Greenowl

Today I am happy to say I am a quitter. I started smoking cigarettes because of stress and to have a social life. It seemed like all my friends would step out to have a cigarette and I would be left inside by myself feeling like I was missing out. I wanted to see if they were really as addictive as others said they were. (I know that was stupid) I started smoking Winter of 2013. Here is where my story gets interesting. I stuck with Organic tobacco. I would roll my own or stick with Native Spirits. I gave birth to a very surprise baby in the Spring. Thank God she is healthy. (I was told I could never have kids and pregnancy tests are not always accurate) I wanted to give it up right away. The stress of being a first time unexpected Mom was a lot. I was doing 9 months of work within a couple of days. Several months later and I have had enough. I do not want to look my child in the eyes when she is ten and tell her Mommy has cancer. I do not want to have to step outside from sports events just to have a quick cigarette. I realized last week these cigarettes are owning me. How am I in control of my stress if I smoke to relax? My teeth started having some problems this year. I was reading in a free e-book about smoking that it causes your body to lose massive amounts of vitamin C every day! What the hell was I doing? I may pay with some mouth issues but I do not want to pay with mouth cancer or lung cancer! I do not want my child to have to bury me over ciggs! To quit I am drinking lots of peppermint/ginger tea with lots of water. I have two cigarettes left over from my pack that are just sitting out in the open. Almost like I dare you......I have not touched them today. This is only day one and I have a headache and my stomach has felt a little irritated. I feel like I could sleep the entire day through. I have tried to quit before but as I said I failed. Why is this time different? Well its almost a new year and I am sick of my own crap. I really feel like this forum will help push me through the difficult moments. I also cannot wait to help others as my journey progresses!