What a beautiful post, @Irene.
Many of your sentiments, I share, many of us share.
One is compassion. With a cigarette dangling from my lips, I disdained junkies.
After accepting my own nicotine addiction, I now feel terribly sorry for anyone feeding their addiction.
I see people huddled outside, furiously puffing away. It's tragic to observe.
It used to be me !
I am not into group. At all. I am a quasi-recluse in real life.
I quit smoking and lurked here and there for 10 months,
joining, ostensibly, just to thank everybody,
stayed for the continued education and the camaraderie and the possibility of helping someone free themselves from Nicotine.
I hope you will feel comfortable here.
Your experience can help countless others and we are all delighted you are sharing your quit with us.
Watching the metamorphosis of new quitters is an elixir to everyone.
I am glad you found MLMR's, Introsucktion, the powerful and poignant document of her nicotine free journey.
This is what we must etch into our brain. There is no other way to put addiction to sleep. There can be no bargaining, ever !
You just have to drink the cool-aid on this one...from a bottomless cup of NOPE.
You know not to touch a red hot poker ? You just know it, that's all.
It will become the same with Not One Puff Ever and you will soon be able to draw power from this commitment.
Congratulations on your first 10 days of Freedom.
You Quit Smoking ! How marvleous !
Now, go have some fun.
S