IndigoChilde

Congrats Morgan!

You are not going to relapse. You've come too far to fall back to smoking now. Just take deep breaths, drink your water, and curl up with your Stitch. You'll do fine.

I just feel like I'm on the edge of relapse today. I keep telling myself NOPE. But it's like I want to smoke. It hasn't been this bad in a while. I don't know if it's coming off the bupropion or what. Today I just feel like crap. My run didn't go well. I mean, I still kinda made it, but it didn't go as I'd like. I didn't enjoy it at all. My dad tried to encourage me but I just couldn't get my spirits up. I can't figure anything I want to do except sleep and smoke, so I've mostly been sleeping. It's like day 1 all over again. I'm not going to smoke. I can't let myself go now. But damn do I feel like I'm heading there.

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My lungs feel good. I don't get really out of breath or anything while running.

NOPE!

Thank you everyone!

I have asthma (since I was a kid, not from smoking) and I haven't needed my inhalers as much. Just a little salt goes a LONG way. I can smell everything blossoming on my walk. And I can smell the smoke on mom now. Freshly brewed coffee in the morning, or going to Starbucks, is a real treat. I love the smell of my caramel mocha at Starbucks. The dill sauce at LaBou was fantastic. (Years ago my husband and I would share a baguette sliced with dill sauce, and I got to try it again recently.) I can run without getting too winded. My dad and I are actually planning on doing a 5K together. Well, I bought some running shoes already because my old shoes were giving me a blister. I think I'm going to go to a friend's house and curl up and watch Man of Steel with him. We're going to go see Batman vs Superman when it comes out so apparently I need to see Man of Steel first. AND I won't be getting up during the movie to have a smoke. Yay!

NOPE!

Bupropion is Wellbutrin/Zyban

A friend of mine actually quit on ecigs and then quit the ecigs. I don't know how he did it, but apparently it can be done. I was put on bupropion, but my psychiatrist is taking me off of it for side effects.

NOPE!

-10

Dad got me into doing week 2 anyway, and I finished day one with few problems.

NOPE

-13

Heck, I sneeze in the sunlight sometimes. I think you can be allergic to anything.

I finished my first week of C25K and I think I want to run it over again 'cause I couldn't always make the 60 seconds. Dad's taking me to get running shoes because the shoes I had gave me a blister on the top of the knuckle of my big toe. But once I get week one down, I'm looking forward to week 2. 90 sec of running, 2 min of walking.

-11

NOPE

-3

So, my dad got me to start running. We're using this Couch to 5K program. It's three times a week. I finished the first week, but I think I'm going to do it all over again. I don't feel like I'm ready to move onto week 2. Dad said once I quit smoking he would get me into running. I guess he was right. And I have a Fitbit now and this weekend we're getting myself some running shoes. I think he tricked me into all of this. (j/k) I'm finding how hard it is to run for 60 seconds with just a 90 second walk in between. Week 2 is 90 seconds with two minutes in between. Since I'm having trouble running for 60 seconds, I'm going to do week 1 over again. Though my last day of week 1 was pretty good. I only stopped running early once. The reason we're going out for running shoes is my current ones are rubbing up against the knuckle of my big toe and leaving a blister. It's better when I put a bandaid over it, but still not great. Halfway through week 4! Woohoo!

I think my son was 5 when he first asked me to quit smoking. He's 11 now. I quit shortly before his birthday, and after a week I finally told him I quit. I can't believe it took me so long to do this. Hang in there.

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