Colleen

Hot Rez's game or Colleen's game lol

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Posted 11 June 2013 - 06:45 PM Very similar to Hell week, just less intense. I've actually been off the patch since Saturday. While exercising, I took it off because it wouldn't stay on. I forgot about it until the next day and never put it back on. With the patch, there was really no irritability and I had trouble sleeping. Without the patch, I find myself snapping at innocent people and losing my patience quickly. I also have trouble staying awake past 9, which is odd for me - a night owl. Hopefully, the grouchiness and inability to stay awake go away with time. Now, I am waking up very early without the alarm, 4 a.m. or so full of energy! A month ago, if someone asked me if I would consider going bike riding at 5:30 a.m. I would have said never. It's almost euphoric how much energy I have. I'm really trying to take advantage of being smoke free by exercising daily and eating better. Just can't afford to gain weight - I am only 5'3", so 5 lbs. would seem like 10 to me. Ditched the ice coffee and diet Dr. Pepper for water with frozen fruit for flavor - and I never liked water. I am already starting to breathe better and it can only improve. Clearly, I still have a lot of moments (and hours) that just really suck, but am starting to see some positive benefits and feel great right now!

Yep, none of that fake stuff in a can or pretend singles cheese lol

Well, I can tell you the real Colleen wouldn't have Agent 99 as her title ;)

Everybody knows the real Colleen would post a pic of a cat dancing, not a chicken..Duh!

Oh my word! She went and cut my head off in my picture and something else is out of place...

That would be me, the original Colleen. The other one is just an impostor :P

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There is no sure way to know what it could be. A suggestion: Stay away from the likes of Web MD. They will diagnose you with everything under the sun. Healthy thoughts to both you and Julie :)

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I remember Doreen, was it your circulation causing your problem?

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This can't be a complete list, I am sure. There's a good chance you weren't aware of at least one of the diseases. I would have never connected blindness to smoking.

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Posted 08 June 2013 - 03:20 PM Whomever named hell week, had it right. In about 11 hours, I'll have clocked 6 days into my quit. I think what makes it so hard, is that it takes so long. Maybe this is just a huge long lesson in patience. Random whiffs of scents that blow me away, never this strong before. The smell of fresh cut grass and the rain is awesome, my garage on the other hand is so not awesome smelling. Mornings aren't too bad anymore, much more manageable. During the week, daytime is bearable as long as I stay busy. I still have intense cravings during those times, but not so much that I feel like I'm going nuts. The weekend is here and since it's really my first one smoke free I've no idea - unchartered territory, we shall see. Most of my difficulties lie at night, during the long stretch of downtime. The cravings are so intense. Most nights, I don't think I'll make it to sleep without a cigarette. I figured it would get easier each night, but no. Time seems to go by so slowly. I'm afraid I'm going to lose the battle one of these nights. I NEED to stop constantly thinking about cigarettes. I've got plenty of reasons to quit. I think my son at nearly 14, will soon be at the age I was when I started smoking. Oh, here's another craving. Then I think of my 87 year old grandmother, who quit smoking at 50 and was diagnosed with moderate COPD last year. Earlier this week, took the same grandmother who has begged me enough times to quit to her pulmonary doctor. The latest bout of pneumonia is almost out of her lungs. Tells me how much of an addict I really am. Oops, there's that annoying craving again. There's my mom who quit at 52 because the doctor couldn't remove the aortic aneurysm until she stopped. She made it look so easy and never gave it another thought. Damn these cravings...I can't stand the fact that I can't bike or swim for a long time without needing my inhaler. Apologies for the long ramble...Just thought I'd put it out there - maybe it'll make me accountable.

Congratulations Comrade!

Congratulations Paul! 9 months is fabulous!

You get dinner by candlelight. I insert 2 sleeping cats.

TPAM wears a skirt.