Welcome to the site, @prichy
I'm sorry to hear about your relapse. 10 years quit was a great accomplishment. Yes, Coronavirus has impacted so many people in such different ways but smoking will not make anything better.
You successfully stopped smoking for 10 years but now is the time to quit for good. You can't fix what happened in the past so don't dwell on it.
Just focus on quitting for good. You must have seen some sort of positive in order to go back to lighting up. Please believe that there is nothing positive to be gained from smoking.
Please visit the link below that gives you tips as to how to use this site and read up on some quitting resources.
I'm sorry for your relapse but you can still quit for good. Stick around this site. There is a lot of knowledge and support here.