Nope, this is not an SOS. Just some crazy thoughts going on. Revelation: Being pissed off, frustrated and tired is no reason to smoke. It never helped when I was a smoker and it for sure would not help now. I did have to stop a few minutes, think things through and come to this board to read though. That is what helped. Most of you probably don't know that my husband and I are raising our 3 yr old grandson. He’s the absolute apple of my eye! It’s certainly nothing we planned to do at this time of our lives, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. Of course, most of the day to day work involved in raising a child falls upon me, while papa gets to bask in the glory of playing ball etc. I love that he does this. But I’d also like some help with the yard work and outdoors work. I can’t possibly do it all. Of course, when he needs to be reminded to help me out, I’m nagging. Well I was called out on the “nagging” today and it pi**ed me off! I mean it really got to me. I said to myself, screw this, I’m just going to smoke. WTH? Where did that come from? I don’t want to smoke, and will NEVER smoke. It’s just scared me that this even came out of my mouth! (No one heard it but me). I’m rambling, but it helped. And going to the curse thread was a good way to vent :lol: