Laura chances are unlimited hun, addiction is bad and to beat it takes education, support, mind set and time
The one ingredient I see you don't have is your mind set, you know you want to quit and that's why you are here and I respect you for coming back x
Someone once said to me you quit you did not give up anything
What I read from you Laura is you have the will and want to quit but in the back of your mind you are still thinking you are giving up something, like an old friend instead try to switch your mind and keep telling it that you have not given up anything, you just don't do that anymore.
For example suppose you are on a strict diet and you are not allowed chocolate, but you love chocolate so what do you see everywhere, that's right bloody chocolate, people stuffing their faces with it, it's on every shelf you go but you know you can't have it and this drives you insane and you have to run away and get far away from the chocolate or you grab a handful run to a corner and stuff your face with it, then feel sick and ashamed
It's a battle between hard, using will power and going without to easy and feeling like crap afterwards two unsavoury scenarios
Now same scenario, changed mind set and this is where fake it til you make it can come in, to trick yourself into believing
I hate chocolate, it's bad for me, I just will not eat it anymore my body doesn't need it but only wants it because I keep feeding it so I will stop feeding it and concentrate on the negatives of chocolate and not that 1 positive that I falsely believe in
I tell myself over and over until I stop seeing chocolate everywhere and I can walk past the shelves and they're not screaming at me to buy them and then add time and distance to the equation
Apply same logic to smoking
Then Laura you could have your easier quit
I hope that all makes sense lol x