Kendra

Glad you are still here and free. You are an inspiration & reminder..... nope , nope, nope

Hi Dave Welcome to the board. Hoping you are busy in your new free from smoking life. Congratulations on choosing to ditch cigarettes. Do your daughters smoke? Seems like many folks on the board have people in close proximity who are still smokers.... myself included. I needed to stay away from smokers for awhile and still choose to go elsewhere if I am feeling iffy and weaker than I'd like. Please keep close to the board and let us know how it is going. again, welcome...looking forward to the journey with you on the train.

xylophone music played live at the old cooper house (before Loma Prieta earthquake) in downtown Santa Cruz in the early 1980's.... folks literally dancing in the streets.

natural unpainted scented or unscented soaps?

false.....but to be fair...I haven't played. TPBM will volunteer their time and efforts before the end of the year.

because it doesn't want to be eaten. Why can't we all just get along?

Hope you celebrated with those near and dear to your heart. Happy Belated Birthday. Any big or small adventures planned for your next orbit of the sun?

Haven't been window licking. still feels like a yet. STILL FREE TODAY. no pack purchased.....or planned.....or prepared for embarrassment = lack of humility, TEW? ...how do I cultivate humility? was going to just post my NOPE. risked reading what folks had to say. at least a groan of ??? at Bakon and Bumble B ..... 'course I'm in a laugh or cry place, so laugh...hysterically if need be....is the way of the day. Sometimes receiving support is incredibly uncomfortable and difficult, even painful in a manner, for me. I think due to the values of independence and ability to do things yourself and not air your dirty laundry that were instilled in me culturally along the way..... many of those a messed me up as I try to find my way. Marti - every moment of every day is a journey & from where I sit no destination in mind.... I trust change & that is about it. uncomfortable with change, so that can be an adventure of hellish proportions on occasion. thanks for the 3 speak. 3 months and a day and then some FREE. looks like BEing happens even when feeling like crap. love and light....holding us all.

Well lived. Congratulations..... on many things.

nope.

enjoy the camping Frez. I get my last share of the season from CSA farm this weekend.

first I limp to the side like my leg was broken shakin and twitchin kinda like I was smokin

too embarrassed by posting and how/who I am to stick around ..... took the challenge and can't face the results/consequences. it is such an adventure in my head. & other parts of the whole.

It seems that I am just waiting to light up. That I have surrendered to the nastiness, slavery and self chosen and delivered hell of smoking. have been in and am in a continued "rock and hard spot" place in my head, life, journey. looking for ways to outwardly be as ugly as I am on the inside. crying....don't want it to be true and yet that is what beliefs are currently. feel as if my strong is all used up. that I never figured out how to BE .. that I chose and choose to harm..... me....slow death via smoking. the things that are incredible (nature, relationships, LIFE) are barely reaching me. I want to give up. smoking will be a huge step toward matching uglies (inside/outside) - judgement noted. was recently challenged - thanks MQ, to quit revisiting posting here. Challenge accepted. posted. lurking - though not laughing as much.....not even at Bakon's posts. .....poor me, poor me, pour me another..... seems self pitying---though the pain is real and the loathing real frommy skewed perspectives. have not bought a pack. still. somewhere inside I must believe differently. maybe. may BE

Autumn leaves and light passing through trees..... AWE at the red carpet the maple made; the bronzes, burgundy and rusts of the oaks, the cheery yellow and creamy yellows of the birch..... homemade kombucha going well, too.

glad you're filled with love and laughter today. people to nourish your heart and soul..... hurray! Celebrate life! and freedom from addiction.....

to what end will beating yourself up and lamenting what is ....do for you? YOU stopped....as Runfree pointed out, that is the most important part of your story. No matter the struggles..... you STOPPED. What did you learn? I ask myself that often, as I find myself in the thick of the results of my choices and actions. stay quit, in hope and possibility, here on the train. nope....

could I at least get some on-hold music? ha ha

so glad you are seeing the life you desire living unfold and that you remain free. What'll you do for the week?

Tried to cuat and paste link to jeol's video..... not tech savvy or even remotely efficient...meh. any way.... you can find the video in the joel video library. 'll Quit When... Why NOW is the best time to quit smoking no matter when NOW is. Related articles: "I will quit when ..." http://ffn.yuku.com/topic/107 Waiting to Bottom Out http://www.ffn.yuku.com/topic/11553 Evelyn, Stay in your seat on the train my friend.

You've got this. NOPE! watch Joel video's and reread threads that remind you why you're doing this!!! NICOMONSTER is awake and breathing down your neck...... arm yourself!!!

nope

Dear Evelyn, i am not disappointed. I am glad you are here. You could've chosen to keep to smoking. Instead you put them down, posted here, and shared your struggle. I am sad for you to have lost your time and glad for you that you are here and gaining more time with every moment. Lonliness..... so sorry you are alone and going through medical concerns. sometimes even when I am with people.....even people I know care for me.....I feel very seperate/lonely..... over whelmed by it at times. lonliness can bring me to me knees...or bed...for days. my cats are about the only thing that reach me, my head, heart and spark of life, in that space. What would truly allow you to feel less lonely? or more connected to people? i am grateful for your support here. Your sharing of your journey. your kind and kick butt words. YOU. I do not pretend to know how it feels for you....though since you turned to cigarette ...., I imagine it was a pretty low feeling space. and I don't pretend to know you, and I, at least a little, have shared your journey so far.... breathe. forgive yourself. post,post,post. breathe some more. You are on the train.

Hi, Nice ta meetcha Tyme. In 30 something years of tobacco slavery I quit 3 times. I am leaving it at that. 3rd times a charm for me. Glad you are sticking on 4. I'm with Ria.....different paths for each of us -yet some similarities for all. nope, in practice if not in pledge. we've got this. I am coming up on three months....longest i have been free from nicotine in a decade. I walk uphill easily now. my nose knows things it hasn't recalled in decades. my hair, clothes, car, breathe and body don't reek of smoke or stale smoke today. I do not plan my time around having cigarettes..... I do not spend one minute wondering how smoking will impact the people around me or influence people's opinion of how I conduct myself in business or volunteer work. thank you, thank you, thank you quit train riders and conductors. Glad you're here Tyme.

I sang on Doowhutchalike, and if ya missed it I'm the one who said just grab 'em in the biscuits