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I smoked yesterday. I had a big argument with my 21 year old son, the sad thing is I over reacted and felt so bad but he said some things that were hurtful and I just lost myself. I know you say to come on here for help but to be honest once having a ciggies was in my head I couldn't get it out. so last night I sat and watched u tube videos of people dying of lung cancer and emphysema. I know a bit extreme but some of the stuff I watched was heart breaking for their family's and all for a fag how selfish.

I smoked yesterday. I had a big argument with my 21 year old son, the sad thing is I over reacted and felt so bad but he said some things that were hurtful and I just lost myself. I know you say to come on here for help but to be honest once having a ciggies was in my head I couldn't get it out. so last night I sat and watched u tube videos of people dying of lung cancer and emphysema. I know a bit extreme but some of the stuff I watched was heart breaking for their family's and all for a fag how selfish.

Hi Marti my quit was early hours of Saturday morning. start my first yoga class tomorrow yayyyy now to start spring cleaning :-) Thanks guys yr all stars :-)

Thanks guys feeling much more positive today I'm gonna keep my self busy and enjoy the bank holiday weekend nicotine free :-)

Honestly I don't really know, I don't want to smoke it has controlled me for so long but I don't like feeling as though I can't do nothing and my motivation is at zero. I have no nicotine in my body so it's no longer physical withdrawal it's mental lol I'm going mad.

I am suppose to go to an Alan Carr back up session tomorrow as they say I should not feel the way I am feeling and should walk out of the clinic at most with a slight feeling of there is something missing but happy. I must add yr always told to carry on smoking I am not. But just found out my husband is working so I can't go anyway, I'm not sure they can tell me anymore thanI already know but I can't carry on feeling like this. I didn't actually feel this bad before last weekend I was in a much better mind set.

I have had really restless legs, and I'm so tired and lost motivation to do anything x

Do some reading not ready haha sorry using my phone.

Hey guys well I'm seriously hungover and drunk far to much and smoked far to much which obviously I am not feeling great about, but I feel so blessed to have read your messages I'm pleased I did or i may of just thrown in the towel. I'm so happy jon told me about this site and I think I will not be drinking alcohol for a long time. so I will just have to kill that little monster inside of me again and do some ready. Loads of Hugs to all of you for supporting me. :-)

So this is the first bit of Internet net I got and I have got I have fked it i have got drunk I was so uncomfortable and got drunk had 2 fags I'm i bar reseed I Prob won't come on here when I wake up. But I feel so guilty to johnny 05 more than anyone I'm sorry I'm a dick and to the the person that gave me their number I have let u down but u can't get reception no excuse :-(

Well done soozie you are a lot braver than me i would of ran out the house. I'm going to oz in december and i can't stop worrying about the spiders lol massive well done on not having a ciggy xx

Thanks jon for always being there. I'm very determined to make this work this time. i feel i have prepared myself so much this time around and feel quite relaxed today. i have lots to look forward to, i am going back to college next week to do a councelling course which i am very excited about and also starting yoga and meditation. i am going to be 40 this year and i hear life starts at 40 i am going to make this happen for me weather it's a myth or not.

Ok so I have made a conscious decision that I am not going to drink tonight, I am working untill 7 so I'm unable to get out untill 8 and as tomorrow is my only day off I don't really want a hangover. so my excuse is going to be my beautiful daughter I am going to take her with me. I know I shouldn't make excuses but to be honest I am not ready to go out partying yet but at least I am still going to go :-)

Thanks guys for your support, tomorrow is a night i can not avoid our best friends are emigrating to oz from the UK so it's very important, I do feel I should of waited untill it was out the way but a bit late now. I keep telling my self smoking is the one thing there is no pay back on, at least if I have a couple of glasses of wine I get something bk a little tipsy haha with nicotine you get nothing and as I don't ever really drink a couple will be Ok I will just have to take it easy.

Hey guys - just an update to let you all know I'm doing Ok. I have found today the hardest so far but I think I am panicking about going out tomorrow evening which involves alcohol :-/ anyway I am still working this site out as I'm on my phone it takes a little longer lol

I'm on day 2 and I don't feel hungry or the need to pick at sweets but I am so tired I'm struggling to get through the day.

Hi guys - I have just quit like an hour or so ago my good friend jon 05 gave me the details of this site in which I am very great fun, I look forward to starting the quit train :-)