away from me, I get restless and that causes some bigger triggers, boredom is still high on my mental chatter list. Posting and distracting myself does work though which is good. I actually through it all, do not want to smoke anymore. I am done abusing my body that way. Exercise is fun but maybe this shred thing isn't the way for me. I am a little over-zealous and keep hurting myself lol. I want to do what they do, sadly I'm 38 with less oophf then the body built tv birds :) Oopsy, deep heat on the shoulder again and moving on I will rest today and try once more tomoz. If not I can go back to the other stuff I was enjoying. I forgot I like to exercise...how did I forget?! I like to feel fit and well and I can't believe my brain tried to hide that from me so I would smoke again? Even hurting I'm thinking this is great! The euphoria I get after exercise definately outweighs the smoking "aahhhhh" which is crave induced. Overall I think I'm ok but on edge. Not to the place I want to be yet but trucking on. I will know when I get to the elusive "i'm there" I'm sure.

none for me, nope indeedy, sunny day and clear lungs (well clearing lungs) :)

Almost congrats then, I will save them. Do you plant your own food to eat or sell Comrade? I see you're planting all the time at the moment so was wondering. I planted herbs, onions, carrots and strawberries and have some beautiful lavender bushes that are a few years old now to harvest and dry lavender, but yours sounds a bit more impressive then english country garden stylee :)

I kept trying to read it. My sister and mum said "oh it changed my life" but I found it hard to read (and I love reading). Really bitty and it annoyed me so is dust collecting on the shelf haha. Is it worth a perservere do you think?

I think Gabby and Soozie said similar things, about long term quitting and then going back. I only scored one long term quit 14 years ago, I can't remember! I say that as I think it says something about your commitment laura. Some people leave it eons, scared to try again or in a way scared to do it again, winning can be as scary as failing to some addicts. The fact that you've added in a place like this, to vent and get support and help others (thus reminding you of what you don't wantto do again) means this quit matters to you. It's strong and you are nurturing it to get it to a place where it's safer and you can just managenot to smope. You're doing great, even those roundabout days (what I call my iwac days) are progress and once done, never have to do the same day again if you just hold on. PS would feel the same about the job but more pushy then Tracey's half full kinda girl, more money and less stress? Might be worth a look. xx

hope that day when you don't think iwac comes soon Laura. Really great that you've got to that point though, I'm sure the craves will go if you do something physical, could that be possible next time (or this time if it's still happenning). xx

I love this!! Lol @ the ex, atta girl :)

The battle continues Trish, doing brilliantly!! In the face of stress too, hope all is ok. For now though we celebrate, 1 week in the bag and onto the next :yu: xx

nope, not now not ever again.

I am sorry, these are excuses :( They are junkie thinking. Really read them through hun and you can see it yourself. These are the reasons YOU give yourself to not sos and to go buy cigs. Your disability (and my mums, you are not alone) apparently don't prevent shop runs? I don't work either. Really boring isn't it!! I read, do free online courses, housework, exercise...I don't smoke. I could do each point but I won't, I don't want to hammer you, merely explain. Just one rule Evelyn, don't put something in your mouth and set fire to it. Do ANYTHING else, just not that. xx

nope.

Made it, thought I should and could but read the stories a few times to re-inforce so thank you. xx

I think once you have even a few puffs, you have reset a lot of triggers and made smoking a possibility. That's why repeated quitters have my utmost respect as they stand up and do it again, hopefully you have learnt some tips to help you this time, I say that as my failures helped my current quit an awful lot. There is some power in knowing where your own weaknesses lay if you want to right them or avoid them. I honestly want say dig your heels in and use your nope. Sounds silly but that little word (yelled or yelled in my head depending on location) helped me more than all the other tips as it really is the only option. So the other bit, GO rowly, day 1 and you have accepted no excuses, that is powerful. Sending you lots of strength vibes. x

Me either rowly, nope for us all.

congrats again for your 6 months, I love those stats melody! BUT OMG how frikking cute is that little dude in his cap and gown awwwwwww.

sounds fun. wish i was there lol. hope you've had a good day. x

I always like to read the stories. I don't know, when I feel restless it makes something stick in my head to know other reasons to quit. Some resonate, some don't but all have a real strength about them and that's what I take. I am all good, but restless, I will be fine because I have put in place measures to secure that but these are the times when my levels drop. I'm not on guard so much, so this is me reminding myself to stay on guard I guess. Thank you for your support. x

Hope the weekend gives you a break Trsih, but the only way is through it. I think the higher we hold our heads the easier we make it through the majority of it. Wish you luck hosepipe fixing too, that sounds like a pain in the butt. x

Awww that's amazing :) xx

Some of us Trish (*cough* includes me) learn from relapses! I would not have this quit, if I hadn't failed other quits. I stood one day and said I can't do this again - you can do that too! No matter what we hang on this time because we are just damn right tired of quitting. And we educate and yada yada :) Congrats on day 5. x

For those who know I'm a single mum now with shared access. Every other weekend the kids Dad take them. He's a good dad and a good man, this I know. BUT, being without my little reasons for being is a trigger for me, I have learnt this from weekends gone by because wow, I'm two months quit now and very happy about it. Still,before at this time, I could smoke in my house. My mama is upping her smoking intake in the house - this means it's time to post. Give me your very bestest quit reasons or the push over the edge that forced you into quitting. Experience helps and saves the SOS board if my partner comes home and is not the best chris he could be lol. Pizza en route and early night planned but help greatfully recieved! For me, I got an infection that meant I struggled to breath properly for a couple of days. It was just hard work and exhausting. I had "tried" to quit so many times since last July it was becoming laughable. I didn't even tell anyone when I tried anymore. I did a healing course, i got the illness and wondered why I couldn't self heal...then considered this. My nana died of emphysema. My uncle (loved like a dad but do have a live somewhat clueless/useless dad) died of lung cancer. My mum Copd and I am now a registered carer for her, my life is on hold and she still smokes (although less) and something went - CLICK! I took champix, it made me bat shi...., well pretty nuts, I still took it and quit, I called it "my last chance" but really I meant jeez, I do not have another quit in me. My first post said everyone still smokes so I will find it hard - first response sarge - saying so what!! haha. So what indeed but I am more needy then him so share ya stories for an english chick who could use some firming up and support for the weekend. xx