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hmmm, I can do it, too. except currently I can't get into a plank pose :( ... modify is okay. thanks for bearing with thought process. I am in.

I am so excited for you three! may I suggest you please enjoy a few more hot meals with Tasha before the healthy happy arrival of your newest family member.... you may not have that quiet conversation over hot food again in the foreseeable future. ha ha

N O P E THANK YOU, thank you, thank you.

:huh: :huh:Hey TEW, ever so grateful you felt more even keeled. .... I am not at all discouraged by your cravings. more like inspired that you'd share the depths of the freak outs. I enjoy, appreciate and consider your perspectives. not sure how long you were enslaved to nicotine and damn near a year likely both a HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENT OF FREEDOM AND CHOICE & a brief respite from past patterns, no? .... thus, in my head, resistance, freak outs, and juxstapositioning of the brain is normal (whatever normal looks like :huh:) ad not be taken as what I really want... just temporary (thanks for the reminder Babs) blips of discomfort to learn from and experience.

Way to go Evelyn. You are crusin on the train. Glad you are feeling proud since it is important to you. I formally acknowledge your awesomeness and cherished quit time. Keep on rockin.

Hi TEW, Celebrate your uniqueness. The push me- pull you in the brain .... I am all ways always amazed at the dichotomy in my own thinking... seems you have similar experiences. I do not pretend to know how you feel.... and I would like to support you in ways that genuinely embrace the wholeness of your experience. What would feel supportive? Your words and journey are of comfort to me on mine. You got this. !!! REALLY...... YOU GOT THIS. hold onto the dream of what you want your LIFE to look like and KEEP LIVING IT FULLY. thanks for posting. please keep doing it.

Nice that you are seeing what it will take to create the free life you are after. Echoing Joe.... why on earth are you keeping a pack around? That is a set up for slavery to nicotine again. You have done it..... quit an addiction that has ruled your life for decades. That is an accomplishment and how you want to be in the world. Treating those we love poorly, meh. Forgiveness.... what a beautiful thing. Being able to drink without a craving? Well, my suggestion would be..... PLAN WHAT YOU WILL DO over the upcoming holiday season of yuletide joy, drinking and partying BEFORE you go. you have seen and shared by your own word.... with each drink your resolve became more of a challenge .... Please don't let alcohol take your quit. Eventually, you will be able to drink without wanting to smoke. Great job at keeping quit. Nice that your other half has quit too.

evelyn, you are incredible. So deeply glad that you tossed that wet pack and remain here & FREE. I am in awe of your posting as you walked through it and have resettled in your non-slave to nicotine life. I believe in you.

Hi and congratulations on your choice to be free from smoking slavery. Well done. Go ahead and re-catagorize yourself as a nonsmoker in your head. YOU ARE FREE FROM SMOKING. NOPE (not one puff ever),just for today. Glad you are: finding your way through the nicoterrorist thoughts in the working wee hours. noticing the physical benefits in your fitness test here and posting I too once believed that I was just going to smoke until the end of my life. Glad to see and say we both seem to have realigned our beliefs with how we actually want to LIVE in this world. Welcome.

awww, Congrats Bakon on the new puppy. Good news, my mom is visiting for a spell and we (mom's inspiration and my watching) are creating window treatments for my house. Lived here 7 months and have lived with the dingy, dated, uncreative (imo) curtains of the previous residents. It'll be so wonderful to have pretty things to look at and think of mom after she goes to the desert for the winter. ....she's kicking my butt at cribbage though....

They are afraid of falling. sheesh. Why are sunrises so incredibly beautiful?

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Way to be free RunFree! thanks for all your contributions to this board and congratulations on your smoke free life.

so glad you and Alexa have a safe place to BE together. bizarreness abounds....glad you are seeking support and that people are considering changes of their own that may improve relationships in the future. thanks for posting.

Glad you are still here and free. You are an inspiration & reminder..... nope , nope, nope

Hi Dave Welcome to the board. Hoping you are busy in your new free from smoking life. Congratulations on choosing to ditch cigarettes. Do your daughters smoke? Seems like many folks on the board have people in close proximity who are still smokers.... myself included. I needed to stay away from smokers for awhile and still choose to go elsewhere if I am feeling iffy and weaker than I'd like. Please keep close to the board and let us know how it is going. again, welcome...looking forward to the journey with you on the train.

xylophone music played live at the old cooper house (before Loma Prieta earthquake) in downtown Santa Cruz in the early 1980's.... folks literally dancing in the streets.

natural unpainted scented or unscented soaps?

false.....but to be fair...I haven't played. TPBM will volunteer their time and efforts before the end of the year.

because it doesn't want to be eaten. Why can't we all just get along?

Hope you celebrated with those near and dear to your heart. Happy Belated Birthday. Any big or small adventures planned for your next orbit of the sun?

Haven't been window licking. still feels like a yet. STILL FREE TODAY. no pack purchased.....or planned.....or prepared for embarrassment = lack of humility, TEW? ...how do I cultivate humility? was going to just post my NOPE. risked reading what folks had to say. at least a groan of ??? at Bakon and Bumble B ..... 'course I'm in a laugh or cry place, so laugh...hysterically if need be....is the way of the day. Sometimes receiving support is incredibly uncomfortable and difficult, even painful in a manner, for me. I think due to the values of independence and ability to do things yourself and not air your dirty laundry that were instilled in me culturally along the way..... many of those a messed me up as I try to find my way. Marti - every moment of every day is a journey & from where I sit no destination in mind.... I trust change & that is about it. uncomfortable with change, so that can be an adventure of hellish proportions on occasion. thanks for the 3 speak. 3 months and a day and then some FREE. looks like BEing happens even when feeling like crap. love and light....holding us all.

Well lived. Congratulations..... on many things.

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enjoy the camping Frez. I get my last share of the season from CSA farm this weekend.