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Thumbs up! One month is always a massive milestone, way to go.

What Nancy said - but I think I'd check in with a doctor regardless, just to be safe. Keep us posted please.

You should be, what a great thing you're doing! I hope lurkers are reading this and realize this could be them, too. Way to go.

I'm so glad I'm here for this. Has there ever been a nicer quitter? JIMMY!!!! woo0oo00oo!! :)

Who indeed? I see you're already well-versed in the manly art of self-deception, I'm sure it will serve you well in the years to come. :P Just kidding! Aren't you glad I won't be toasting at your wedding?? Congratulations to you both - out of all the "how we met online" stories, yours will be one of the greatest!

One month is a huge accomplishment. Your ticker looks great!

Yeah, this is one of those things I just don't get. What Nancy wrote above is right on - when we smoked, we were artifically amping up our adrenaline and dopamine, and generally screwing with our metabolism. Why would stopping those things give us more energy? Now, I certainly have more stamina than when I smoked, along with innumerable other benefits, but more energy? No. Actually it's the opposite, in a very good way - I have more peace and tranquility, I don't "need" constant artificial stimulants to wake me up and keep me going, and I sleep like a baby. Oh wait, there's that: you said you're "dragged down and tired" every day - that's different. At this point in your quit you probably aren't sleeping very well, whether you know it or not. Your body and brain are still making painful readjustments, and it can be hard on the system. That *will* get better, and pretty soon too. Meanwhile, my only suggestions are to make sure you're getting proper nutrition, hydration and sleep, try and keep stress to a minimum, and trust that you are doing an amazing thing for yourself. The sort of nervous, toxic "energy" smoking gave us is something only a junkie could love. You don't need it.

666. An auspicious occasion to kick some nicodemon ash!

Awesome. I knew it!

^^^So much this. Welcome back Michelle.

Glad to have you here Nita206 - how's it going?

I never knew her well, and I think she and I were quite different sorts. But I saw her as honest and integral, and tough as hell. I'm sorry she's gone, and I'll miss her.

Ok I'm back. I'd like to know where the bleep Tiffany ran off to again.

I remember this, absolutely normal. Water's good for you!

1 day, 1 week, 1 month, 1 year... these are the BIG ONES and deserve celebration and admiration. YAY!!!!!

1 MONTH IS HUUUUUUGGGEEE!!!/11 :) Seriously, big congratulations, that 1st month is a monster. I agree with what was said above about taking that one cigarette off the table, but I disagree a little about how that's done. I think it's quite healthy to admit it to yourself - you DO want just one cigarette - of course you do, you're a nicotine addict and you just quit a month ago and your brain is painfully rewiring itself and unlearning all those powerful dopamine triggers. But you can't have one, you can only have none or all. And when you remember that really, that's the only choice open to you, it's pretty easy to close that door again with a smile and a little sigh.

As someone coming up on 4 years quit, I find this both completely incomprehensible and 100% believable. I'm sorry to read it.

Even people who love us can do strange things under the spell of addiction - like this. I don't think it's a great mystery why you wanted to watch, nicotine is a powerful drug and quitting can be intense. In many ways the obsessive thoughts and fixations are harder to conquer than mere physical withdrawal. You did well to see through the temptation, and each time you win your resolve will get a little stronger, and the addiction will slowly wither. But you have to win every single time.

Is it useful to be upset with yourself? If so use it, by all means! But honestly, the time for that ended when you quit again & got your @$$ back in the train seat. Welcome back.

Speaking of hogs, I think we lost pork&pancakes. :(

Wow. What a great observation.

You think you're proud of yourself now... just wait until you look back, from the grateful freedom of a former smoker. Today was a good day. Welcome to the Train.

Everybody bunch up, make room for one more. Congratulations!

I've been there. Even back when I still smoked, I had upstairs neighbours who not only smoked out their window above mine, but ashed their cigarettes and even threw the burning butts, which occasionally got blown back into my suite for me to find on my windowsill. :angry: In that case I did video and report them, they moved not long after. Later when I first quit I was driven occasionally mad by the slight lingering (and to me delicious) waft of cigarette smoke, I didn't do anything about that and I don't notice it anymore. You may actually have some legal remedy if the smoke is actually "thick and suffocating" - here in Canada I recall a recent court case on almost exactly the same grounds, I can try and find a link for you if you like, I think it revolved around questions of health hazard and interfering with one's reasonable use and enjoyment of property. But that's only useful if you don't mind things getting ugly. I don't think any air purifier would manage to do more than one room, which might be enough for your bedroom I guess, but I've never used them. If it were me (the ideal me, not the real me), I'd first make nice to the new neighbours, make them a cake or have them over for cider or whatever, get off on a good foot, and also figure out who among them seems the most accomodating and reasonable. Then in a few weeks I'd arrange to bump into him/her and casually take them into my trust about my predicament that I totally know they're not aware of and is not their fault, and how I'm an ex-smoker struggling to preserve my quit and my health, and if there's anything they could try and do, even only sometimes, that wouldn't be such an inconvenience - like smoking outside or on the other side of their house away from our common wall etcetc...

You know, if you'd just put this in your tagline you'd save a lot of us wasting all this time being nice to you. Ah well, since I'm here anyway, congratulations and happy anniversary! Two years is amazing, in a way it meant more to me than any other. Way to go!