BonnieJ

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I smoked my last cigarette right before going to bed.There were 13 cigarettes still in my pack. I did not throw them away. I thought keeping them made it feel like I was choosing not to smoke. I know many people feel this is dangerous but for me it has worked. Here I am these 13 cigarettes have been sitting on my patio for 15 months. In the Arizona heat and monsoons they have been on the shelf getting stale and covered in dust.Every once in a while I pick them up and count them yep they are all still there.I know I am never going to smoke them but I just can't throw them away. We have started to remodel our patio. My husband and his smoking worker have been working out there all week. My husband told him I don't know why she still has these but they have been sitting here for more than a year. I am not messing with them so just leave them alone. Yesterday I went outside to start cleaning up the mess because they are almost done! I went to the shelf I picked up my 13 cigarettes and said I think its time to throw them away now. I knew it almost immediatley I could feel the difference before I even opened them.I looked inside and there they were 11 cigarettes!! He stole 2 of my 15 month old cigarettes. He knew how old they were.He knew they had been sitting out in the extreme weather the whole time,and he still wanted them. My throat hurts just thinking about it. I threw away my 11 cigarettes yesterday. It was a little bittersweet I really wanted to be throwing away 13. I am so happy to be free!

I'm pretty sure I gave the best cat in the world cancer. I had to put him down at 13 years old because an oral cancer was eating away at his face. I have read 2nd hand smoke can cause this cancer. I will never forgive myself there will never be another cat like him. We smoked indoors for the first 5 years of his life and I am sure that 5 years was enough :( We have lived in our house for almost 15 years now and have never smoked inside so I will never have to feel this guilt for another animal.

Yep made me teary too :) So awesome!!!

Here! :ph34r:

Drinking always made it tough for me in the first year. You can do it! You will do it :)

I started getting pedicures more often and I spent way too much money on a new comforter for my bed. I always have money in my wallet now, I can't remember the last time I used a credit card except for shopping on-line :)

So sorry about your son Jackie. I am so glad you got through it without even wanting to smoke. It makes me sad to remember when my son broke his wrist and I would sneak outside to smoke whenever I got a chance.I am so glad those days are behind us. Prayers to your son for a speedy recovery.

I am happy that home improvements to the backyard that have been desperately needed are finally getting done! :party:

My quit buddy is still around, but I would love to have more :)

Living here in Phoenix I would love to have your rain!

I wish there were more new people to congratulate! Keep up the good work Sarah!

Unfortunately you have to get through the bad to get to the good. Everything worth having is worth working for. Just keep doing the work it will get easier in time.

I had to go to a party at my parents house, not a single smoker in the bunch. In the past I would have spent all my time finding a place to hide and smoke and then trying to cover up the smell before I could come back. This time I just sat happily with my Mike's hard lemonade and enjoyed the food and conversation :)

I'm a little late.Better late than never right? Congratulations Tracey :)

Way to go REZ!!

Congratulations Jenny!

Way to go Julie!

I just came from my daughters 8th grade promotion ceremony( akkk my daughter is a high schooler now) I had to get up and move to a new seat twice because people sat next to me smelling like smoke. I hate knowing I smelled that way.

I'm just not strong enough to quit smoking. I have too much stress. Lock me up away from cigarettes that is the only way it will happen. That is what I always said. How I wish someone would have told me to learn about the addiction. Would I have believed them? No. Not for one second would I have believed that education was the key for me to quit. Why does it surprise me so much when others do not believe me when I tell them that more than any NRT out there education is what they need if they want to quit for good. I now know how all the people who tried to tell me I could do it must have felt. They must have wanted to shake me into next week while screaming wake the heck up! I have been watching people make all the excuses I used to make and it is making me crazy. I feel like such a know it all rolling my eyes at the excuses while fighting back the tears as I watch them hurt themselves. Having knowledge and understanding did not make quitting easy,but it did make it easier! I want to save the world from cigarettes now. I have to bite down on my tongue hard to keep from being that obnoxious ex-smoker we all used to hate. My tongue is bleeding how do I stop myself from becoming that know it all jerk?

I have recorded the first half and I'll watch it when I have the second half recorded. I have no patience to wait 4 day for the conclusion of a suspenseful story.

Really funny!