This is crazy!! For the past week or so I have tried and tried to find an excuse to smoke. Any excuse would have worked. But guess what? There is NO excuse or valid reason to ever smoke again! I imagined so many scenarios! From petty things like: Would I smoke if the hubby and I had a huge disagreement? What if my mother-in-law pi**ed me off? If my day at work got stressful?
Then there were the huge “I’d smoke if that happened to me” moments: I’d have to have a cigarette if a loved one became ill – or if I became ill. Or a cigarette would be the only thing that would get me through a death in the family. What if the sky falls?? NOPE NOPE NOPE None of these are valid reasons to smoke because there is no reason to smoke! My non-smoking brain tells me this- but still the junkie thinking will come around and try to steer me off coarse. I don’t care if my ass falls off; I won’t smoke! Thankfully, since quitting, I’m not near as impulsive as I once was and was able to halt the junkie thinking. Coming here to read and take the pledge daily is huge. I also took another long look at my reasons for quitting and also all the benefits I’ve experienced since quitting. Don’t know what to think of this past weeks’ craziness. No man’s land? Romancing the cigarette? Whatever it is – It can f* off!! I’m a non-smoker and intend to remain one :mellow: