Warrioringthrough

I feel really empowered, some moments I can't imagine I ever smoked other weaker moments, my body has the natural inclination to just want to go for a smoke cause it's so use to that motion, obviously it's gonna take work and commitment which I'm giving my 100 percent....

Hey it's day 6!! :) I feel more relaxed each day! Last night I went through a major crave, I made a soup and slowly sipped the broth to get over it. I was watching a hunter s Thompson documentary and he smokes like a chimney and makes it seem so a part of the artist imagine, it was trying to seduce me but I didn't give in!!

Made it through day 5, feeling strong... Had a few craves after I ate and after work I use to rush out to have my fix of 2 cigarettes, still in that crave but it's wearing off I'm breathing through it... A friend of mine who never smoked started smoking and asked if we can have one together and I was strong and said this is no way to bond ... Was tough but anything worth it is always tough.... I can't believe 5 days went by.... Can't wait til it's months and I don't crave so much ... I want to start working out but talking it easy to start...

Makes sense El, I hear ya Bumble and Run! Thanks Doreen !! I'm back to work for the first time as a non smoker today!! Wow, the doctor I work with been asking me to quit for 10 years, she's gonna be shocked! I use to tell her I'm gonna die a smoker, I use to glorify it like a 1940s movie... Fred Astaire dancing with a cigarette in his mouth... Smoking is so glorified in movies, I use to feel part of a cool club... How foolish!!!

It's day 5!! I get what you guys are saying totally right! Commit !!! I just didn't want to overwhelm myself so I chose softer words but my intent was strong. I woke up today and for the first time I didn't want a cigarette, I use to always smoke before my eyes were even open, the thought actually made me think how gross it would taste, and heavy my chest would feel. How nasty it is to wake up and need a cigarette first thing!! It feels relaxing today. My tongue never looked so pink!!! I smell so good, this feels so amazing!! I love this rebirth, it will enhance so much of my life and attract a whole world of new positive energy ...I already can notice my taste buds are a bit enhanced, it's amazing how I thought cigarettes were such a part of me at one point I was willing to just die with them...I watched my friend chain smoke in front of me and didn't feel envy, I felt proud of myself, although of course I had a craving but just sat with it and let it pass. If you really look at it when someone is holding a cigarette they look so unnatural this smoking stick that does nothing for us, we think it's calming us or a treat and it's so not its awful!! I feel like such a fool, But better late then never... For the first time something shifted in my head where I'm not seeing them as my beloved friend anymore, they were never my friend just in all the tough times in my life it was alway my cigarettes and me, I'm so glad my head shed old ideas, and to make everyone laugh my profession is in wellness haha now I can honor it finally, instead of sneak around with cigarettes and hope no one finds out!

I'm committed it's just feels a little over whelming at moments... I appreciate direct! And thank you for even bothering to take the time to respond and give encouragement ..,

But I am craving so bad... I hope I can get through, I don't want to ruin 4 days !!!

Just gonna breath, and take it moment to moment .... Did everyone gain a ton of weight when they quit like they say? I bet the skin looks so vibrant, my limbs were getting such poor circulation lately, I can't wait til a few months have gone by to see how i feel, I just can't stress enough like most of you, how weird it is to think of that I can't remember a time I didn't have a cigarette, since 12, I have no idea what good feels like almost haha, I wonder if my lungs or other things didn't fully develop cause I smoked and infringed on the growing process... I'm so curious to meet my body as a non smoker...

Thanks so much Ria,bumble, Madyland and gypsy!! I appreciate your stories so much, I'm having another horrible craving now ughhh, I'm writing so it's a rebirth to write without a cigarette in hand, smoke in my face, ash accumulating until it feel on my paper, so gross, I keep telling myself that's not me or as much a part of me as i celebrated it as, I am shedding the old image I created around smoking and letting my inner bird fly out from under this lease on my neck, but it ain't easy ... I can't believe how bad I want one... It has me so by the balls... It really makes me sad...

Thank you El, Sunny, Doree and Run!! Such a huge help, I can never convey how appreciative I am for you guys taking the time, I relate best to others personal experiences more so then text book stuff, so hearing how personally you gained more life from not smoking excites me for the same!! I almost made it through day 4, I stay up late so a little ways to go, I always smoked the most at night while I write poetry, chain smoking, I was reading the Alan Carr book earlier, so true what he says about feeling like there's something enjoyable about smoking.

Wow! Doreen you are a warrior! And a guiding light! I like what you said about smoking not being on the table !! Thank you for sharing with me and taking the time to encourage my progress, it's scary but exciting to picture a smoke free life...I'm nervous for tonight but I want to stay committed, my best friend smokes so much trying to get her on the quit with me but she's not ready... So to face her and not smoke together is gonna be tough, but my aunt is now learning how to breath again after being on a ventilator so who am I to complain about learning how to be a nonsmoker in the world...

I also still have my last cup with water and cigarette butts in it on the porch, I smell it when I want one to gross me out!! Please guys tell me how good your bodies feel after you quit, I need to hear the personal positive health gain experiences to keep me motivated I'm seeing a friend who chain smokes later and I want to be strong !!

I've suffered more for less, I am staying committed...I calculated I smoked almost 200,000 cigarettes in my life and spent close to 80,000 bucks in the years ! I think I had enough, I did go through this thing like sunny side said where I thought I didn't say the proper goodbye, then I laughed and thought about my father passing away and all the losses I had with out a proper goodbye and I warriored through!!! This isn't even a loss it's a major gain... I must admit it's hard being around my smoker friends they say do it little by little just have one to get by don't do it all at once, but I know there is no other way!!!

I made it through didn't smoke on day 4!!!! I can't believe it ! Thank you all so much for helping me get through! What a spectacular community of people! It's very helpful to be around others who can relate!

Awww thanks !! My will is good! I'm still in the crave bad tho..ughhhhh!!

Thank you so much!

I noticed already how much time a day, I waste sitting around smoking, so much more free time, and when I'm going out I don't have to map out smoking in the itinerary, to always be distracted with the fact your gonna need a smoke at some point, ughhh...

I want to cry it out in a way but the tears won't come out ... I'm gonna have a tea but when I smoke after every food or drink I would smoke so eating and drinking make it harder, I want to just sleep the week away ... But I have to stay active... Is any of this normal or am I a total nut!?!

I started smoking at 13, I'm 35 my body barely knew life without a cigarette in my hand what a jerk I have been to my body it never knew fresh air ... And yet still want one ... What a fool!

And with all this we still want one

I'm Lila I'm from parsippany nj, thanks for the support! It's so hard this quit! I went to a vintage car show everyone was smoking all the old timers next to their hot rods I was dying!! Smoking creates bonds that seem fun but it's a false bond over a mere addiction ugh!! It's such a bad crave, really! I'm shocked I made it this far... It was gross I would sneeze and a brown mucus ball flies out of my throat it was a nasty sign to quit, plus my aunt is in the hospital with emphysema on a ventilator, she smoked while on oxygen and lit herself on fire, this addiction is hardcore ...

I can't believe how these gross smoke sticks have been puppeteering me and my time around for 23 years... And I still want one... It feels like a break up, haha I'm going mildly wacko from quitting, but I hope I'll be okay and don't break and justify it with the just one excuse !!! Ughhh !! No!!

I'm 3 days in, I can't sleep, I want one so bad, but I don't!!! I just wanted to express it in hopes expressing it will help kill its power!! I'm new here, congratulations to everyone for talking the hard steps on this journey, it is not easy!