Hi Evelyn
Lots of good advice above. Most quitters struggle for all sorts of reasons. However there are some things that seem to be common to all quits.
1. After all of the thought and internal debate - it is a conscious action to smoke. Therefore - the QUITTER makes the decision. I know that your life is complicated and that you have suffered. However - you are a survivor - you have made it through. The power to quit is YOURS and YOURS alone. I know that you know this. But just think about it for a second. This quit is something completely in YOUR hands, something personal and private to you. That is empowering I think. I agree with your statement "The Power lies in me"
2. Most successful quits are statistically not the first quit. There are some people that quit first time - which is brilliant. But, I believe that most try several times. I know that I quit for 9 months in the late nineties. I relapsed - and here we are in 2014. I let the relapse cost me 15 years. You let it cost you a couple of days. I know you are the smart one.
3. The longer a quit goes on, the easier it gets. It gets easier.
Each of us is different. Some folk like to be absorbed in other things and ignore the cravings. Some people laugh and say there are no cravings, some people like to 'fight' with their cravings. Shout and scream at them.
Which answer is right for you - I don't know.
Everyone here wants to support you the best way that they know, Evelyn.
You can do this. :D