Hey @Judi, I read one of your recent posts and you sounded like you were thinking you were not the YOU that you've always been since you quit smoking. This article helps to explain why we feel so empty after we've quit. Thought it might help you? It does talk time and patience to "rewrite your life" as a nonsmoker but it is doable for anyone. Some sooner than others. Not sure if that's related to how long you've smoked or just who we are as individuals but you will find your freedom & peace in being a nonsmoker if you stick with the process and don't smoke.