sharonsiff

How's today feeling Tiff, better than yesterday?

Tiff for goodness sake don't feel bad that you posted. Hell I would have had a news real, on our local tv news, if I could just to express the sheer anger and frustration I was feeling. Not stupid at all, just unfortunately part of the course for some of us. Does that mean some people are more addicted than others? No. Yet there is no question that the other crap, apart from nicotine, does affect some more than others. Research those who have thyroid problems and Inflammatory bowel Disease and stopped smoking if you don't believe me. Some powerful s##t in cigs and I'm not even talking about nicotine because as you know I was still using nicotine via vaping. So think on...not silly at all. The beauty of all this is if you actually do it, which you are currently doing, you only ever have to do this once. The journey can be ugly, at times, however you just reach destination if you keep doing what you're doing. If that means now and again you reach out who the hell cares! Doesn't mean that you weak, or silly, just means the powerful s##t, in cigs, is screaming for a top up. You're keeping it real Tiff so I've no doubt that this really will be the quit, keep doing what you are doing and if that means you sometimes need to reach out...reach the hell out.

Tiff you have just got to stop those thoughts in their tracks really, simple as that. Entertaining the thought that it's a possibility to make a purchase is dangerous. How do you stop the thoughts...million dollar question. I remember it's doesn't feel so simple, when the huge urge to just sod it, and do it comes. Go and make a purchase and you're back to square one, just silly, so find yourself something to distract yourself. If you're extremely angry then do something fast and furious, get the aggression out if that's how it's starting to feel. It sucks, of course it does, but you'll only ever have to do this once. Get busy, find something to do....you only have to get through today, which you are capable of, then it's another day done. Stop even allowing yourself to consider making a purchase. Sarge gave you a stripe the other day I noticed...get through today and you're a day nearer to your next one. Scream if you have to, cry even...who cares! Do whatever you need to do.

I've had the joy of going to Tenerife each year, since not wasting thousands on somoking. The money not wasted has meant us Sifford's have had an absolute blast. I build up to it, and am excited every single day when I think I'm going back. It's like medication really...I can't put into words the thrill it gives be to be able to go once a year, to my second home. Had I still been smoking, not got my head down and worked through the discomfort, we wouldn't have had a holiday every year, no way. The added beauty is I also love the fact I'm not clock watching once in the airport..thinking can't have a smoke for the next six hours. The freedom of that is priceless. Reward yourself...treat yourself...relish on what you spend the money on instead of wasting it..on cancer sticks.

That's a good move..shutting the noise down. I can't put my finger on it but I really do believe you've got it this time, your final time. So pleased for you and I really do look forward to checking your updates. Even though I don't know you really I'm enjoying seeing you embracing your forever quit...it's actually very exciting.

Given time, when cross with teenagers, you will not even be on automatic pilot to reach for a cig. If somebody had said that to me I'd have though..yeah right...couldn't believe it to be true. Wonderful that you recognised the trigger, but didn't act, and just trust why I say in time that there isn't even a trigger.

Brilliant...keep on doing what you're doing.

Exactly...I will take dicky bowels over that any day of the week.

Lol.. thank you. I'd rather not be having all this carry on, however, a small price to pay to be free. I will say though...I might well have solved the problem myself (fingers crossed) gone Low Fiber and already seeing improvements...so keep your fingers crossed. Hope your day is easier today Tiff.

Sadly mine it the complete opposite, my IBS-C doesn't help. Not that it would mean I would go back to smoking to get my bowels and mind again of course. Just that the other crap that was in cig smoke must have been keeping my body ticking over. I'd rather be not as sharp mentally than still hooked on smoking...any day of the week.

Lots to do? Then just organise it on paper...make a list of every single thing you have to do...cross off as you go along. I have had to do this for the last three years, stops my don't know where to start horrid feeling. I found doing that single task removes how stressy my poor mind gets. Helps me heaps...and still do it now, daily. Also my mind isn't as sharp, as it was, when I smoked...so it stops me forgetting things too. Great news that you're not going to smoke.

Well done to not following it through... Pain when it happens, I can remember, but even sweeter a few hours later when you didn't throw away your beautiful quit.

Ouch Tiff.. hope it's eased off, slightly, by the time you read this.

Glad that you're rocking it..that's good to hear. You sound comfortable in your own skin, weight wise, so that's great. You are right about the anti depressants. My doctor put me on them to help my IBS back in Spring, no help, took myself off them. I found I had an appetite for crap... although it made a change to actually have an appetite. I still struggle to eat breakfast, would avoid if I could, but realise it's not sensible. I've lost 12lbs in six weeks so I'm pleased with that. Eating well and enjoying my food, hope that you are enjoying yours.

Yes it looks good. Mine has changed from jet black to grey with blonde tones. Once the blonde tones grow out I'm going a lilac grey...

The loss of a friend feeling, kept me hooked as much as the addictive ingredients in the smoke. It must sound so silly, to non smokers, when we say it's as though we have lost a friend. A bit like having a dog I imagine, you don't get it until you've experienced the loss. I won't lecture you on how much a smoke isn't your friend, you know all this already. All I found was the more times, when I had sad days like you have today, I went through it the easier it got. Like with any loss really, no matter what the loss is, time does soften the feeling..till one day it's just not there. Any plans today, is it a work day?

It will pass Tiff... glad that you're ok.

Tiff I can see why you said what you said. Don't feel bad at anything you have said, was frustration no doubt, and quite understandable. I felt frustrated for you.

I like your hair Evelyn...suits you. Glad today's proving to be a better day...lots of even better days ahead too.

Hi Tiff Did you get screwed? Brakes wise of course...did your son enjoy playing ball? How's today going...having any light bulb moments from what you've recently read, Allan Carr wise?

Tiffany I do hope you call out, on here, if you have a day where it feels a struggle. Remember not everyone thinks you have to have the addict label, before you can have a successful quit..I'm living proof that theory is tosh. All you have to do is what you're doing, not smoking, so you're no longer a smoker anymore...twenty two days you've been doing that..rinse and repeat.

I hope you do check in Tiffany, daily, be lovely for you when you read it back. Plus you no doubt will have folk reading, not yet posting, rooting for you and they could well be feeling the same as you. Have a great day...will look forward to reading you tomorrow. Another day under your belt..all starting to add up nicely now.

Exactly... You will get there, one day at a time, like millions before us have done. I get you Tiff, I honestly do, because it was the exact mind set I had...and won.

You'd be crazy to even consider giving into the temptation, can you imagine having to start all over again? Hopefully you have just accepted this is one of those times, were the huge feels incredibly strong, and have just not given in to it..or yourself. Hope by the time you read this you've enjoyed dinner and are planning your evening activity, whatever that may be.

Congratulations, some fabulous make up out there to treat yourself to. Have you used Hourglass powder yet? If not, you must try it....amazing. Anytime you want to chat about make up treats just give me a shout.