Still winning

Thank you all. Had over an hour of button pushing conversation which set off a big trigger. I knew I wouldn't smoke, but had to get it out, this seemed the safest way for me. xx

dd 6 months is amazing! congrats. x

Bandit, no they were old and a bit pants lol, but it's the guys who made the song whose lyrics you quoted :) Anyway, I'm just here remembering my nope, nothing to see here.

It's ok. Nothing but nothing will make me go back to that place. It won't help and I only wish something could but it is what it is hey.

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Was trying to manage myself but goodness this is harsh.I wish I knew as much as everyone else does on my life and how I should raise my children. jeez. Nothing like calling you a shit mum to make your buttons explode.

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You can't unlearn right. DIY. I am doing the best I can. x

Martine Louise are you shi*ting me, you lead, that is what you do - who will you lead with smoking, shall we give Milly or Bella the first cigarette. It will never be ok to be this addict, it is not who you are, you cannot heal people and help people as an addict. Now man the fu*k up and lead like you were born to do. And hugs, you are strong enough to do this no matter what you are facing this moment! If you doubt yourself go listen to a COPD cough, or read on lung cancer that stole your beloved peter. No more shoulda, coulda, woulda...if I want it I do it...Nathan 2008. Now stop being such a donut! xx

I don't take failure well. I don't take pointing out or twisting my flaws well.It stillpushes my buttons. Not SOS now but I find it harder when people piss me off. I understand how I gave up a year quit when I feel upset. I won't, cause nothing is worth it but blimey. It's been tough isall.

Aw Gabby, I just broke into a grin :) Brilliant news!! xx

Nope did you see Elbow at Glastonbury, they showed on the tv?

sick! No words, just an utter sicko who totally abused his position :( May he rot in hell! In honesty, I didn't expect a conviction and thought it was a money thing, I hate to think like that but I really did so this is a total shock.

My goodness, you must have worked SO hard to reshape like that. Well done!! Bet that feels great to see the difference :) xx

((holski)) Have a wallow day babe, that's ok. Tomorrow's another day and we pick ourselves up and dust our arses down and attack. Take it day by day. Believe in yourself too, you are actually already doing it!!

Scott, Iam pleased you came back to say that. I am really moved by your words, what a fabulous story of hope for the future! My utmost congrats for 18 months and all of your additional achievements, it sounds amazing. I only hope to have half the journey! x

What's scottish then?? lol

nope.

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Good on Mrs El B for saying something that made you think :) Those constant craves were mad weren't they! All day every day, thinking about your next cigarette. No wonder I got so little done, mentally exhausting! So pleased you have 5 fabulous months of freedom my friend! x

Gabby, 3 weeks is great!! massive congrats to you. My big thing is you said I will do it this time, I LOVE that you believe in yourself now!! You absolutely will do it, we will walk with youmy lovely. xx

haha, It took me a month to get a picture up. Someone clever will have to do it for me from facebook :) It will take a few months though, money and time to do it. x

It helps to read this stuff. I love stat or two :) Beacon your quit (and actually sheer energy) is inspirational! Excited for your impeding year of freedom. x

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